WTF!!!

150 unread emails! thats how busy ive been lately. i check my email addresses (at least 3 of them) everyday, but i dont have time to read all of them. so my yahoomail's inbox, the busiest one, reached 150 unread emails. fortunately, my two gmail accounts were easier to handle. 

the reason im making a big fuss out of this is because i hate seeing more than 10 unread emails in my inbox (so seeing the unread emails accumulate over the course of the week just made me more furious each time i check my email and i dont have the time to read them). thats why i have more than one email address. so the unread emails in my email inbox wont pile up. i hate seeing a lot of unread emails! i just hate it! really, really hate it! the same way i dont like seeing other people's inboxes with hundreds even thousands of unread email. i dont know why i hate a lot of unread emails, i just dont like it. so now, im trying to read most of them (because not all of them are worth reading)

Tristan...

is addicted to facebook

is a mafia wars addict

is listening to the Every Second Counts album by Plain White T's and likes what he hears

wants to have a heart attack...seriously

is in Marvin the Paranoid Android mode

needs to study because its the finals period

needs to finish some OLA stuff

just had his last hearing for OLA yesterday

found out that he likes to wear a suit and is thinking when he could wear it again. haha.

would like to watch a movie but unfortunately everyone's busy

might not go to class later because he has lots of stuff to do

just said "yeah right!"

hasnt been blogging lately

hasnt been craving for food lately

is really messed up for quite some time now and quite some time means 2 months

misses his heart of darkness

might be an emo and is just starting to realize it. haha

needs some endorphins

has been suffering from really, really violent mood swings

is paranoid and crazy

is in physical pain for more than a week now

has been sleeping a lot lately

is thinking of what he could do this coming saturday night because he hates lame saturday nights at home

should stop wasting his time and study instead

just doesnt care anymore

wants to hate again...but couldnt

is a masochist for sticking like glue to something that hurts a lot

should really be studying

wants coffee to condition his mind to study

has to leave for school by 12noon to meet someone for law and envi class

has been making nowhere plans since friday and therefore he is the nowhere man

wants to write a decent blog entry for a change

just thought of a good story this morning and is contemplating whether he will finally start writing short stories

should be posting these status messages on facebook and not on blogger

misses his college blockmates and will miss his law school blockmates

cant wait for the next How I Met Your Mother episode

should really stop writing "status messages" because he needs to leave by 12 noon

is going bonkers

has been doing crazy stuff lately...out of boredom?

is really suffering from crazy mood swings because he just went from depressed to happy in a split second for no reason at all

has been avoiding the doctor for weeks now because he doesnt want to know if he is seriously ill or something

could be dying but he sort of heard that before so it doesnt really matter and he doesnt really care

most likely wont die soon because he is an "evil grass". hahahaha

might live a long and painful life which will end in a long and painful death

might live a short life and death would be a sweet escape

should really just study

just realized that he has been taking a break from greatness for five years now

wishes he could easily move on the same way he did with the eheads

still wants a Cupid's Tommy Gun

needs to sort out a lot of stuff because life has been really serious lately

will end this entry with a quote from Nagato that got him thinking: "It is because we love that we sacrifice...and hate."

March Madness

I thought i was going to be busy until March 16. i was wrong. i just found out earlier that i will be busy until the semester ends. WTF!!!! crap. so, a month filled with sleepless nights coming up? could be. what im sure of is that i will need coffee. lots and lots of coffee. so, all work and no play? not really. the play part should be scheduled. actually, its already scheduled. crap. thats no fun at all. this is going to be one insanely stressful month. 

Kayoiau kokoro

Mijika ni arumono
Tsune ni ki wo tsuketeinai to
Amari ni chikasugite
Miushinatteshimaisou

Anata ga saikin taiken shita
Shiawase wa ittai nan desuka...

Tada sore dake no koto ga
Kiseki da to kizuku...

You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
And I'll never take it for granted...

Oitsuzuketekita yume...

