Monday, May 28, 2007

i love garbage!

i miss Garbage and of course the band's lovely vocalist, Shirley Manson. i think that's why i love garbage. i love Shirley's voice, her style and i like the band's sound. so i decided to post some music videos which i got from YouTube, where else.



WHY DO YOU LOVE ME lyrics:

I'm no Barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
So I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me

You're not some baby boy
Why you acting so surprised
You're sick of all the rules
Well I'm sick of all your lies
Now I've held back a wealth of shit I think I'm gonna choke
I'm standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat
Does it really come as a surprise when I tell you I don't feel good?
That nothing ever came from nothing man
Oh man ain't that the truth

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again

I think you're sleeping with a friend of mine
I have no proof but I think that I'm right
And you've still got the most beautiful face
It just makes me sad most of the time

I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again
I do it again
I do it again
I do it again

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me



WHEN I GROW UP lyrics:

Cut my tongue out
I've been caught out
Like a giant juggernaut
Happy hours
Golden showers
On a cruise to freak you out

We could fly a helicopter
Nothing left to talk about
Entertain you
Celebrate you
I'll be back to frame you

Chorus:
When I grow up
I'll be stable
When I grow up
I'll turn the tables

Trying hard to fit among you
Floating out to wonderland
Unprotected
God I'm pregnant
Damn the consequences

Chorus

Blood and blisters
On my fingers
Chaos rules when we're apart
Watch my temper
I go mental
I'll try to be gentle

Chorus

When I grow up
When I grow up
When I grow up
I'll turn the tables

Bridge:
Don't take offense
Better make amends
Rip it all to shreds and let it go X2

I'll rip it up to shreds and let it go
I'll rip it up to shreds and let it go
I'll rip it up to shreds and let it go



IM ONLY HAPPY WHEN IT RAINS lyrics:

I’m only happy when it rains
I’m only happy when it’s complicated
And though I know you can’t appreciate it
I’m only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
Why it feels so good to feel so sad
I’m only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me

I’m only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I’m only happy when it rains

I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn’t accidentally tell you that
I’m only happy when it rains
You’ll get the message by the time I’m through
When I complain about me and you
I’m only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me...pour your misery down
Pour your misery down...pour
You can keep me company
As long as you don’t care

I’m only happy when it rains
You want to hear about my new obsession
I’m riding high upon a deep depression
I’m only happy when it rains...pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains....pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains...pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains...pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains...pour some misery down on me...pour some misery down on me...pour some misery down on me...pour some misery down on me



CHERRY LIPS lyrics:

She gave you everything she had
But she was young and dumb
She'd just turned twenty-one
She didn't care to hang around
So when the shit came down
Why she was nowhere to be found
This life can turn a good girl bad
She was the sweetest thing
That you had ever seen

You're such a delicate boy
In the hysterical realm
Of an emotional landslide
In physical terms

With your cherry lips and golden curls
You could make grown men gasp
When you'd go walking past them
In your hot pants and high heels
They could not believe
That such a body was for real
It seemed like rainbows would appear
Whenever you came near the clouds would disappear
Because you looked just like a girl
Your baby blues would flash
And suddenly a spell was cast

You hold a candle in your heart
You shine the light on hidden parts
You make the whole world wanna dance
You bought yourself a second chance

Go Baby Go Go
We're right behind you
Go baby Go Go
Yeah we're looking at you
Go baby Go Go
Aw we're right behind you
Go Baby
Go Baby
Yeah we're looking at you
Go

Monday, May 21, 2007

The Times They Are a-Changin!

just found out about this great song by Bob Dylan! my cousin asked me to get a copy of the song because they need it for an event. when i listened to it and read the lyrics, it reminded me of the country's situation (the libel suits, impeachment cases, the protests on the streets, etc.). this should be the younger generation's theme song...or something like that. this song also reminded me of the 2007 Philippine election results, where it seemed to me that the voting population has matured politically and more critical in choosing which candidate to vote for. the citizens appear to have learned from the mistakes of the past. unfortunately, even if there is a better voting population, that isnt enough to counter election fraud and other similar election offenses.



lyrics:
Come gather 'round people
Wherever you roam
And admit that the waters
Around you have grown
And accept it that soon
You'll be drenched to the bone.
If your time to you
Is worth savin'
Then you better start swimmin'
Or you'll sink like a stone
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
For the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who
That it's namin'.
For the loser now
Will be later to win
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come senators, congressmen
Please heed the call
Don't stand in the doorway
Don't block up the hall
For he that gets hurt
Will be he who has stalled
There's a battle outside
And it is ragin'.
It'll soon shake your windows
And rattle your walls
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come mothers and fathers
Throughout the land
And don't criticize
What you can't understand
Your sons and your daughters
Are beyond your command
Your old road is
Rapidly agin'.
Please get out of the new one
If you can't lend your hand
For the times they are a-changin'.

The line it is drawn
The curse it is cast
The slow one now
Will later be fast
As the present now
Will later be past
The order is
Rapidly fadin'.
And the first one now
Will later be last
For the times they are a-changin'.

