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One meets his destiny often in the road he takes to avoid it.

Everything is determined, the beginning as well as the end, by forces over which we have no control. It is determined for the insect, as well as for the star. Human beings, vegetables, or cosmic dust, we all dance to a mysterious tune, intoned in the distance by an invisible piper. - Albert Einstein

Fate is what happens to you when your luck runs out. - Michael Garrett Marino

It is a mistake to try to look too far ahead. The chain of destiny can only be grasped one link at a time.  - Sir Winston Churchill

easy to read

i get rashes when im stressed. i cough when im tired and ive reached my physical limit. i touch my lower lip with my right index finger when im asked and the answer isnt good or i dont know the answer. i look up when i suddenly wonder about something. i hum when i nervous.

handshake of carbon monoxide

as soon as you're born, you start dying

ive been thinking of the concept of "moving heaven and earth" for someone. for me its...senseless. even if someone moves heaven and earth for me, if i really dont like the person, that person wont get a shot. not even a slight chance. so she moved heaven and earth for me. so? i didnt ask her to (or if i did, i was just joking. or simply being mean). and i will admit that showing to me that she can move heaven and earth is quite a feat but again, so? is such an act supposed to make me fall for a person? if so, why? i really dont like the person. my mind wont change. nor will my feelings change. point is, some things are just plain impossible or will never happen (even if heaven and earth switch places. or hell freezes over). its like a fact of life. some things arent meant to be or supposed to happen. thats the way life is.

if her name is holly, ill be damned

...all that childhood fairy tale nonsense

i just finished watching 500 days of summer. after weeks of looking for someone to watch it with, i decided to just download it (i think its no longer in cinemas). and i just watched it now because im waiting for an album download to finish (Glee: The Music Volume 1).

so what do i think? well, now i understand the people's comments (ranging from cute to disappointment). the movie as a whole is...ok. it is an offbeat romcom. its not a torture to watch like the Dragonball movie or Pathfinder or D-Wars. i dont think ive ever seen a romcom that was so horrible that i couldnt bear watching it again. i certainly dont find it addictive (like 50 First Dates, Terminator2, Transformers, Stranger than Fiction, The Wedding Singer, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Forgetting Sarah Marshall). its not horrible by the way. its really just...ok. its likeable. maybe my problem with it is that its too realistic. if i wanted something real, i would just go do it or live it myself. maybe im not in the mood for something real.

as for the characters, i think summer is wise and tom is an idiot. why cant more women be like summer? well, because if there were more summers, the world has to deal with more toms and that sucks. there are lots of idiot guys. some jerks turn into idiots when they think theyve found the one. im not even sure if there is such a thing. when i hear the one, two characters come into mind: Neo from the Matrix and Duncan Macleod, the Highlander. the latter isnt really the one but it just comes to mind because "there can be only one".

i keep digressing...

i think tom was a good portrayal of what guys undergo...well, idiotic guys undergo after a break-up (but i like Forgetting Sarah Marshall portrayal better). why is tom an idiot? because his expectations arent aligned with reality and summer had to say this to make him realize he's being an idiot: "You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me." but then again, thats what made it realistic. you can be absolutely right about something but entirely wrong about someone. thats what makes it painful to accept. its not being wrong per se but being half right and half wrong. i think its easier to accept that one is completely wrong than be half right and half wrong because chances are, if one thinks he or she is half-right, it doesnt usually follow that he or she thinks that he or she is half-wrong. i think we have an inclination to focus more on being right than being wrong. and i dont think its common for us to think that we can be both. right and wrong. anyway, being in the half-half state is like finally having something perfect to give but the person you want to receive it wouldnt want to receive it for the simple reason that its the wrong person. and that wrong person is right in thinking that. i guess thats what sucks about it. i wouldnt really know. this is a "missing piece" by shel silverstein situation and i dont have a missing piece because im a big o. yes, i still insist that im a big o despite the objections.

this is my favorite line in the movie:
Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

a few years ago, a female friend said its difficult to dump guys. my reaction was like "really? why? isnt it as simple as saying no? youre pretty, you can get away with things." well, now i understand why its not that simple and why some resort to cliche break up lines. but i think its better to just say it straight the way summer did. its painful but its clear, its honest, its truthful. if one cant do this, i guess it makes sense to just...disappear without a trace. i think thats a clear sign too.

i dont get this:
Summer: I named my cat after Springsteen.
Tom: Cool... what was his name?
Summer: Bruce.

is there any other answer than Bruce?

lastly, this is why i think Summer is wise, because of her awareness of this:
Tom (on summer's previous relationships): what happened? why didnt they work out?
Summer: What always happens. life.