Hitonigiri no yuuki wo mune ni
Ashita wo ikinuku tame ni
And I'll never take it for granted
Let's go

w...i...e...r...d...weird!

after blogging about the PDA not functioning, i gave it another try, meaning i tried plugging it and see if it will recharge itself. and it did! weird. ive been trying to "fix" it for weeks and after posting an entry (below) that it's inability to function is making my life difficult, it suddenly came back to life. is the universe reading my blog? if it is, why do i have to put my complaints in writing before the universe does something about it?

another weird thing happened yesterday, i changed my phone's ringtone. i got tired of hearing "shake yer head" every time i receive a text message. and lately my text life has been very active (my text life hasn't been this active since the first quarter of 2006). anyway, so i changed it yesterday. and while i was hanging out with some blockmates somewhere in UP, i heard my ringtone in someone else's phone. and that someone was some pretty chick sitting behind me which i remember seeing because when i arrived in that coffee place, she was really someone who will catch most guy's attention. what made it so weird was not only that i recently changed my phone's ringtone and that we have exactly the same ringtone (and i mean exactly the same), but the fact that i make my own ringtones. i dont download them, i make my own ringtones. i edit mp3s and convert them into ringtones for my phone (i even create my own "remix" version of some songs). so i wasnt expecting to hear someone with the same ringtone. but then again, the portion of the song i used for the ringtone is somewhat "common" so i guess it shouldnt be that weird. anyway, it just felt so weird yesterday. 

life has been very weird lately. incredibly weird. 

i need a secretary!

i think my soulmate is someone who will act as my secretary...anyway...

my cousin's PDA is not charging! and its been 2 weeks! maybe even 3. and im having a hard time sticking to plans and doing tasks because i dont know how to create a schedule without the PDA. im so dependent on it. damn it. it has to break down when i need it the most. what makes it worse is that i dont have the time to have it fixed. and the money too. eheads concert is lurking just around the corner. 

i have OLA stuff to do, clients to contact, backlogs to read, a long quiz by next week, digests to write, codals to read to prepare for the final exams, extracurricular stuff, family stuff, decision to make which means i need time to deliberate on it, etc. and all of them are just in my head arranged in no particular order, swirling in the most unorganized way possible. to think one small gadget can have all these laid out so neatly in an easy to follow systematic plan. crap. i hate getting too attached to something. which reminds me of what my professor this sem said, one should never get too attached because of change. since the only thing constant in life is change, if you get too attached to something and change enters the picture, the pain that it brings is just unimaginable. its depressing to see the thing, after getting too attached to it, be lost or be changed forever. it is something worth taking into consideration. but i think the better approach is allow yourself to get attached even to the point its like really giving everything, just dont think it will be forever or it will last long. dont plan too far ahead, dont think too much, just live in the present. but then again, that would be silly since if it ends, it may not hurt as much but it will still cause some sort of disarray. i dont know. i havent been processing thoughts in my head lately. 

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger

this is what i have to be. i need to be some kind of machine. to have my brain functioning in its optimal level. my brain is there but its not giving me the amount of focus i need right now. 

i need to get my focus back, restore the intense concentration i had last semester. ever since this sem started, sort of lost my groove and ever since last week, i just went haywire. 

i hope coffee has an ingredient that helps a person focus and not just stimulates the brain...

just for this week, in addition to my classes and OLA duty, i have a midterm exam, a class report, a class project, meeting, an important trip to antipolo RTC (not a hearing, need to talk to the PAO), phone calls to make, miscellaneous stuff to do and if i still have free time, do some research for my research paper and write some digests. just for this week. i really need to have all these done before february comes. im still feeling superstitious that february has a unpleasant surprise for me. 

Take it and Hit it Fred! Come on!

Debbie Gibson's Electric Youth Music Video and Robin Sparkle's Let's Go to the Mall Music Video

ersatz existence

the best things in life are free. and they remain to be free. but with the kind of lives we have, with the way we are being conditioned by modern lifestyle and modern thinking, the way modern society is set-up, the kind of norms and values we allow ourselves to conform and get accustomed to, the priorities our leaders have, the best things in life have become hard to find or inconvenient to access. or maybe even difficult to recognize for some of us. we have to go out of our way, or exert some extra effort in order to enjoy the best things in life. so we are somewhat forced to settle for alternatives to the best things in life even if we have to pay for it. or our idea of the best things in life are distorted to further perpetuate the current order of things. happiness now has a price. so does convenience and comfort which can be ridiculously expensive. our idea of having a decent life has become unnecessarily complicated because of the kind of stuff we are conditioned to appreciate in order to enjoy life. 

life should be simple and free, not artifical and costly. but in our modern world, its a struggle for most of us to go for these so called best things in life. our needs remain to be biologically basic but our wants have grown to be complicated and sometimes absurdly twisted.

again, im writing about something thats supposed to be obvious.

