you have no idea what i have or havent done to get where i am - mike ross

"You're a fraud and you know it
But it's too good to throw it all away
Anyone would do the same
You've got 'em going
And you're careful not to show it
Sometimes you even fool yourself a bit
It's like magic
But it's always been a smoke and mirrors game
Anyone would do the same"

- Smoke and Mirrors

would anyone have done the same? i still remember that look of disappointment and disgust from more than half a decade ago. i always crossed the line because i never really cared about my future. or about anything. and back then, i just...went too far. it was my never my intention...well, it happened and what's done cannot be undone. even if i say sorry and visit that person's grave everyday for the rest of my life, im still bound to pay for what happened then.

i thought i finally broke free from that period of regret. i thought i was finally forgiven and was given a chance to be truly...well, i got my bag of fucking bricks back. fits me well. at least i wont ruin people's lives anymore.

the more i meet that woman, i want to see her more - Yutaka

“To live is to be ready to say goodbye,
For loneliness is a friend who will not betray.
Shiver not in the pouring love, instead buy an umbrella.
Believe not in happiness,
even in the passions of love…
Confess not your love,
even if you would die for it.
For love is like a season;
It comes and goes to decorate life’s boredom.
The moment you call it Love,
it melts away like an ice sculpture…
Goodbye, Someday.
Happiness lasts not forever;
as despair lasts not forever.
One day you will need to say ‘goodbye’,
Just like how you said ‘hello.’
At death, some look back on being loved;
while some look back on having loved…
I shall look back on having loved…”

- Sayonara Itsuka