Monday, May 14, 2007

election day

its may 14! i would have said go out and vote, but its too late now. they're already counting the ballots! i woke up around 730 am to vote with my family and got home around 9am. not that the precinct was far, the ones manning my precinct were inefficient or maybe, was inefficient. not that there's only one teacher, in fact there were three but one of them wants things centralized. everything had to pass through him. so it appeared that the two other teachers were just idling around. that's why early in the morning i was reminded of the value of teamwork and trust (which i need to learn because i always go solo). i mean, there's three of them, they should share the workload. try to work as a team to make things more efficient and trust each other. the guy shouldn't have to check everything that's going on. its not an easy task to be a teacher during election day! that's why it took some time for me to cast my vote and why our precinct appeared to have a large voter turnout because of the long line. one even commented that it is as if the teacher was intentionally making it inconvenient to vote.

focusing on election day itself, well, it's really nice to see people going out to vote. its my second time to vote, and like before, we try to get there as early possible to avoid long lines. so, when i woke up, i went directly to my precinct to vote without eating breakfast nor taking a bath (ok...at least im honest). i thought it would be quick like the last time but it wasnt as mentioned above. that's why i thought i didnt need to dress up or take a bath, i mean, the precinct's just nearby, its like going out to buy something from a sari-sari store. i wasnt expecting that i would fall in line for quite some time.

anyway, i went there with my parents, my sister, my aunt and my grandmother. my grandmother even had a greeting of "have an honest elections". when we reached the school, its really good to see a lot of people, hustling and bustling around the school grounds, looking for their precincts. its like a form of social event. well it is, but what i mean is that, people residing in an area get to see and talk with each other, congregate to update each other with neighborly stuff. so, people just dont vote here, some linger and chat with neighbors, talk about politics and their candidates aside from asking what's new. i didnt notice that the last time i voted. i guess i wasnt observant enough the last time. i also noticed that some looked fresh from the shower and were dressed as if they were going to a mall (unlike me). i guess they were more prepared than me. but i wasnt intending to stay long and chat with people anyway. so i think that makes it ok.

Austin, Taker and Sports entertainment

who doesn't love sports entertainment, specifically WWE wrestling? well, a lot. ok, a lot of women to be more specific. they see it to be pointless and just brutal. but what can i say, it is entertainment and i enjoy it. as a kid, i remember being a fan of Hulk Hogan and The Ultimate Warrior, well, more of the Ultimate Warrior. Hogan was just popular. Next to The Ultimate Warrior, is The Undertaker, and incredibly, not only is he still around, he recently became world heavyweight champion (too bad its a shortlived title reign but he is a five time champ). then came Stone Cold Steve Austin and the Attitude Era. i didnt like this wrestler at first because i remember him as The Ringmaster, Ted DiBiase's puppet, but his bad-ass personality really rocks. and he really is good in playing his role as the lawless Texas Rattlesnake. i never get tired of his rowdy antics. unfortunately, he's no longer wrestling like the Undertaker. that's why its really nice that he comes visit WWE from time to time, doing a couple of Stone Cold stunners to anyone any time he feels like to do some ass-kicking. he even "stunned" Donald Trump. now that's classic Stone Cold Steve Austin (watch it on YouTube, click here. its a lame stunner but hey, that's still Donald Trump receiving a stunner, and besides, Trump cant act or fake a stunner's impact). after Austin, i never really liked the wrestlers. ok, they're still good, they do riskier stunts, more of them bleed and they still get the crowd pumped. John Cena is ok, and so is Batista but they really aren't like the Phenom or Stone Cold or the wrestlers of the 90s. maybe im just old and miss the Federation and Attitude Era. i mean, when Cena started, i thought his rapping was crappy and his character wont sell (maybe im just not into the hiphop culture...do people even call it hiphop?). look at Cena now, still throwing rhymes and already a WWE superstar. Batista had potential when he was a part of Evolution. He did become a superstar eventually but im not sure for how long compared to Austin and Taker who are now legends/likely hall of famers. anyway, all wrestlers dont start out as superstars and it takes time before they reach that level. and unfortunately only a handful reach the superstar level and be on the same league as HBK, Bret Hart (ok, putting their names together just reminds people of the Montreal Screw Job), Hogan, Warrior, The Rock, Triple H, Austin, Undertaker, etc. Even Austin and Taker started out as "loser", crappy wrestlers. here's a video of the two of them, wrestling with each other way before they reached the superstar status they have now. who would have thought back then that Austin and Taker would be very big WWE superstars.

Steve Williams (Stone Cold) vs. The Punisher (The Undertaker)

spiderman 3 and marvel films by a 1997 comic book guy

After 2 weeks, I finally got to see Spiderman 3. Was it good? Well, I would give it a 7.5 out of 10 but because I like Marvel characters and I like Spiderman, I would upgrade it to 8. I dont know about other people's ratings (or if there's a standard movie rating) but here's mine:

1-2: its not worth watching, go wash your eyes if you see it!
3-4: sucks! not worth my money unless its a gift for someone i dont like
5-6: good enough to watch on video and kill time or beat boredom
7-8: good enough to watch on cinemas
9-10: its great! its perfect! its mind blowing!

Now, I haven’t been a comic book guy for 10 years (I think the last comic book I bought was in 1997, Marvel vs. DC or DC vs. Marvel, and the reason I stopped collecting was because I lost my entire comic book collection, which I started back in grade school) so I really don’t have much authority on this subject, but having a bit of knowledge of the characters (the way I remember them 10 years ago), I really cant stop myself from saying something about the movie Spiderman 3 and other Marvel films.