Eheads reunion concert part 2

According to philstar.com, its been confirmed that there will be another Eraserheads Reunion Concert set on March 07, 2009, Saturday (click here to read the article). 

Im not as excited as the time i heard that there will be an Eheads reunion concert last august 30. and when i heard that one, i was really doubtful and wanted to hear it from some reliable source. but when it was confirmed, my reaction then was like "holy crap! its really going to happen!"

my reaction now when i read this piece of information was: "wow, really?"

maybe because i cant forget how the first concert ended and i dont want this one to be a repeat of that. i mean, i hope this 2nd reunion concert (or part 2 since its the continuation of the first if you dont want to consider it as a 2nd reunion concert) sticks to being purely about music and people rocking to what i consider as the greatest band of my time. no drama whatsoever.

of course im happy there's a part 2, that they will finish what they started. the fact that they decided to do this is already a very big thing to all eheads fans or maybe even to the local music industry. maybe even beyond the local music industry. i just hope this one ends well and when i say ends well, i just dont mean about the concert but also to the Eheads. 

new mcdonalds commercial

youtube link: click here

what i like about this commercial (aside from its a mcdonalds commercial):

the 80s kids (the outfit of the little girl reminds me of robin sparkles and debbie gibson's electric youth music video), it makes use of an eheads song as its theme song, the theme song is Ang Huling El Bimbo (which is an entirely different matter from simply using an eheads song. the song has some special significance to me), the grown up version of the girl and lastly, the story






tuwing pumupunta ako dito, naalala ko ang lahat.
parang kahapon lang...

parang ang tagal na naming magkakilala...

yung mga gusto ko gusto rin nya...

tapos biglang...

at kahit hindi rin naging kami sa huli...

siya pa rin ang first love ko

movie list for 2009

Here's a bunch of movies im interested to see this year. i will probably watch half of them on the big screen, rent most of the remaining movies i didn't get to see and forget one or two because i have no idea why i was interested to see it in the first place (like Meet Dave from my last year's list of movies for 2008)


1. Astro Boy (October; Freddie Highmore, Kristen Bell, Bill Nighy)
Set in futuristic Metro City, Astro Boy is about a young robot with incredible powers created by a brilliant scientist in the image of the son he has lost. Unable to fulfill the grieving man's expectations, our hero embarks on a journey in search of acceptance, experiencing betrayal and a netherworld of robot gladiators, before he returns to save Metro City and reconcile with the father who had rejected him. 

Why Im Going to Watch it: Cmon, its Astro Boy. I dont know if the movie sucks or not but im still going to watch it anyway...or at least rent it.

2. Angels and Demons (May; Tom Hanks, Ayelet Zurer, Ewan McGregor)
Harvard symbologist Robert Langdon (Tom Hanks) finds himself in Rome, where he has to race against time to prevent the Illuminati, a secret society, from putting in motion a terrorist act that could destroy the Vatican. He's aided in his quest by the beautiful Italian scientist Vittoria Vetri (Ayelet Zurer)

Why Im Going to Watch it: I dont know. i liked The Da Vinci Code, so why not. 

3. Lesbian Vampire Killers (March; MyAnna Buring, Silvia Colloca, Vera Filatova, Ashley Mulheron, Louise Dylan
Their women having been enslaved by the local pack of lesbian vampires thanks to an ancient curse, the remaining menfolk of a rural Welsh town send two hapless young lads out onto the moors as a sacrifice

Why Im Going to Watch it: The title just caught my attention...and the cast. im going to rent this for sure. 

4. Bruno (May 2009; Sacha Baron Cohen )
Flamboyant Austrian fashion reporter Bruno (Cohen) travels the world in search of the latest style trends.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Didnt like Borat as much as people did but it was a nice movie. i expect this movie to be the same. and im going to rent this too because i dont feel like watching this on the big screen.

