tristanism

general rule: never study at night

why? you are never sure whether you're going to wake up the following morning. since there is no certainty of living another day, why waste the night studying? if you knew you're going to die during your sleep, would you spend the remaining hours of your life studying? of course not! that's why i always study in the morning or in the earlier parts of the day. of course there is no certainty that you would live the entire day, but at least you're conscious right? besides, if you died during your sleep, everything you studied would just be a waste of time and energy. that is also another reason why i dont plan too far ahead. you're never sure if you're going to be alive the following week. or if i make decisions, i always take into consideration that idea that this might be the last time or what if this would be the last time, would i regret it? or something like that. so, having an illness that considerably shortens your life span isnt all bad. actually its not bad for me. when i learned about it, i thought it was my one way ticket out of here. problem is, i dont know when i can use that ticket. anyway, at the moment, i take things one day at a time.