Review...sort of: Spiderman 3 was great when it comes to special effects (that was expected). I also liked the fight scenes. As for the acting, can’t really complain. What matters to me more is that they bring the comic book to life and that the actors don’t suck (umm...Daredevil? sorry, not a Ben Affleck fan). So I guess they were ok (besides, it’s already the third installment, so i wont even try to dicuss the way Tobey Maguire cried...wait, is revealing that Tobey Maguire cried in the movie a spoiler? i dont think so, no one would probably notice where he cried in the movie...ouch!).
Thomas Haden Church was good. I don’t mind Topher Grace either as Eddie Brock. As for the movie's story, well, it really revolved on Peter Parker and not on Spider-man. it was like, the first two movies introduced Peter Parker and his alter ego Spiderman. The third movie gave me the impression of showing Spiderman's alter ego Peter Parker. i mean, now that Spiderman's famous, Peter Parker has become the secret identity. It was a good ending for the spidey trilogy and in a way, allows a fourth but fresh installment. in case there is a spidey 4, i hope there's a new set of villains (meaning, no need to bring back Sandman and dont settle with one villain unless its Carnage) plus a better, badder and funnier Venom (Venom need not be a villain, for me, he's not really a bad guy because the only reason he's spidey's arch enemy is because he hates Parker, that's it). or try to use Ben Reilly for a change.

Spidey Spoilers and i mean SPOILERS!: I had a problem with the Spidey 3 villains (Green Goblin, Venom and Sandman...ok, maybe not Sandman). of all the villains in the spidey trilogy, Doc Ock appeared to me to be the best one. In spidey 3, it looked like the best villain among the three was Sandman. Ok, I have a bias against Green Goblin, since I’m not really a fan of all the goblin villains, but Venom is supposed to be the best villain in the movie (well, in my opinion). Eddie Brock was ok as Eddie Brock, but as Venom? Not really. I was expecting a more kick-ass type of villain from Venom with a lot of taunting and trash-talking. That’s why I liked Venom as spider-man's arch-enemy, insults fly as they fight, mocking each other until one of them is knocked unconscious or defeated (that's the way I saw it). There wasn’t much of that in the movie. And whenever Venom talks as Eddie Brock, it just doesn’t work. Venom just looked like an arrogant jerk in a costume. And where's Venom's tongue? Ok, maybe they were just introducing Venom but still, why put Venom in the movie without playing the major villain? Anyway, I'm just disappointed with the way Venom was made in the movie, i mean, Venom could have been much better.

Another thing I didn’t like is the ending, the one where green goblin 2/green goblin junior showed up. Ok, like I said, I really don’t like the goblin villains. I would have preferred a cameo from any superhero and team up with Spiderman. It would still be good if Daredevil showed up (but not as Ben Affleck, Matt Murdock should just keep the mask on) or the Ironman (pic on the right is supposed to be the ironman armor for the movie. i hope the ironman costume really looks great and not just some great image editing). If it was ironman, it could help promote the upcoming ironman movie. but that's just called shameless plugging (like the number of times i mentioned ironman in this paragraph. is it really shameless plugging? its a good way to promote an upcoming marvel film). i would rather have Venom doing the team-up (but that would just ruin the story for spidey 3 but they do team up in the comic books...i think). i would rather see Stan Lee turn into the Incredible Hulk! ok, maybe not.

Marvel movies: Now that Spidey 3 is out, what's next? Well, there's Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer. Not much of a Fantastic Four fan, but the trailer looks good (and Jessica Alba's there! a movie hottie is always a must! but she looks different this time, i wonder why?). There have been rumors about Galactus being part of the movie but not really "in" the movie (so some are saying why bother having Galactus when they arent going to do it right...like Venom perhaps?). There’s also an Incredible Hulk sequel and a Punisher sequel. There's also the Ironman movie. Again, not a fan of Ironman and any member of The Avengers because im more of a fan of the X-books (X-men, X-Force, X-Factor, Excalibur). But if I had to pick my favorite Avengers member, I would pick Thor, and i think there are also plans of creating a Thor movie.
Ghost Rider wasn’t a disappointment but it wasn’t really that good. I think there's also a plan to make a Doctor Strange movie, a Wolverine movie, and a sequel to the Ghost Rider(got my info here). When I saw this line-up of marvel characters, I thought, why not make a Secret Defenders movie? I would really like to see Wolverine, Ghost Rider (with Daniel Ketch as alter ego, my favorite Ghost Rider version; that's why I didn’t complain much about Nicolas Cage as Ghost Rider, he can be Johnny Blaze anytime he wants), Spiderman, The Incredible Hulk and Silver Surfer teaming up in one movie. I would like to add Venom to the line up but I don’t think he ever became a Secret Defender member. I would like to see Wolverine and Ghost Rider working alongside Venom. Now as for the villains, well that would be a problem. which supervillain or group of supervillains could fit in a story fighting Doc Strange and his team and at the same time, plausible enough to be be capable of at least matching the strength of this group of superheroes? well, how about a Galactus infected by the Carnage symbiote with a minion of Doc Ock clones? ok maybe not. maybe a team up of Thanos, Loki and Mephisto and minion of Carnage infected Doc Ock clones. That won't work (and what's up with the Carnage symbiote and Doc Ock clones? i dont know, i think it would be a good villain). Anyway, they can’t even pull off a good x-men movie. So I guess a team composed of the "major" superheroes of marvel comics wont work. and even if it does, the question is how much will the budget be for this kind of movie.


After writing this blog, I realized, I miss collecting marvel comics! And some batman comics (I'm not a DC fan, Batman is the only exception).

Friday, May 11, 2007

vote SANLAKAS for party-list!

