yeah. im sorry. i really am. not even God can move me. God has never been good with giving reasons huh? mysterious ways my ass. bet you want to kill me, dont you future self? i wish you could. not even i can do that. im that part of your life who failed at everything. everything. when it mattered the most! yeah. well, i hope you have a stronger resolve.
this is the part of your life you really wouldnt want to read about. that explains why there arent much articles lately. i hope we hit our noggin and forget all about this point of our life. im not even sure if this point of our life is supposed to exist. havent had deja vus lately. had a faint one. its like our life is being re-written. and i have a nasty feeling that youre blaming me for what im doing. well, like i said, not even God can move me.
but you know, dont you think this is proof that we were right all along? or our past self knew, the high school self, that this is what will happen. that this is our destiny. that we cant escape fate. that each day that passes, it affirms that our past self was right. our 14 year old self saw our future. he even put it on paper to remind us. wonder where that piece of paper is?
he knew better. our 2004 self forgot all about it and believed otherwise. maybe its time to listen to 14 year old self. 2004 self made a mistake
i just watched a movie and well, there are people who die alone. 14 year old self is right. no matter how much you try to get what you want, it will be taken away simply because youre built as a solo act. we were ok with that, going solo for an entire lifetime, until 2004 self decided to fall for someone and broke us beyond repair.
much as i want to refuse to believe my Godless and cocky 14 year old self, well, all the roads point to what he has been saying all along.