5. Coraline (Feb 2009; Dakota Fanning, Teri Hatcher, John Hodgman)
A young girl (Fanning) walks through a secret door in her new home and discovers an alternate version of her life. On the surface, this parallel reality is eerily similar to her real life – only much better. But when her adventure turns dangerous, and her counterfeit parents (including Other Mother [Hatcher]) try to keep her forever, Coraline must count on her resourcefulness, determination, and bravery to get back home – and save her family.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Neil Gaiman

6. Prince of Persia: Sands of Time (July; Jake Gyllenhaal, Ben Kingsley, Gemma Arterton, Alfred Molina, )

Why Im Going to Watch it: its based on a video game

7. Ripley's Believe it or Not (Jim Carrey, Gong Li)
 
Why Im Going to Watch it: Gong Li

8. Dragonball: Evolution (April; Justin Chatwin, James Marsters, Yun-Fat Chow)
Upon discovering he was sent to Earth to carrying out a sinister plan, a humanoid alien named Goku (Chatwin) looks to fulfill his dying grandfather's wish: Prevent the evil Piccolo (Marsters) and his alien forces from collecting seven mystical artifacts which would allow him to take over our planet. In order to fend off the attackers, Goku must find Master Roshi (Chow), who is the one person who can set him on the right path.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Saw the trailer and it sucked!!! really sucked. but im going to watch it anyway on video. or maybe on the bigscreen if im feeling masochistic enough.

9. Street Fighter: The Legend of Chun Li (Feb 2009; Kristin Kreuk, Neal McDonough, Michael Clarke Duncan )
Interpol agent Chun-Li (Kreuk) enters an underground fighting tournament, with her eyes set on M. Bison (McDonough), the contest's founder and leader of a crime syndicate who may have been responsible for the death of Chun-Li's father.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Aside from its a Street Fighter movie, because of Kristin Kreuk

10. Fast & Furious (April; Vin Diesel, Paul Walker, Michelle Rodriguez; Jordana Brewster)
The feud between ex-con Dominic Toretto (Diesel) and agent Brian O'Connor (Walker) is reignited back in Los Angeles, where a crime has pitted the two men against one another yet again. However, when they realize they have a common enemy, they put their past behind them and unite to stick it to their foe.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Aside from the fast cars...Jordana Brewster.

11. Terminator Salvation: The Future Begins (May; Christian Bale, Sam Worthington, Anton Yelchin)
John Connor (Bale) is joined in his attempt to defeat Skynet and its army of Terminators by Marcus Wright (Worthington), a man who apparently has been rescued from the past, though Connor wonders if instead he's been sent from the future as a foil to his plan. As Connor and Wright push deep into the heart of Skynet, they get closer and closer to learning the secret behind the organization's mission to wipe humankind off the planet.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Its a Terminator movie (even if T2 is the only movie i really liked)

12. Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen (June; Shia LaBeouf, Megan Fox, Josh Duhamel)
Decepticon forces return to Earth on a mission to take Sam Witwicky prisoner, after the young hero learns the truth about the ancient origins of the Transformers. Joining the mission to protect humankind is Optimus Prime, who forms an alliance with international armies for a second epic battle.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Do i even have to say why? its not only because of Megan Fox. definitely going to see this on the big screen no matter what!

13. G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra (August; Brendan Fraser, Channing Tatum, Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Sienna Miller)
An elite military unit comprised of special operatives known as G.I. Joe, operating out of The Pit, takes on an evil organization led by a notorious arms dealer

Why Im Going to Watch it: Dont know if this movie will be nearly as good as the Transformers movie but i dont think it will suck as bad as Dragonball so i think this is worth watching on the big screen.

14. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (July; Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson, Rupert Grint)
In his sixth year at Hogwarts, Harry Potter discovers even more about the evil Lord Voldemort's past, thanks to his mentor Dumbledore and mysterious textbook marked "This book is the property of the Half-Blood Prince." By the end of the year, nothing will ever be the same.

Why Im Going to Watch it: its a Harry Potter movie

15. The Horsemen (March; Dennis Quaid, Ziyi Zhang)
A recently widowed detective still grieving over his wife's death discovers a shocking connection between himself and the suspects in a serial killing spree linked to the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Ziyi Zhang

16. Underworld: Rise of the Lycans (jan 2009; Rhona Mitra, Michael Sheen, Bill Nighy)
A look at how the werewolf named Lucian (Sheen) led an uprising against an aristocratic vampire sect -- a revolt that will mark the beginning of a centuries-old war between the two races.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Just curious. maybe Rhona Mitra is ok, but i think this movie isnt the same without Kate Beckinsale.

