Summer Choi

The Day of the Lone Wolf

I was browsing my folders in my laptop when i noticed an old college file from June 25, 2003, 8:30pm. Opened it and saw my birthday profile which i encoded years ago. It's from my cousin's birthday book which she lost. Good thing i was able to encode my birthday profile and have a soft copy of it. Reading it now, it made me realize, holy crap...

The highly intense individuals born on November __ must pursue their own course. Living paradoxes, those born on this day are complex individuals who never cease to amaze their family and friends with their unique combination of aggression and sensitivity. Their ideology is extremely important to them, but it can change in a bewildering fashion, its twists and turns leading to a maze of irony and high seriousness. For example, it may be difficult to determine whether a November __ individual is conservative or radical, right or left wing, an upholder of the social order or anarchic rebel. Ultimately such terms have little meaning in reference to November __ thought patterns, which must be understood on their own terms.

Although November __ people appear to others as physical types, the primary thrust of their day is mental, even intellectual. No matter what their walk of life or profession, they can often be found arguing their case, refusing to submit to any ready-made dogmas or belief systems. They are basically self-taught thinkers, and for many, school is best an annoyance and at worst an imprisonment. They have a strong penchant to take the opposing point of view due to their resistance to absolute statements and generalization of all types.

November __ people enjoy pointed humor, and will use wit and irony as powerful weapons against their opponents and also as a  means to clarify and give shape to their own views. Most often, however, they make an impression of forthright seriousness. Emotionally, November __ people are usually caught up in their own personal maelstrom. Romantic relationships may surface with frequency, but those born on this day have enormous difficulties in maintaining stability in this area. Their friendships, on the other hand, are usually rock-solid, and highly meaningful. Those who are involved with them will never forget the experience --- difficult, maddening, recalcitrant and paradoxical, they go their own way and do their own thing. For example, they can be the most generous of individuals and yet at other times the most selfish. Often their goodness and true nature is more easily understood by animals and small children, on a purely intuitive level, than by a critical, analytical adult mind. A love of nature and of the animal world is in fact sacred to them, being their one constant refuge from disappointing and uncertain human experiences.

Perhaps the greatest problem of November __ people is coming to understand themselves, and being able to straighten out their complex, difficult personalities. Usually it is seething emotions which keep them from viewing themselves in a more objective light. Many born on this day use their work as an escape from what seems an excessive self-involvement. Concerning the four major faculties of perception --- intellect, emotion, intuition, sensation --- a titanic effort must be made by November __ people to bring these into balance. Only then can they progress in their personal development and come to terms with the society around them.

We don't know what kind of people we truly are until the moment before our deaths. - Itachi

"Jonathan Trager, prominent television producer for ESPN, died last night from complications of losing his soul mate and his fiancee. He was 35 years old. Soft-spoken and obsessive, Trager never looked the part of a hopeless romantic. But, in the final days of his life, he revealed an unknown side of his psyche. This hidden quasi-Jungian persona surfaced during the Agatha Christie-like pursuit of his long reputed soul mate, a woman whom he only spent a few precious hours with. Sadly, the protracted search ended late Saturday night in complete and utter failure. Yet even in certain defeat, the courageous Trager secretly clung to the belief that life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. Uh-uh. But rather, its a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan. Asked about the loss of his dear friend, Dean Kansky, the Pulitzer Prize-winning author and executive editor of the New York Times, described Jonathan as a changed man in the last days of his life. "Things were clearer for him," Kansky noted. Ultimately Jonathan concluded that if we are to live life in harmony with the universe, we must all possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call "fatum", what we currently refer to as destiny." - Dean Kansky (Serendipity, 2001)