RIP my nokia 3660 (february 2004-november 2007)

i still cant get over the loss of my nokia 3660. it was really unexpected. or maybe not. its been malfunctioning for months. but that was because of its memory card and not really the phone. but then again, the reason (i think) why it finally broke down was memory-related. i switched to its phone memory and it probably reached its limit. and so it finally decided that it cant take any more messages and it decided to shut down for good. so it really was the phone. anyway, i really feel bad about it.

it may not be the best phone but its been with me for quite some time. i have lots of memories with it (graduation, baguio, albay, puerto galera, law school entrance exams, etc). i had it since late february 2004 as a replacement for my first phone, my nokia 3210, which broke a few weeks prior (recurrent battery problem). i didnt feel as bad then (regarding the loss of my 1st phone) because although i loved my nokia 3210, i felt it's no longer as good as most of the phones during that time. so when my nokia 3210 broke, i felt it was time for it to go. it served me well (if i remember correctly, it was functional from december 1999 to january 2004).

anyway, let me just narrate the last day of my nokia 3660, november 20, 2007:

the day was as ordinary as any other day. it was a tuesday and i had a specpro class and an agency class. the agency class ended and my blockmate (guess who) just talked with our new seatmate. she was some kind of an exchange student required to take a class in our college. and since she's not familiar with how things are done in our college, my blockmate decided to help her a little. so i tagged along and helped her too.

not having the readings for our agency class, i lent her my copy so she could have it photocopied. unfortunately, it was taking quite some time to have the readings photocopied so we decided to come back for it later (actually, the photocopier broke down when it was her turn). she asked for my number so she could text me when she's about to return the readings to me. after that, we went our separate ways to mind our own businesses and my blockmate and i went to lunch (beach haus). there i remembered that my phone's battery is running low, with one bar left. so if she was going to text me, she better do it soon or she might as well return it on thursday, the next class meeting. i didnt ask for her number because i was expecting her to return it to me soon so i thought, if she's going to text me, im going to get her number anyway. i wont have to bother asking for it

i was supposed to have another class that day (medjur) by 6pm. so i stayed in the library and read some locgov readings while waiting for that 6pm class. while reading locgov, i received a text message from luningning. just a couple of forwarded messages. i found it a little surprising because she hasnt texted me for quite some time and the timing is a little bad because im trying to conserve my phone battery. an hour later or maybe more, i received another text message, announcing that we will not have the 6pm class. ok, thats a relief. aside from no class, at least my phone battery has not gone empty. there i realized how stupid i was. if i asked our new seatmate her phone number, i could have told her that she could return it to me some other day and that my phone battery is running low. anyway, i waited til 6pm since ive told her i have a 6pm class (and besides, im just going to the mall, so im not really in a hurry). i waited and 6pm came. no text message. 6:09 came, i decided to ride the jeepney to go to the mall and have my dinner (but i already have a hunch she's going to text me the moment i ride a jeepney). a few minutes later, she texted, asking me where i was. it was 6:15. nice timing. i asked her where she was and thats when my phone finally had enough. it shut itself off. i thought it was just another empty battery. but when i got home an hour or more later, it wasnt charging. tried borrowing my brother's battery, it wasnt switching on. by that time, i knew it was broken but i was still hoping i could have it repaired. only the day after, when i went to the mall to have it repaired, that i finally knew that it was gone. the repairman said it would cost about P2.5K to have it repaired. might as well get a new phone if that would be the damage, right? so there. that was the last remaining moments of my nokia 3660. there might still be a possibility to have it repaired but it might not even last that long anyway. and its almost outdated. not yet obsolete. just outdated

so my nokia 3660, thanks for all the memories.

another one of em bad days!