17. The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus (Heath Ledger, Christopher Plummer, Tom Waits, Lily Cole, Andrew Garfield, Verne Troyer)

Why Im Going to Watch it: interesting plot

18. X-Men Origins: Wolverine (May; Hugh Jackman, Liev Schreiber, Ryan Reynolds)
An origins story that follows the early life of James Howlett (Jackman), also known as Logan, and best known as Wolverine. The chronicle of his younger years as a mutant connects to his relationship and eventual falling out with Victor Creed/Sabretooth (Schreiber), and his fateful entry into the Weapons X project, the governmental program that turns willing and unwilling beings into living weapons.

Why Im Going to Watch it: its a marvel comics film. and its wolverine

19. The Uninvited (Jan 2009; Emily Browning, Arielle Kebbel, Elizabeth Banks)
After her mother's death and her subsequent hospital stay, Anna Rydell (Browning) returns home to be with her sister (Krebbel) and her father (Strathairn), who has become engaged to Rachel (Banks), her mother's former nurse. During her first night back, Anna is visited by her mother's ghost, who reveals that the new woman in her father's life is not who she pretends to be, leading to a fateful confrontation between the women of the house.

Why Im Going to Watch it: just curious. 

20. He's Just Not That Into You (Feb 2009; Ginnifer Goodwin, Jennifer Aniston, Jennifer Connelly, Scarlett Johansson, Drew Barrymore)
The Baltimore-set movie of interconnecting story arcs deals with the challenges of reading or misreading human behavior

Why Im Going to Watch it: the cast. 

21. Fanboys (Feb 2009; Dan Fogler, Jay Baruchel, Kristen Bell, Sam Huntington, Chris Marquette)
Four guys and their galpal plan a cross-country trip in order to steal a print of Star Wars: Episode I -- The Phantom Menace from Skywalker Ranch so their dying friend can see it before its world premiere.

Why Im Going to Watch it: its geeky

22. The International (Feb 2009; Clive Owen, Naomi Watts, Armin Mueller-Stahl)
Interpol Agent Louis Salinger (Clive Owen) and Manhattan Assistant District Attorney Eleanor Whitman (Naomi Watts) pool their resources in an attempt to break up an international arms dealing ring financed by a high-profile bank.

Why Im Going to Watch it: aside from Naomi Watts...the plot isnt that bad.

23. Youth in Revolt (2009; Michael Cera, Portia Doubleday, Ray Liotta)
Like most teens, young Nick Twisp (Cera) is ruled by his libido. And from the recesses of a trailer park in Northern California, Twisp concocts a plan -- make that multiple schemes -- to lose his virginity to a local girl, the precocious Sheeni Saunders (Doubleday).

Why Im Going to Watch it: it looks like another one of them idiotic comedies.

24. Watchmen (March 2009; Jackie Earle Haley, Patrick Wilson, Carla Gugino)
Set in an alternate vision of the year 1985, the murder of an ex-superhero causes a vigilante named Rorshach (Haley) to look into the matter, an investigation that reunites him with his surviving old colleagues -- all of them former superheroes themselves -- and gradually unveils a conspiracy with links to their shared past and catastrophic consequences for the future.

Why Im Going to Watch it: carla gugino...and its a superhero movie

25. Sunshine Cleaning (Mar 2009; Amy Adams, Emily Blunt, Alan Arkin)
Industrious single mother Rose Lorkowski (Adams) starts an unusual business in order to send her son to a private school; alongside her unreliable sister (Blunt), the two women enter the world of biohazard removal and crime scene clean-ups.

Why Im Going to Watch it: emily blunt and the plot's interesting too

26. I Love You, Man (Mar 2009; Paul Rudd, Jason Segel, Rashida Jones)
Friendless Peter Klaven (Rudd) goes on a series of man-dates to find a Best Man for his wedding. But when his insta-bond his new B.F.F.(Segel) puts a strain on his relationship with his fiancée (Jones) can the trio learn to live happily ever after?

Why Im Going to Watch it: after seeing Forgetting Sarah Marshall (and being addicted to HIMYM), im going to see this movie just because Jason Segel's in it. like when i watched movies just because Will Ferrell was in it. 

27. Monsters v Aliens (Mar 2009; Seth Rogen, Reese Witherspoon, Paul Rudd)
When a meteorite from outer space hits a young California girl named Susan Murphy and turns her into a giant monster, she is taken to a secret government compound where she meets a ragtag group of monsters also rounded up over the years. As a last resort, under the guidance of General W.R. Monger, on a desperate order from The President, the motley crew of Monsters is called into action to combat the aliens and save the world from imminent destruction! 