i think Tom should adopt Robin's approach in How I Met Your Mother Season 5 Episode 8: The Playbook. thats how life is. it happens. the only way life wont happen is if youre prepared for everything life can bring. when there's nothing life can surprise you with. in such situtations, the only thing left to do is wait for life to stop. ive been told before that this is how life is. this is how it operates and i agree. i believe that life does happen when its supposed to happen.

i feel really old

reality bites

Lelaina: I was really going to be somebody by the time I was 23.
Troy: Honey, all you have to be by the time you're 23 is yourself.
Lelaina: I don't know who that is anymore.
Troy: I do. And we all love her. I love her. She breaks my heart again and again, but I love her.
***
Lelaina: I'd like to somehow make a difference in people's lives.
Troy: And I... I would like to buy them all a Coke.
Lelaina: And you wonder why we never got involved?
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Troy: I am not under any orders to make the world a better place.
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Lelaina: I just don't understand why things just can't go back to normal at the end of the half hour like on the Brady Bunch or something.
Troy: Well, 'cause Mr. Brady died of AIDS. Things don't turn out like that.

Guilt is like a bag of fuckin' bricks. All ya gotta do is set it down.

"Pressure. It changes everything. Pressure. Some people, you squeeze them, they focus. Others fold. Can you summon your talent at will? Can you deliver on a deadline? Can you sleep at night?" - John Milton

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John Milton: Free will, It's like butterfly wings. One touch and it never gets off the ground. I only set the stage. You pull your own strings

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John Milton: What did I say to you? WHAT WERE MY WORDS TO YOU? Maybe it was your time to lose. You didn't think so.

Kevin Lomax: Lose? I don't lose! I win! I win! I'm a lawyer, that's my job, that's what I do!

John Milton: I rest my case. Vanity is definitely my favorite sin. Self-love, it's so basic. It's not like you didn't care for Mary Ann, Kevin. You were just a little more involved with someone else: yourself.

Kevin Lomax: You're right. I did it all. I let her go.

John Milton: Don't be too hard on yourself, Kevin. You wanted something more.

Kevin Lomax: I let her go and just kept on moving.

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Kevin Lomax: Why the law? Cut the shit, Dad! Why the lawyers? Why the law?

John Milton: Because the law, my boy, puts us into everything. It's the ultimate backstage pass. It's the new priesthood, baby. Did you know there are more students in law school than lawyers walking the Earth?

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John Milton: Free will, it is a bitch.

sunny friday

Im not sure if it was april 10 or april 14...i think it was April 10, 2000. it was April 10, 2000 that i submitted my requirements in the admission office of ateneo to signify my intent to enroll as one of its new students for the school year 2000-2001. i wasnt excited. i wasnt disappointed either. ateneo's not bad. it just so happened that i wasnt planning to study in ateneo. i submitted those requirements a few days before the deadline. i think the deadline was April 14. i was still trying to think if there were other ways for me to be accepted in UP or UST. thats why when i submitted my requirements in ateneo, i felt that i was already running out of time and running out of options. i was thinking that maybe its in ateneo im supposed to end up.

the reason i remembered that day was because of today's sunny day. its a really sunny friday today and this bright and somewhat cheerful sunshine somehow resembles that day i set foot on ateneo to declare my intention to be its student. i just realized that it must have been a beautiful day that day. i just didnt notice because then things werent going as i wanted things to be.

having days like this, an atmosphere that resembles a similar atmosphere in a memorable past makes me feel that time is indeed an illusion

freak on a leash

"im appointing you as my assistant. i want you to protect my back. do you understand? if im leaving you in charge of defending my back, it means you can shoot me from behind at any time. if i ever stray from my path, shoot me right away with those hands.you have that right. will you follow me?" - Roy Mustang

im running out of time. im running out of options. one person can only do so much. i already made my decision. i just dont know how it can be done exactly with the little time remaining because of the delays incurred. with what happened recently, i think luck isnt on my side. i doubt a miracle will happen. damn it. i have to do everything myself. really bothersome.

too good to be true

i was wrong. life wasnt making a change in its course, it was actually adjusting mine. sneaky, sneaky. well, at least its still doing what i thought it will do. only this time, im not in favor of what its doing (as usual and as expected) and its not the course i want to take.

interesting

it seems life is changing its course. its trying not to do things the way ive foreseen it or the way i expected it will do. its like playing chess or a game of cards and the opponent suddenly breaks its old style of playing the game. youre a sneaky little bastard life. but by changing its course, as of this moment, its running along the path i want it to take. so it makes me wonder if life is finally giving in or it has another trick up its sleeve. in any case, its making things interesting. and im already in my third week of being in a good mood. a bit bored but at least not in a foul mood.

delightful

i still havent seen the movie...

i liked the hopscotch part...

what i realized in this video is how physically unfit ive become. joseph gordon levitt lifted zooey deschanel so easily during the latter part of the video. i struggle lifting a girl 5-6 inches shorter than but with the same build as zooey deschanel! i really need to exercise.