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

weird ways: umbrella

i have this weird thing about umbrellas. i dont like them to get wet! well, not all umbrellas, only the foldable ones. people find it weird when its raining and i refuse to use my umbrella in my bag. when they ask me why, i tell them, "its going to get wet!". ok, umm, isnt that supposed to happen when one uses an umbrella? yeah, but i dont know why i have this weird habit with foldable umbrellas (is that what they are called? not even sure). the reason i dont want to get it wet is because once the rain stops or enter a building and its time to keep it again in my bag, its wet! so i would rather get wet than use my umbrella. then what the crap is the umbrella for! actually, its not some "props" so i could offer it to some girl who needs it or share it with her (like its handy to have a lighter in case some hot chick needs a light), im not that type of guy, obviously. the umbrella is just there in case im in the mood to use it. like in times when i cant afford to get wet because i have a digicam with me, or some thing that cant get wet (like a paper that comprises 50% of the final grade and im rushing to school to meet the deadline and to make things more challenging, nature decides to send a heavy downpour). so, i use the umbrella not because i dont want to get wet, but because either im not in the mood to get wet or i have with me something that should not get wet. but that's not the case when it comes to those big umbrellas, hell, it can get wet anytime, i dont keep it in my bag anyway.

besides, there was this one time when not using an umbrella was good. back in mid-2004, wearing long sleeves and slacks, i was waiting for a philcoa jeenpney at vinzons. while waiting, it started to rain. it was just light rain at first but since it was taking a while for the jeep to come, i was starting to get more wet by the minute. to make things worse, the rain was getting stronger, people who had umbrellas started using them, those who don't have umbrellas left the line and ran towards the waiting shed. with weirdness kicking in, i refused to take out my umbrella. the two girls in front of me, who were already sharing one umbrella took pity on me and asked me to take cover on their umbrella. of course, i didnt refuse, that would be more weird right? besides, they didnt know i had an umbrella in my bag, so i didnt appear that weird. anyway, we engaged in some small talk while waiting for the jeepney. im not sure if they were serious about it, but they said they also wanted to go to law school. i have no idea where they are right now, nor do i remember who they are (all i know, one of them had glasses). i would like to repay them for their good deed but the most i can do is hope that they are ok and that they were able to get into law school. ok...did i just mean what i wrote? its not like me to say such things. well, sure, why not, its not like they would read this and ask for something in return for their good deed since i fooled them into thinking i had no umbrella. but seriously, i do mean it, that im grateful for these two girls. i was a bit surprised that some people are kind enough to offer to share an umbrella with a stranger (strange stranger) even if there really isnt much room.

second opinion

Im stil aliive! well, of course i am. i just drank some alcohol last night and i dont feel anything weird or wrong with my health. besides, its not like im going to die overnight after a night of drinking. and i didnt drink to my heart's content to reach the piss drunk level. i miss those days where i cant even find the guy's restroom and end up being surprised because im about to enter the wrong door. anyway, this blog isnt about getting drunk, its about second opinions. well, sort of.

i had this hematologist back in 2003 to advise me on my blood concerns, back then, the only thing she prohibited me from eating was sisig. that was a bit of a bad news to me since i liked eating sisig. so, aside from sisig, there were no other prohibited stuff (well, except for smoking, but i didnt admit i was a smoker and like i said, i WAS a smoker. it took me 4 attempts to quit before i finally stopped and im not even a heavy smoker). anyway, for some reason, i switched to another hematologist for a second opinion. and this hematologist caused a lot of problems for me. im not even sure if she knew what she was doing. ok, that's a bit of an exaggeration but still she did piss me off a lot. why? she's the doctor that told me to stop drinking alcohol! what the? if i remember correctly, this was back in january 2005. when she told me that, my reaction in my head was like, "holy crap, i love alcohol, what's wrong with you woman!". she's also the same doctor that told me to drink at least 3 liters of liquids everyday (which i was hesitant to comply because it meant i had to take a piss often and i find that a bit annoying and uncomfortable). she is also the doctor that prescribed i take chemotherapy pills (which i refused to take because i thought it was absurd and as far as i know, i dont have to take those until its really necessary and the way i see things its not necessary). so i did my own research on the chemotherapy pills/capsules she prescribed and found out many things the doctor failed to explain (from the side effects to the precautions she should have taken, its not like some medication she can prescribe that easily). i explained this to my mother and was able to convince her that i know more than this doctor when it comes to taking care of myself. so, i returned to my first hematologist and this time, she didnt prohibit me from eating or drinking anything (which some people find a bit questionable or problematic because i didnt really ask her if im still not supposed to take the stuff prohibited by my second hematologist). the only thing she asked me to do is just keep hydrating myself so my blood wont get too dense. i also sort of got a third opinion from the UP infirmary, and the doctor told me to just follow what my current hematologist asks me to do (and the reason my arm went numb is because of anxiety, most likely cause is my civil procedure professor and not my blood condition).

wait, was it really a second opinion? because i switched back to the first doctor so its like just reverting to the first opinion. but, its like a second opinion from the second doctor, so...third opinion? would that make the UP infirmary be considered as fourth opinion? to make everything simple, all of them are just opinions and for an excessively skeptical person like me, i take such opinions lightly (to my mother's disappointment because i rarely take anything seriously). Well, what can i do, i cant stop doubting what doctors tell me about my health, Yes i admit they know more, but that doesnt mean they are entirely right.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

tristanism ver4

the toss coin rule

now, when i cant decide on something, i apply the "when in doubt, do the toss coin" rule. ive used this in some instances like back in 2004 when i dont know whether to enroll or not. my friend berated me for this, saying it was foolish to leave such an important decision to chance. so, ive used it on less serious situations, like whether to cut class or not. i almost used it on another instance, this time the question was, whether to go for this particular girl or not. i didnt use it because i really wasnt required to make a decision, i could just leave it unanswered since im really not that interested at the moment. i just used this rule recently, twice. one was on whether to study flash animation, and the other was on whether i should go to bicol. on both intances, the coin's answer was yes. but unfortunately, on these two situations, i used the new, modified toss coin procedure. back then, i only used a single toss. now, i do it 2 out of 3. so, im not really sure if i should follow what the coin says in the modified toss coin version. that's why i didnt follow it. i should be in bicol right now if i followed what the coin told me. and right now, im still not sure whether i was correct on not following the coin.