Why Im Going to Watch it: i need to see an animated movie from time to time. and Reese Witherspoon's voice is in it.

28. The Ugly Truth (April 2009; Katherine Heigl, Gerard Butler)
A macho morning TV show correspondent (Butler) makes a bet with his love-challenged producer (Heigl): If his tips on how to land and keep a guy don't work, he'll quit the business. But while he coaches her through a fledgling romance, can he avoid falling for her, and vice versa?

Why Im Going to Watch it: just curious. 

29. The Year One (June; Jack Black, Michael Cera, Olivia Wilde)
 When a couple of lazy hunter-gatherers (Black and Cera) are banished from their primitive village, they set off on an epic journey through the ancient world

Why Im Going to Watch it: Jack Black and Olivia Wilde

30. Public Enemies (July; Christian Bale, Johnny Depp, Emilie de Ravin)
FBI agent Melvin Purvis (Bale) sets his sights on American gangster John Dillinger (Depp) and others in an attempt to curb a rampant Chicago crime spree during the 1930s.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Gangster movie

31. Funny People (July; Adam Sandler, Seth Rogen, Leslie Mann)
When seasoned comedian George Simmons (Sandler) learns of his terminal, inoperable health condition, his desire to form a genuine friendship inspires him to take a relatively green performer (Rogen) under his wing as his opening act.

Why Im Going to Watch it: Adam Sandler movie. 

death is a once in a lifetime experience

why are some people so afraid of death? i honestly dont get it. sure there's the fear of the unknown but there are just some people who are really afraid of death. they will cling on to life no matter what, even if that is the last thing they do. 

i understand that life is supposed to be this great thing that most people would find hard to let go but that doesnt mean death is the opposite (like the worst thing that could happen to a person). the way i see it, the worst that could happen is one would cease to exist. actually that's death in its simplest sense. no afterlife whatsoever, just the termination of all bodily functions. what's so wrong with that? its not that things would matter after i cease to exist. im dead. i wont be able to feel or think or worry about anything. no pain, no sorrow. its finally resting in peace. isnt that good? 

even if things are going my way or if i really have a great life, i dont think i will cling to life like other people do. i will try to live (since its hard give up a great life) but if clinging to life would make me miserable (or useless or make life meaningless), then i will stop trying to survive and welcome death instead. whats the purpose of life if rejecting death will force a person to live a life of fear? well, if thats what works for them, so be it. but taunting death is much better. of course taunting death without putting one's life to waste and/or ruin. i believe death is never unreasonable. 

the dog of Pavlov

what could i say about 2008? well, i would say its a good year. not happy, but good. i became really serious and focused when it comes to academic stuff. actually, thats what the year is mostly about, my school life. i placed everything else on hold. or for those stuff i cant put on hold, i let go, unfortunately. 

i was able to complete one full year of "committing" to the single life. sure ive been single my entire life but when i meant committing to the single life, i really mean "single and not looking and will never be interested to look" kind of single (its like switching into a stone cold prick living on an island shouting "leave me alone" whenever a creature that looks like a relationship pops up). no silly text mates, no "fraudulent machinations", no mixed signals schemes, no intimate non-sexual interaction, and no voluntarily entertaining any thought that would go against the single life im committing to (because i dont have full control of my subconscious. dreams of me having a non-single future is becoming more frequent). if i could only make this a subject of a wager, this would be much easier. well, not really. im not a good gambler. 

i also spent the year thinking about what i will do in the next few years. no concrete plan yet but a few plans are taking shape. more than a year ago, my life had no direction (or so it seems). im a leaf being blown by the wind. not really. i was aimless but not necessarily carefree.

