i didnt know there was such a thing as...

a serious game. decided to look it up after being criticized as being too serious and i thought if there's a game for serious people like me.

running out of tricks

answering an exam where you dont know the answer is like pulling a rabbit from a hat. pulling a rabbit from a hat doesnt make sense yet its amusing to watch. thats the same way i see it when i take an exam and i dont know the answer. i give an answer that doesnt make any sense but for some reason, the answer is worth some credit (it doesnt necessarily mean that the answer must be amusing but merely not a complete waste of time for the one checking it. the answer is worth giving some thought). and like the magic trick, its like pulling an answer out of nowhere and try to make it presentable.

unfortunately, that wasnt the case a while ago when i took the exam. i wasnt able to pull a rabbit from the hat and even if i managed to do it, i dont think my professor would like a magic trick.

it rained today and it was nice

Only love can make it rain
The way the beach is kissed by the sea
Only love can make it rain
Like the sweat of lovers' laying in the fields

Love, Reign o'er me
Love, Reign o'er me, rain on me, reign o'er me

Only love can bring the rain
That makes you yearn to the sky
Only love can bring the rain
That falls like tears from on high

Love, reign o'er me, rain on me
Love, reign o'er me, rain on me, reign o'er me

On the dry and dusty road
The nights we spend apart alone
I need to get back home to cool cool rain

I can't sleep and I lay and I think
The nights are hot and black as ink
Oh God, I need a drink of cool cool rain

Love, reign o'er me, rain on me
Oh love, reign o'er me, reign on me

Burger King now serving beer!

i dont know when this started in the Philippines but based from a quick browse from Google search results, this started in the US this January 2010.

This move by BK generated mixed reactions (from "hell yeah!" to "this is stupid" and "it will generate lawsuits"). personally, i like it. when i saw the poster here (im in BK right now to study for an exam), i quickly thought its an interesting move. of course this is a product of market research and i wonder what their research told them to go for this unlikely move to serve beer.

im not much of a beer drinker myself lately so i wont benefit from this new menu. i just really find it interesting. maybe this move is safer for BK to do compared to McDonalds because BK's usual customers come from a certain age group and social class that are mostly responsible drinkers. that is the assumption.

seems plausible.

In the sex game, stressed men choose dissimilar mates.  

and i thought i was just turning into a robin scherbatsky. too much stuff to do leads to lowered standards and poor decisions. too busy to care. 

sleepless nights coming up

its crunch time once again. not only at school but also at work.

for school, i have a final exam this coming saturday. that means i have to go on leave for two days to study. that means i have to finish one week's worth of work in 3 days instead of 5. that means longer hours in the office.

and my work contract is about to end in a few weeks. so i have to deliver my required outputs before march ends.

just a few more weeks before...i crash and burn. this means i have to work twice as hard before the nasty beginning kicks in. seems like a waste of effort but well, i need to do what i have to do.

well, at least ive been conditioning myself to desensitize myself a bit from what's about to happen and ive come up with plans so i wont stop from moving forward. well, its a step forward because it makes me productive in a way.

life is harsh. and so am I

never slow down for anything. never stop for anyone. life is bearable this way since this is how life is basically.

"That's the thing about greed arch. It's blind, and it doesn't know when to stop."  - Lenny Cole

maybe amnesia can help

When you can see the future, you think you're capable of changing it. But you're just a witness to coming moments, unable to help, even if you wanted to and maybe you don't. Sometimes you think you're supposed to learn something, about patience or distance, but in the end it's all about discipline. Seeing things you don't always want to and just moving on. After a while things become easier. Your dream keeps your mind from wandering. You begin to accept things as they are. Every man has his destiny. You can't escape it, even if you can see it coming.- Pleasure

Imagine a world without God

i need to wake up and stop ignoring the God awful shitty mess im in. it might be making things easy but its not solving the problem. ignoring it wont change the reality that im going to crash and burn for the nth time. sure ill bounce back but every time i fall down, i cant bounce back as high as before. and im starting to feel the pressure being generated by this mess. and i hate the fact thats its almost breaking me but it never does. always close to the breaking point but it never quite reaches it. how annoying can it get?

right now, i dont know how some people can still think i have a bright future ahead of me. how strangers can tell to me that i will become someone great. i wish they would stop saying such annoying things. im not a gullible person nor stupid enough to think thats possible with where im heading. i dont know how people can still continue to have faith in me.

im trying to kill the blind optimism inside of me. its not doing me any good.

i think i am losing what's left of my mind

aim high.

 if you miss the mark, plummet then plunge. then rinse and repeat until you reach the astronomically high and the abysmally low.


Asok: My relatives want me to have an arranged marriage.

Wally: If they find someone who's totally hot and has low standards, ask if she has a sister.

Asok: What about love?

Wally: How can you not love THAT?