its complicated

after a year and a half, the handle of my 500ml mug broke. i dont know what i will do with it. i mean, im still going to use it but what i dont know is whether im going to replace it. it's only the handle that broke off, i can still use it. problem is, its a 500ml mug and without the handle, its just not the same.

why am i making a fuss out of it? well, im the type who gets attached to some objects. like this mug for instance, its the only drinking container i use at home (for more than a year already, i think i started using it on november 2005). as long as that mug is available, i wont use anything else. and i dont allow anyone else to use it either. it just broke a few minutes ago and here i am blogging about it already as if something tragic happened. that's how attached i get to some objects. like my current cellphone (nokia 3660). the very first thing i look for when i wake up is my cellphone. i always it keep it within hearing distance wherever i go. i also found out that ive grown fond of my digicam. i wouldnt have realized it if not for my friend who borrowed it. only then did i find out that i easily missed my digicam. im also attached to my black jansport backpack (which i always carry around if possible), black "eccentric" cap (which i no longer use but still irreplaceable since i dont like my other caps as much), my first cellphone (nokia 3210 which almost got stolen but for some reason, i was able to retain possession), my green philips earphones (which i had since 2nd year highschool), my blue philips headphones (i think i had this one since 3rd year college), my mp3 player (which i frequently use recently), my tigger pencil case (which i last used back in high school for drafting class), my black pearl beads necklace (the one sold in stalls in baguio which i wear during summer days), my rosary (got this when i was in grade six which i no longer carry with me since i accidentally broke its plastic case when i was in 3rd year high school), my swiss army knife and leatherman micra (which i carry with me, 90% of the time i go out of the house), my bicycle deck of playing cards (already worn out, that's why i use a Cathay pacific deck of cards), my 50 First Dates OST (which i dont use as often since i made my own compilation to make a more complete soundtrack), my Guess Waterpro wristwatch (the longest wristwatch ive ever used - 8 years!), and my black and silver Parker pens (the silver one's a bit broken already, i dropped it on graduation day on 2004 but it's still useable). these are the items i won't throw away and i would be really affected if it breaks or worse, if i lose it.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

im free to decide but...

i cant decide! decide on what? decide on whether i will go to bicol or not? that is the crucial question at the moment while im taking a break from the stuff im doing. half of me wants to go, while the other half doesnt. now that is a problem right? usually, when this happens, i try to think of the pros and cons.

ok, why do i want to go? well, first, its a good place to spend a short vacation. a little break from all the stuff im doing. anything else? well, there's the company of good friends. anything more? hmm...cant think of anything else.

now, why dont i want to go? well, im not in the mood to travel long distances at the moment. actually, i dont like to take a bus at the moment. if i could drive to bicol, then that would be enumerated above as a reason for me to go. and well, i dont know how to drive there, so there's no other choice but go to bicol by taking a bus. another reason is the expenses. i dont have much money at the moment. so, i really dont want to use up a lot of money when it is still midsummer.
there are a bunch of other reasons in between that just makes this decision making process more complicated. so, what now? usually, when i still cant decide, i do a toss coin (this is my, "when in doubt, do the toss coin" rule, where lately, i make it 2 out of 3 and not just a single toss). as far as i can remember, the coin has never failed me. so, will i use it now? maybe on the last minute. right now, there are two strikes (for the three strike rule, refer to blog entry somewhere below). if there comes a third strike, i might change my position. my position right now is not to go. that was my first decision, which apparently, not yet final because im reconsidering it. why am i reconsidering it? umm...because half of me wants to go? but why take my current position not to go? well, because i feel like its not a good idea for me to go with the kind of company i have. but the problem is, that has never stopped me before, i always do some form of "gatecrashing" (i should think for a term for this, or if there is a term, i have no idea what it is...its not gatecrashing because there's an invitation, but even if there is an invitation, given the circumstances, one is not really welcome or the appropriate response would be to turn down the invitation. its like the invitation was extended as an act of...umm...politeness?). i dont know, maybe im just complicating things. another problem is my urge to contradict myself, so the more i want to go, the more i dont want to go too. and usually, the latter part wins. that's why i employ external methods to help me decide.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

TMNT


i watched TMNT (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles) last March 30. And its April 19 already! Why the delayed blog entry? i dont know. i just wasn't in the mood to write about it. anyway, i saw it a few weeks ago and like i said to people who asked me whether its good or not, an 8 over 10 is a good rating for the movie. I liked it and its good because its really a movie (it didnt rely much on the TV series except for assuming that everybody knows the origin of the turtles). i liked its story and i liked the animation. the only problem i had is that only 2 of the turtle characters were primarily used. the two others were underdeveloped. of course, if there's a sequel, then maybe its the turn of the other two turtles to have their characters portrayed more vividly. most likely, its hard to have all four turtle characters to be treated equally in the movie, given the limitations of having a good story in a more or less 2 hour movie. another thing is its more mature theme. yeah, they're still teenagers but they aren't like the ones people remember watching from TV. The personalities are intact but the problems and situations they face have changed. the turtles' story is no longer kid stuff. they may not have grown up very much, but it shows an emphasis that they are getting older when it comes to dealing with their lives.

