I good you bid evening

You can do whatever you want to do with your life but one day you'll know what love truly is. Its the sour and the sweet. And i know sour, which allows me to appreciate the sweet. - Brian Shelby

Your subconscious can always play tricks on you. the subconscious is a very powerful thing - Rebecca Dearborn


Its in his nature to fight for his existence. - Edmund Ventura

Just finished watching Vanilla Sky. I don't even know why i rented it. i just did. anyway, it reminded me of how powerful the subconscious is. and i just realized that ive been telling people that im getting some sleep or enough sleep but at the same time people are telling me that i need to sleep or whether ive had some sleep. and come to think of it, ive been taking short naps during work and i fall asleep from time to time during review classes. makes me wonder, have i really been sleeping? i think so. maybe im just really sleepy during the day lately. i dont know. i hope my subconscious isnt playing tricks on me. if it is, at least i dont have mysterious bruises or scratches when i wake up like a few years ago. those scratches puzzled me actually. but i didnt give it much thought.

i also realized that i should stop thinking of the subconscious in the traditional sense. im starting to think that my subconscious is already operating in the concious world and not restricted in some separate realm. the subconscious is really a tricky creature. because now that i take a closer look at how things are, it seems that theyve been orchestrated.

anyway, i didnt know that swallowing meant something. or its just a girl with crazy eyes theory. like the "when you sleep with someone, your body makes a promise whether you do or not." thats like a very dangerous unwritten rule. i really should work on the RPC. but before that, i really should get some sleep.