i just had a really bad day. i dont know why. its an unfortunate day similar to the august ones. the day started well. i had an 8am class and even if i left the house a little past 730am, i wasnt late and made it to class before the professor got there. so it was a good start. then i was able to read a little for my 1030am class and things went well there too. and from there, things just became, well, ugly. after that class, we accompanied a classmate to photocopy some assigned readings. since it was taking some time to have the readings photocopied in the 3rd floor library, we decided to go have it photocopied in another photocopying booth. but instead of getting it done quicker, the photocopier for some reason appeared to have broken down when it was our turn. so, that unfortunate event number one. then when i was about to have lunch, the viand i ordered spilt. why? i was just careless i guess. and i almost spilt it again when i was paying for the food i just ordered. was that still carelessness? i dont think so. its a sign of inevitable bad things to come! so that's unfortunate event number two. and then i went back to malcolm hall since i have a 6pm class. i decided to use the free time to study. so i went to my locker to get some readings. while taking out the readings, i scraped my finger on the side of my locker. unfortunate event number three. then, i studied in the library while waiting for 6pm but the 6pm class was cancelled a few hours before the class was supposed to start. unfortunate event number four since i waited in the library for nothing. ok, at least i studied. and then i was waiting for a text message from a classmate because she borrowed my readings. and i only have one bar of battery left. when she texted me i just got on a jeepney and since i wasnt far from malcolm hall, i decided to get off. as i got off, i texted her asking where she is and thats when my cellphone's battery went empty. ok, just got off the jeep, not knowing how to contact her, i decided to go back to malcolm hall, thinking she might be there. she's not. and i have no idea what she replied to my text message. i just wasted my jeepney ride. unfortunate event number five. and then i went to burger king to eat my dinner. i decided to order a burger i havent tried before. i didnt like it. nice way to end the day. thats unfortunate event number six. and when i got home, i charged my cellphone only to find out its broken! crap! its not charging and i cant switch it on. ultimate unfortunate event! and thats unfortunate event number seven. and then, i placed my sim card in my mother's cellphone and learned that i have a class tomorrow which was cancelled yesterday. the unfortunate events have not ended (and thats number eight) and now, im writing this. so far, no unfortunate event number nine. im hoping that tomorrow will be a good day. please, let it be a good day.

actually, what made the day as bad as the august ones was the fact that my cellphone's broken and the timing it broke down. i really need my cellphone right now. not a cellphone, my cellphone. all my contacts are there, plus scheds and reminders.

is it too much to ask?

im just tired. probably. or not in the mood. most likely, im sick of it. it just so happens that i dont want to play that game anymore.

i guess this is how some actors/actresses feel if they are recognized only in one sucessful film, or probably the same frustrating feeling for some authors being known only for one particular book they authored (duh!). i think tobey maguire's sick of being known only as spider-man or jason biggs as that guy who fucked the pie. they have other movies, but i think people pester them with that particular movie that launched their careers and they hope that it wont last a lifetime because if they take acting seriously, they would like to be recognized in other roles they've played. the fact that they only remind people of one role probably makes them feel that they are seen as having limited acting capabilities or some no-talent one hit wonder. maybe they get that same frustrating feeling ive just had a few days ago.

its really tiring to put up with something that you dont enjoy anymore. sure it was fun at first but how the hell should i know it would last this long (i think there's something grammatically wrong here, but what the hell). its like a very stale "knock-knock" joke that you hear every single day. i cant force myself to laugh forever now can i? unfortunately for me, people arent tired of it yet. thats easy for them because theyre just mere spectators to an act i dont want to do anymore. i mean, what the crap do i have to do to make things clear that im not interested to do the stupid act or whatever it should be called. ive been waiting for people to drop it but some just dont want to and some just dont get it. or maybe they just dont care.

behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool
If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat
No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

Fifth of November

Remember, remember the Fifth of November,

The Gunpowder Treason and Plot,

I know of no reason

Why Gunpowder Treason

Should ever be forgot.

Guy Fawkes, Guy Fawkes, t'was his intent

To blow up King and Parliament.

Three-score barrels of powder below

To prove old England's overthrow;

By God's providence he was catch'd

With a dark lantern and burning match.

Holloa boys, holloa boys, let the bells ring.

Holloa boys, holloa boys, God save the King!