as for the soundtrack, its good! it really fits the movie. in my opinion, the collection of songs is like a cross between Fast and the Furious Tokyo Drift soundtrack and American Pie 2 soundtrack (because these are the 2 soundtracks that the TMNT soundtrack reminded me of). what i mean is that, there are songs you would like to listen to while driving at night on a clear highway and there are songs that fit teen movies (hence, American Pie).

well, that's pretty much what i recall as the things i wanted to write about when i saw the movie a few weeks ago.

another chick to like in a chick flick


i just watched The Devil Wears Prada a few days ago (rented it), and until now, i still am not over it (what do i mean not over it? well, im still thinking of the movie even if ive seen 3-4 movies after it). For some reason, i really liked the movie. Why? I have no idea. the reason i rented it in the first place is because Gisele Bundchen was in it (i thought she had a significant role, like in the movie Taxi or was playing a supermodel character in the movie). When this movie was still playing in the theater, i didnt even show any interest in watching it.
What made me like it then? Most likely, its the characters since i know nothing about fashion. I liked Emily Blunt's character (Emily Charlton) and Meryl Streep's (Miranda Priestly). I also liked the song by KT Tunstall (Suddenly I See) at the beginning of the movie (which im listening to right now). As for the soundtrack itself, its not bad (it does not include the KT Tunstall's song, which i think is the best song in the movie, next to U2's "City of Blinding Lights" and Alanis Morissette's "Crazy").

Aside from the picture above of Gisele with Emily Blunt, here's two more nice pics of Blunt (if not for Emily Blunt, the movie would have been a big disappointment because i was really looking forward to watching Gisele Bundchen):

Thursday, April 12, 2007

what if?

If I was a dog, i would probably look like this:



















Why? i dont know. when my sister saw this dog, she said it looked like me. maybe because its a shady looking dog.



Monday, April 09, 2007

my N3660 on vacation

ever wondered whether im crazy or not? well, i think im not. it just so happens i have crazy ideas. like this for instance. i had my digicam and my cellphone. in addition to the two, i was bored and so, this got me thinking, what would it be like if my cellphone had a life of its own? if it had, then i think it deserved to have a break since it's been serving me for more or less three years now. it deserved a day-off (since i dont think i can allow it to "retire" any time soon since it can still fulfill its function) and have fun with its other cellphone buddies. the only social life it has is its "text" life where it gets to interact with other cellphone thru SMS. so i said, why not allow it to roam around and be with its "phone pals"? deciding to give my phone a day-off, here is a day in the life of my nokia 3660:


here's my nokia 3660 doing the "totem-phone" with its phone pals:
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my nokia 3660 as a spider:
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nokia 3660 taking a quick rest:
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having a group pic:
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as for the rest of the pics, well, its just my n3660 posing as some very gorgeous hottie/sizzling sexy celebrity:

phone pals in a huddle to admire the lovely Ana Beatriz Barros!
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take a hint, jeon ji hyun won't answer your calls!:
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alizee was framed by phone pals:
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behave yourselves calvin and hobbes, you're blocking reese witherspoon:
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rose byrne a bit camera shy:
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hey harvey, dont be fresh with keira knightley:
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diet or not diet, that is reese's question:
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keeley hazell got tangled:
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jessica alba bored with the junkfood gang:
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stephanie leonidas is going to make your day punk:
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eat your fruit and veggies says rachael leigh cook:
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lovely charlize theron posing for a shot:
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stephanie leonidas waiting in line with the phone pals:
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elisha cuthbert listening to some soothing sounds:
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amy acker doing a group pic with the phone pals:
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now it's kate winslet's turn:
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Friday, March 30, 2007

tristanism ver3

the three-strike rule: once the third strike comes, its time to change my position (like the character of Mustafa of Will Ferrell on Austin Powers, where he had to be asked the same question thrice before he gives the answer)

ok, this is something hard to explain because its a case to case basis. so let's start with examples.

Civil Procedure
there was a time during the semester the professor gave me chances to get a decent grade on my recitations on her class. how many chances? three in all. i tried not to drop the subject, thinking i can pass it. but for some reason, i gave some weight on the three recitations, which was more of, three chances. and these recitations made me reconsider on my position that i will not drop the subject as much as possible. i construed the third time i failed on the recitation as a sign that im out of the game. third strike im out. to get a fourth strike would just make me sink deeper. and the chances of trying to erase those three strikes is so small, that it would be a very big risk to continue. add to the fact that the work load is making me crazy and stressing me out.

Haircut
it took three hints from my professor and three playful remarks from my blockmates referring to the professor's hints, before i decided to get my haircut. first is when the professor suggested during class that if my classmate fails to get the right answer, i will have my haircut. second is when he told a story of an applicant who had long hair only to be asked by the interviewer to have his hair cut. the third is when it was my turn to recite, and again took notice of my hair, joking that the barbershop is calling me. as for my blockmates, three of them made comments on the comments of the professor on my messy hair (all in separate instance of course, that's part of the 3-strike rule, it has to be separate and distinct instances). if only leni was able to raise the right to a messy hair before, i would have invoked that. anyway, by the third hint and comments, actually that would amount to six, i decided to have my hair cut.

