Kayoiau kokoro

Mijika ni arumono
Tsune ni ki wo tsuketeinai to
Amari ni chikasugite
Miushinatteshimaisou

Anata ga saikin taiken shita
Shiawase wa ittai nan desuka...

Tada sore dake no koto ga
Kiseki da to kizuku...

You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
And I'll never take it for granted...

Oitsuzuketekita yume...

Hitonigiri no yuuki wo mune ni
Ashita wo ikinuku tame ni
And I'll never take it for granted
Let's go

w...i...e...r...d...weird!

after blogging about the PDA not functioning, i gave it another try, meaning i tried plugging it and see if it will recharge itself. and it did! weird. ive been trying to "fix" it for weeks and after posting an entry (below) that it's inability to function is making my life difficult, it suddenly came back to life. is the universe reading my blog? if it is, why do i have to put my complaints in writing before the universe does something about it?

another weird thing happened yesterday, i changed my phone's ringtone. i got tired of hearing "shake yer head" every time i receive a text message. and lately my text life has been very active (my text life hasn't been this active since the first quarter of 2006). anyway, so i changed it yesterday. and while i was hanging out with some blockmates somewhere in UP, i heard my ringtone in someone else's phone. and that someone was some pretty chick sitting behind me which i remember seeing because when i arrived in that coffee place, she was really someone who will catch most guy's attention. what made it so weird was not only that i recently changed my phone's ringtone and that we have exactly the same ringtone (and i mean exactly the same), but the fact that i make my own ringtones. i dont download them, i make my own ringtones. i edit mp3s and convert them into ringtones for my phone (i even create my own "remix" version of some songs). so i wasnt expecting to hear someone with the same ringtone. but then again, the portion of the song i used for the ringtone is somewhat "common" so i guess it shouldnt be that weird. anyway, it just felt so weird yesterday. 

life has been very weird lately. incredibly weird. 

i need a secretary!

i think my soulmate is someone who will act as my secretary...anyway...

my cousin's PDA is not charging! and its been 2 weeks! maybe even 3. and im having a hard time sticking to plans and doing tasks because i dont know how to create a schedule without the PDA. im so dependent on it. damn it. it has to break down when i need it the most. what makes it worse is that i dont have the time to have it fixed. and the money too. eheads concert is lurking just around the corner. 

i have OLA stuff to do, clients to contact, backlogs to read, a long quiz by next week, digests to write, codals to read to prepare for the final exams, extracurricular stuff, family stuff, decision to make which means i need time to deliberate on it, etc. and all of them are just in my head arranged in no particular order, swirling in the most unorganized way possible. to think one small gadget can have all these laid out so neatly in an easy to follow systematic plan. crap. i hate getting too attached to something. which reminds me of what my professor this sem said, one should never get too attached because of change. since the only thing constant in life is change, if you get too attached to something and change enters the picture, the pain that it brings is just unimaginable. its depressing to see the thing, after getting too attached to it, be lost or be changed forever. it is something worth taking into consideration. but i think the better approach is allow yourself to get attached even to the point its like really giving everything, just dont think it will be forever or it will last long. dont plan too far ahead, dont think too much, just live in the present. but then again, that would be silly since if it ends, it may not hurt as much but it will still cause some sort of disarray. i dont know. i havent been processing thoughts in my head lately.