what else happened this year? well, a college blockmate got married (and eventually got pregnant), had an impacted tooth removed, some of my college blockmates took the Philippine Bar exams, had my kinky story read on air by the "swiss miss" on the BrewRATs radio show (the night before a midterm exam), attended my first court hearing (not as a lawyer but as a law student), my cousin gave me her iPaq (very thankful for it but i realized that i became too dependent on it that when it malfunctioned, my life was "derailed" a bit), had back to back semesters with 20 units each, became an OLA Teamleader (which means that i cant be a lazy ass), the eraserheads had their reunion concert (goosebumps all over when i heard the first few lines of the first song sung), realized that i love ateneo after all, i adore audrey hepburn, my cousin and her family went to the US (and will stay there until my niece finishes high school. i think), learned that i will not graduate on march 2009, august remains to be a pain in the neck, had an interesting birthday, turned 25, my father retired, i became more cruel, arrogant, harsh, demanding and temperamental (side effect of being in serious mode, i feel like im in a position to lecture others on how they should live their life), got hooked on HIMYM (which made me realize im not part of a "sitcom" at the moment), and lastly, had a wonderful december because i think it was the month of the year where i was able to socialize the most (because i spent the other 11 months saying no to any form of social gathering or finding an excuse not to attend). 

i gained a lot of stuff this year. not what i wanted but its a gain nonetheless. its focusing on what i think i need and ignoring what i truly want (well, thats what ive been doing all these years but this year, i took it two levels higher). thats why 2008 is a good year but not really a happy one.

i think this year is also about proving to myself what im capable of. of course, im not satisfied. i saw that though i was able to improve myself emotionally and mentally, i completely neglected the physical aspect of myself which became a problematic limitation.

as for next year, im thinking of going for "i dont want to survive, i want to live" theme. i still have two days to think it over. i want to make sure that the "training" i underwent this year will not go to waste if i decide to "let go and simply live". ive never been a fan of life since 1997. 

Sabrina sizzles to steal a holiday

I like to think of life as a limousine. Though we are all riding together we must remember our places. There is a front seat and a back seat and a window in between. - Thomas Fairchild

Democracy can be a wickedly unfair thing...Nobody poor was ever called democratic for marrying somebody rich. - Thomas Fairchild

Actually, depravity can be terribly boring if you don't smoke or drink. - Gabrielle Simpson

Watch for normal human reactions! - Simon Dermott

If I were dead and buried, and I heard your voice,
Beneath the sod my heart of dust would still rejoice. - Princess Ann

checklist

before i start another list for my new year's resolution for 2009, im going to check first if i was able to accomplish the stuff in my new year's resolution this year. 

Stuff i was able to do: 
Read some fine books 
Show some emotion. positive emotion.  
Surprise yourself  
Face one's fears 
Cherish sweet memories 
Be nice to doctors 
Study harder 
have a sense of discipline. 
focus.  
be friendly or be nice 

Stuff i wasnt able to do: 
Have a year filled with magic, dreams and good madness.  
Make some art. Draw, build or sing. 
Love is rare, grab it and love truly 
Exercise 

Stuff im not quite sure if i was able to do or not: 
Write 
Live as only you can. 
Be thankful 
Never regret anything...that made you smile 

so the score is...10-4-4. not bad. not that good. but not bad. so i will just carry over the last 8 stuff and try to accomplish it this year. 

as for the movies i wanted to watch this year: 

i was able to watch 12 movies (out of the 26 from the list): 
The Incredible Hulk 
Iron Man 
Meet the Spartans 
The Dark Knight 
Jumper 
Semi-pro 
Forgetting Sarah Marshall 
Wall-E 
Speedracer. 
Hellboy II: The Golden Army 
Hancock 
Teeth  

i didnt get to watch 14 movies: 
You Don't Mess with the Zohan (going to rent it) 
The Love Guru (going to rent it) 
Penelope (going to rent it if available) 
Be Kind Rewind (going to rent it if available) 
Horton Hears a Who! (going to rent it) 
Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street 
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (going to watch it next year) 
Mamma Mia (going to rent it) 
Step Brothers (going to rent it if available) 
Starship Dave (cant believe this is in my list...wonder why) 
Baby Mama (going to rent it if available) 
Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull (going to rent it) 
The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor (going to rent it) 
My Blueberry Nights (going to rent it if available)

december 24

its the twenty goddamn fourth of december! im tired. very, very tired. my feet hurts from all the walking inside the mall. im very sleepy because im really out of shape. i have no more money in my pocket. well, not totally empty but the amount is depressingly low. and i dont have an ounce of christmas spirit. the good thing about not feeling the christmas spirit is i wont feel bad no matter what happens on christmas day because for me, its just like any ordinary day. 