Finals
(mentioned on my blog entry below...took three messages, one YM, two SMS before i changed my position from March30 to April 10)

Not sure if the examples clarified it but basically the three strike rule is taking three things or instances together, and having the effect of making me change my position come the third "strike". why the change? because i construe the three as signs that i have to reconsider something. why three? like baseball, im out only on the third strike. it means, by the time ive reached the third strike, i've already dug a deep grave for myself, a fourth strike would just make it deeper and would make it hard for me to get out. so before it gets any deeper, i better change my position. its like, three is the limit. one strike can be ignored, two strikes is still a bit acceptable but must be a cause for concern, and the third strike is the point where, it will be tolerated but one more and "you're a dead man".

so in the three examples, when i applied the 3-strike rule:
Example one: drop the subject
Example two: cut your hair
Example three:choose april 10

of course, it was explicit on the second example, and implicit on example one and three, especially on three (it requires interpretation). that is why i chose the three examples, all of them are different, and like i said, the 3-strike rule is a case to case basis thing. of course, its not all negative. it could be positive. example, for a guy to go for a girl, he may apply the three strike rule. if a girl does something in three separate and distinct instances that he construes as positive signs (whatever this means or whatever these are, its up to you...go nuts trying to think of examples...like she has a "wouldn't it be nice" ringtone, she's seen this movie by phoebe cates, she wants a partner in crime, etc), by the time the girl does the third sign, in comes the third strike, so he would have to change his position from being passive to active in trying to establish a romantic relationship between them.

anyway, its hard to really explain this, even i find it confusing.

never doubt the will of a crammer

"never doubt the heart of a champion" they say. but im not a champion, im a crammer. so i say "never doubt the will of a crammer".

so far, it got me somewhere. unfortunately, i doubted a while ago. i was supposed to take my credit exam on March 30 when i had the choice to take it on another later date, much later, April 10. why did i choose March 30? aside from i might be busy during the holy week and after holy week (meaning, i wont be able to study for it anyway), based from my assessment, i can take the exam on March 30th. im a crammer, so the way i saw it, i think i can equip myself with enough information on credit transactions in a few days to get a passing grade on the exam. so when jump told me i could still reschedule since the deadline for informing gladys about it is still hours away, i said im sticking to March 30. when allelu texted me and unintentionally reinforced the fact that im going solo on the exam since the rest of my blockmates are going to take it on April 10, i still stood by my decision to take it on the 30th. but when gladys texted to confirm and again reminded me that im the lone 2D student who will take the exam, i doubted the will of a crammer.

she texted me while i was studying for the exam which was just 27 hours away. why did i doubt? i dont know. maybe i felt i need to aim higher or i just felt the fear of not being able to cram everything. i mean, ok, i can take the exam on the 30th with enough information to get me through the subject, but why aim for a passing grade or why risk it if i have the choice not to cram? besides, it was more than the usual risk because it was my sister's graduation, meaning im going to be away the rest of the day, reducing the 27 hours to 18 hours. and of course, i had to sleep since i do badly on an exam if i have less than 7 hours of sleep. so, i have 11 hours left to study. but i had to reduce it for occasional breaks. so, maybe i have 9 hours left. is 9 hours enough? yes! but only enough to get a decent exam grade at the most, if my mind is in its optimal level (there are times my mind refuses to cooperate, so i have to reboot it by taking a short nap so when i wake up, i can focus on the fact im taking a final exam and not just some seatwork that's not graded or substantial).

anyway, to cut it short, i decided to go for the april 10 schedule. why? since im about to finish studying for credit, even if im busy during the holy week, at least the only thing i have to do is bits of reviews to refresh my memory here and there, and it might give me an opportunity to study more and aim a little higher than just a passing grade. this is one reason. i rarely change my mind or decide on something with just one reason, there has to be other reasons.

the other reason is that, when gladys texted me, i asked myself, is my "3-strike" rule applicable? this means, three persons sort of challenged my decision to push through with March 30 (this isn't the 3-strike rule, the 3 strike rule is when things comes in threes, obviously, and those three things, if taken together in such sequence, have the impact of making me reconsider or forces me to assess or re-assess a situation...hey, this is a tristanism) . they really didn't challenge me, but their queries or the short conversations i had with them made me doubt and re-think my decision to take the exam on the 30th. on the first two, jump and allelu, i was still convinced to take it on the 30th. but then came the 3rd strike, gladys' text message. and
the 3rd strike usually connotes a change in stance. that's why its a strike, im out, and i have to give in to the opposing view. weird way of making decisions but i do it from time to time (like dropping my civil procedure subject).

a third reason is that, it might be a case of courage vs foolishness. sometimes i find it hard to tell the difference between the two. to cram and take the exam on the 30th. is it courageous? or foolish? in any case its a risk. people with courage take risks. but foolish people also do. and unfortunately, there is nothing honorable with foolish risks and most of the time, such risks lead to failure. so i had to decide quickly, since i asked gladys to give me five minutes to decide. will it be foolish for me to continue? of course i wasnt thinking very much of courage, because sometimes, you just take risks but you dont contemplate whether if its courageous thing to do so. you just do it. its only afterwards that you start to think, "hey, that was brave of me to take the exam on the 30th". so if i think its a foolish decision to push through, then that's enough for me to reconsider. i saw it to be foolish because i didnt have to rush things when i have the option to take more time to study. i could use it to master the subject. its good to aim higher from time to time. even if im going to be busy the next few days, since i have read substantially what's supposed to be studied for credit, what i need to cram are those really important points (what the? this means, when i read, i only try to get an idea of things, not a good grasp yet, and at least i know where to find the information i need to remember when i need to memorize something). so, april 10 is the better option in so many ways. the good thing with march30 is that i wont have to worry about anything after april2 except the administrative law project which is due on the 25th of april. i could be busy with other things without being mindful of academic schedules. does that really outweigh april 10? no, so its foolish to choose march 30.

