am i missing the obvious?

Around the last week of April or maybe around first few weeks of May, i started looking for my scapular. Why? i dont know. back then, i just felt i had to look for it. and i didnt find it. i looked for it at the places i thought it would be. it wasnt there. it was only yesterday that i saw it by accident. where was it? right in front of me. well, if i were working at my study table. it was just there, out in the open, right before my eyes, in my direct line of vision. and i looked for it inside the cabinet right behind me. so i was searching for something thats right before me all this time, and i looked for it at the wrong place, facing the wrong direction. and i finally found it at the "wrong" time. well, wrong time because i dont have that same feeling of wanting to have it as before. but why i felt or had the need to have it before, that i dont know. a scapular is said to be something that will provide protection from danger or evil spirits. well, nothing of that sort happened to me since April. but a scapular is more than that. according to wikipedia, "devotional scapulars are sacramentals, primarily worn by Roman Catholics, designed to show the wearer's pledge to a confraternity, a saint, or a way of life, as well as reminding the wearer of that promise". Now that i found my scapular again, im now considering taking seriously the "pledge" i made a few years ago, around 2006. a pledge that i made for the wrong reason. the thing about this pledge is, its going to be difficult to live a lifestyle in accordance with this pledge.