Professor Henry Higgins

   I'm an ordinary man, who desires nothing more than an ordinary chance, to live exactly as he likes, and do precisely what he wants. An average man am I, of no eccentric whim, who likes to live his life, free of strife, doing whatever he thinks is best, for him. Well, just an ordinary man. But let a woman in your life and your serenity is through, she'll redecorate your home, from the cellar to the dome, and then go on to the enthralling fun of overhauling you. Let a woman in your life, and you're up against a wall, make a plan and you will find, that she has something else in mind, and so rather than do either you do something else that neither likes at all. You want to talk of Keats and Milton, she only wants to talk of love. You go to see a play or ballet, and spend it searching for her glove. Let a woman in your life and you invite eternal strife. Let them buy their wedding bands for those anxious little hands. I'd be equally as willing for a dentist to be drilling than to ever let a woman in my life. 

 

   I'm a very gentle man, even tempered and good natured who you never hear complain, who has the milk of human kindness by the quart in every vein. A patient man am I, down to my fingertips, the sort who never could, ever would, let an insulting remark escape his lips. Very gentle man. But let a woman in your life, and patience hasn't got a chance, she will beg you for advice, your reply will be concise, and she will listen very nicely, and then go out and do exactly what she wants!!!  

  You are a man of grace and polish, who never spoke above a hush, all at once you're using language that would make a sailor blush, Let a woman in your life, and you're plunging in a knife. Let the others of my sex, tie the knot around their necks, I prefer a new edition of the Spanish Inquisition than to ever let a woman in my life.

   I'm a quiet living man, who prefers to spend the evening in the silence of his room, who likes an atmosphere as restful as an undiscovered tomb. A pensive man am I, of philosophical joys, who likes to meditate, contemplate, far for humanities mad inhuman noise. Quiet living man. But let a woman in your life, and your sabbatical is through, in a line that never ends comes an army of her friends, come to jabber and to chatter and to tell her what the matter is with YOU! She'll have a booming boisterous family, who will descend on you en mass, she'll have a large wagnarian mother, with a voice that shatters glass. Let a woman in your life. Let a woman in your life. Let a woman in your life. I shall never let a woman in my life.

i need to...

• buy a new chair because the one i have now is under the process of breaking down and its only a matter of time before it becomes completely unusable
• buy a new mp3 player because my mp3 player is defective and i would like to use my cellphone more as a phone than an mp3 player
• have my cousin's PDA fixed because its making my life difficult without it and i dont even know why it suddenly broke down
• drop by the QC Prosecutor's Office and look for a certain person to talk about something law related
• call the NLRC to ask for an update regarding one of my case's
• contact a couple of clients to update them on what's up with their cases
• do some more research on my paper
• finish my RRAF
• save some money to pay for some debts i got myself in due to boredom and stupidity
• do some window shopping even if crowded malls annoy me
• buy a ziplock plastic bag
• study, study, study even if it means being more serious and becoming less fun
• restore the focus i had last semester because compared to last semester, im taking it easy so i need to get my groove back
• make back-ups for the recent stuff stored in the PC and laptop
• read non-law books and the opinion section of the newspaper because my level of writing sucks

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i came, i saw, i won something for my ears

finally! last night, i drank 4.5 bottles of intoxicating liquid. gave up on the fifth bottle of beer because it was already warm. tried finishing it but i just cant. was able to consume only half of it. so 4.5. and i hate it when its all bubbly already. the reason for the consumption and intoxication was because i was at the embassy last night

how i ended up going to embassy is very similar to how i ended up in the eheads concert. it was last minute decision to go.

the party was set to start at 6pm and it was already past 4pm and i was still ticketless. when i finally bought one from kim, i was still unsure until 6pm came. i decided to go because one, i already have a ticket. two, im tired of having boring saturday nights (ive been wondering lately where my weekends went). three, i just felt like going which was weird because i really didnt want to go right from the beginning. ive never been to embassy but ive been to similar establishments. cant say i hate such places but i cant say i enjoy it enough that im willing to make it a habit or spend money to go to such places.

anyway, for the price of P250, i was able to consume 4.5 bottles of beer, hang out with law school blockmates, have a picture with some college blockmates and...(this is the best part)...win sennheiser earphones! oh yeah! haha. i would like to thank UP WINLAW for the earphones. and jason de guzman for telling me to go get them earphones. i had no intention to participate in the surprise contest. jason, who was unfortunately immobilized temporarily, wasnt able to go to the DJs booth to answer the question and claim the prize. so he told me to do it (participate in the contest). and thats how i ended up getting new earphones.