and with those reasons in mind, i doubted the will of a crammer and decided not to be a crammer if i have the option not to be one. why? because there are times cramming doesnt work and maybe my doubt is telling this is one of those. i may think i may be able to cram everything but it's never a guarantee that things will be ok.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

rebel ducat

"Oh Hell Yeah" (Stone Cold Steve Austin Theme)
by H-Block

people think they know him, say he's wound a little tight
they say he goes looking for trouble, that he's always ready for a fight
but i think he's just an easy going guy, not crossing any lines
he's a caring individual, most of the time, most of the time?
quite a lot of the time!
its just that...
sometimes he makes a little mess,
sometimes he gets a little angry...
oh well, you know...

some people seem unhappy, with certain things he says
they seem to think he's impolite and uncultured in some way
but he's just an easy going guy, and he appreciates their advice
he believes in self-improvement and always being nice...
well, sometimes being nice...occasionally....
its just that...
sometimes he makes a little mess,
sometimes he gets a little angry...
well, yeah you know


This song somehow reflects who Ducat is, or was, on the 28th of March 2007 (well, modified in a sense that its a combination of the full length and remix versions and omitted inapplicable lyrics, like drinking beer and kicking ass).

What he did was wrong. It's not a case of "the end justifies the means". Like many people say, there are other ways of catching the public's attention to air out such grievances. There are a lot of peaceful forms of protest. He didn't have to get the children involved.

I've watched most of the coverage yesterday, and like Mike Enriquez said, not one of the people who knew him has anything bad to say about him. That is why they were surprised he did this. But then again, that wasn't the first time he held someone hostage. So is he mentally unstable? I don't know. Maybe he's just had enough of it. If he really is nice as people say, then one is bound to get frustrated with this world we live in. Like this episode on My Name is Earl last Tuesday on JackTV where Earl learns about global warming. He tries to do his share of helping the earth and realizes that no matter how much nice things he accomplishes, he gets cancelled out by the rest of the world because the rest of the world is not doing anything to save the planet. So what happened to Earl? He breaksdown! The advice he got was, just do his little share erveryday, and that would make a difference. He need not worry much of the big picture because if he did, he is bound to be overwhelmed and frustrated. Take things one step at a time. Going back to Ducat, the episode doesn't really fit neatly to what might be going through Ducat's mind, but he sounded like someone who's tired of Philippine politics. He did everything he can to make a change but i think he just feels that corruption done by other politicians are undoing his accomplishments. That he had devoted years of helping people but the rest of the world is making those accomplishments insignificant compared to the bad things done daily by insensitive and inconsiderate people. in the end, he probably just had enough of it. he's pissed and he's going to make sure the world takes notice. of course, like i said, i don't approve what he did. he did not have to use those children. but sometimes, a person just loses it. its like the feeling you get when you get a paper jam while printing a paper that's due in an hour. you've used good quality paper and you've followed the instruction manual for the printer, there's no reason why the printer should malfunction. but the paper still jams! why! you've done nothing wrong but the printer just has to piss you off. the next thing you know, you've thrown the printer out the window. ok, that's some analogy.

just woke up and read the papers, and as expected, it's mostly Ducat. there are so many things that can be said about what transpired yesterday but i have to study for an exam.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

sorry about that

i forgot i enabled the cross-posting feature of multiply.


Thursday, March 22, 2007

i want to be a backpacker!


the movie Turistas isnt that bad. at least not as bad as Pathfinder (see blog entry below...that movie really sucked, im sorry for those who really liked it but like i said to my blockmate, watching youtube videos are more enjoyable). I would have said its an average thriller movie, but its not really scary. so, i guess its just a so and so movie which one can watch (or preferably rent) when there's nothing left to watch. maybe the reason it didnt suck like the Pathfinder is because, well, its still a good movie. the only problem is that its a thriller, but its not scary. so, it failed on its supposed genre but its not something i would say unbearable to watch.

so is Pathfinder unbearable? heck no, its just a complete waste of time. i even managed to finish it hoping to see more of the hot indian girl (aside from hoping it will get better in the end, a fuckin twist perhaps!). i mean, the film already sucked but it would have sucked a million times more if there wasnt a hottie in sight! if im not mistaken, the hot indian was Moon Bloodgood (this is her screen name, not the character's name. come to think of it, aside from the characters of the movie were fuckin underdeveloped, they never had names. well, they had names but they were never really used. i dont think a name of a character was ever repeated more than three times, if not two. maybe i just stopped paying attention).

anyway, back to Turistas, so its not scary, why bother watch it? i dont know. maybe i thought it wasnt that bad because it involved backpackers. i really would like to be a backpacker one of these days (if i had the money and time). right now, i cant be backpacker primarily because i dont have the money. i dont work, so where the hell am i going to get some money? and if i do someday find myself employed, i wont have the time! ok, thats just speculation. anyway, while watching Turistas, i thought, how come i dont get to have that kind of memorable vacations? like, getting stranded in a place and have someone hunt you down, and probably kill you. its exciting right (well if you're some psycho...wait...i am!)? now that would just beat the boredom out of your usual out of towns. just think about it. you're with a group of friends, and then you get stranded in this unknown village (dont worry, this isnt a spoiler). and then the next thing you know, you're in a cat and mouse game and you have to think fast on how to escape the psycho cat (or cats). and not only that, its not only saving your ass, but saving the asses of all of your friends (unless, your evil side kicks in, and you decide to save only some, the better friends, but you know that in the movies, the karma police will come and get you, and you would be dead by the end of the movie). the best part of course is you get to live to tell it to your other friends (not to your family, they'll just have another reason for you not to hang out with your friends).

maybe that's why i didnt find Turistas that bad, i have a thing for backpackers running for their lives.