L-O-V-E's just another word i never learned to pronounce

im amazed that people still think im capable of loving another person. some people still expect that something will happen. that this love thing is for everybody. isnt it obvious that im not capable of such thing? its my defect, its my disability. i will admit that there might be something wrong with me (note, i said "might") but thats just the way i am. im a very rational (and self-centered) person and the irrational just doesnt work for me. i find it hard to deal with the irrational. the realm of the rational is my comfort zone and i will never go out of this zone for the simple reason that there's no point exploring outside its realm. so please, stop pestering me with nonsense and just accept the fact that people like me exist. im really getting tired of explaining and answering "why" questions that im surprised to learn happen to be really irrelevant and a waste of brain cells. i used to think all "why" questions are questions worth answering. im just really annoyed right now.

i should work in a casino

i just thought of a "game" to make life a bit interesting. i thought of it when i remembered harold crick categorizing and jotting down whether the stuff that happens to him is a tragedy or a comedy. of course, its boring to just categorize things to find out whether im in a tragedy or a comedy. so in the game that i thought of, what i would do is, make my life either as a tragedy or comedy depending on life's response. this somehow makes use of the concepts of fate and free will. well, more of the exercise of free will based from fate. well, its more of a game of chance followed by an exercise of free will.

anyway, the game goes like this:

so im bored. i see something like a car about to reach an intersection. if it goes left, i do something that will screw my life. like, flunk an exam. if it goes right, i will do the opposite, meaning do something to improve my life, like aim for a perfect score. if it goes straight and not make a turn, then i do what im in the mood to do when the exam comes. so thats three choices dependent on what will happen. of course, thats the simplest explanation. being the person that i am, it will never be as simple as that. i will make it very complicated, like inducing something to happen or trying to elicit a response from a group of people and try to come up with a general assessment whether its a positive or negative response. of course, this isnt an original idea. people do this all the time. its even based from the coin toss practice. only difference is, i make it more complicated and my future is on the line. well, not really. since i dont care about my future anymore, i cant really say my future is on the line. im just bored and i just want to do things. unfortunately, im afflicted with this unknown disease where i need a reason to do things. sadly, there is no cure for it but to do idiotic things like coming up with this stupid yet surprisingly interesting (well, a bit interesting) game. at least i can conduct social experiments and get to use my social environment in making decisions based on chance.

5 more pounds...

and ive gained the 25 pounds ive lost since 2008. it took me more than a year to lose 25 pounds. i gained 20 pounds since september. that cant be right. well, last august 2009, my weight was 145 pounds (when i graduated from college back in 2004, i was around 150-155 pounds). now, i weigh at 165. the weighing scale must be defective. or im really gaining weight really quickly. i never thought i can gain this much weight in just a few months. wait, i think i have thought that i can gain weight quickly (the same way i can lose 5 pounds overnight). i proposed a bet years ago that i can gain 10 pounds in a month. well, there were no takers. so im going to test myself whether i really can gain at least 10 pounds in a month. today is the 24th of january. by the 24th of february, my weight must be at least 175. this is a challenge for someone who loses weight quickly.

wow, im talking about my weight. life must be extremely boring lately. or very uneventful.

chained to being unchained

im starting to hate the fact that i moved on when i shouldnt have. oh well. its another addition to my accumulating losses. now that i think about it, its weird that i find it difficult not to move on. maybe im too used to failure. yeah sure i dwell on some stuff sometimes but i dont really get stuck. i just keep moving forward...or backward...or sideways. the thing is, i always move. im stuck on not being stuck. if i do appear to be stuck, its an illusion. there's always something brewing behind the scenes. i think this is the curse of people who always plan too far ahead

how?

how can people operate on a daily basis with only three hours of sleep? i slept around 5am and woke around 8am. right now, im trying not to fall asleep. but its pointless to stay awake since my brain cant function and be productive.

the perfect way to snare a girl with daddy issues

I love How I Met Your Mother

the dance/musical for the 100th episode "girls v suits"



i also liked the guest star Stacy Keibler. unfortunately, Michelle Mccool is my favorite WWE Diva, followed by Tori Wilson, then Stacy Keibler. but i guess the first two wont pass as hot bartender for the episode.

Girls versus Suits (HIMYM S5E12)

"you never know when youre about to meet someone really important. its not like life gives you a warning. you just look up and there they are" - Future Ted Mosby 

"its funny. sometime you walk into a place youve never been before. but you get the feeling youre exactly where youre supposed to be" - Future Ted Mosby

funny people

i heard a rumor just now that if proven to be true will confirm everything i thought will happen. it would further convince me that i do have a good sense of foresight. and it will also convince me that i have indeed figured out where my life is headed and my attitude towards it is just appropriate. if this rumor is true...i have seen everything and life just became as boring as lint.

the most i can do is try to amuse myself with the details.