Sagittarius Personality Profile:
You are warm, spontaneous, emotional, and magnetic. Your smile is infectious. You love to have fun, yet you have a deeper side to you. Moodiness is something you struggle with from time to time. You are not the most consistent person around, as you tend to feel your way through life, and your emotions are up and down. You are very perceptive, at times complex, and generally quite contradictory! You are a compassionate person. Others may find it hard to assign you traits, simply because you can be brave and adventurous one day, and withdrawn the next.
Impulsive - Scattered - Friendly
Fixed Star(s) Near Your Sun:
This fixed star has a Saturn-Venus influence, and suggests blind good-heartedness, a nature that is easily seduced, some self-destructive traits, and loyalty.
Your progressed Sun enters Capricorn at age 23. The ages of 22to 24 mark a critical turning point in the development of your personality. You become more practical, mindful, and concerned about your personal security. You are a self-starter, and you become more shrewd and focused on your goals.
Your progressed Sun enters Aquarius at age 53. The ages of 52 to 54 mark a critical turning point in the development of your personality. After some sort of crisis of consciousness, and perhaps elimination of circumstances that have been limiting your growth, you become more humanitarian, somewhat detached, and independent. Some may become self-righteous and fixed during this phase, while others learn to detach themselves from situations and loosen up. You kick up your heels and enjoy life with a certain level of detachment and confidence that you hadn't discovered before this time.
"Intelligent. Innovative and inventive mind; yet also tactful, diplomatic, and cordial.
Successful in business pursuits, academic circles, or group projects. Humanistic and
humanitarian."
Numerology
You were born on the 28th day of the month, which reduces to a 1. You don't turn to others for advice or help very readily, simply because you find much satisfaction doing things on your own. Factoring in the 11th month of November, you are a number 3, suggesting that you are sociable, fun-loving, and warm-hearted. You have an infectious sense of humor. Factoring in your birth year gives you your Birth Path Number—a highly personal number for you. Find out how to determine this number here.
Most Favorable Days of the Month are 1, 10, 19, 28, especially when these days (of any month) fall on a Sunday or Monday; and/or when the Sun is in Cancer or Leo. Second-choice favorable days of the month are 2, 11, 20, 29. The best colors for you are all shades of yellows and oranges. You might want to wear ruby gems next to your skin. Properties associated with ruby are power, wealth, attraction, and dynamism.
You Are Drawn to People Born on...
Easy, subtle attraction and harmony: You don't feel an irresistible pull towards each other, but over time, appreciate the peace you have between you. These people are good for you, although they might not challenge you to grow (January 24-31, March 22-April 1, July 22-August 1, September 24-October 3)
On-again, off-again attraction. This is a complex connection, and you make an odd yet interested couple (April 24-28, June 24-28, October 27-31, December 27-31)
A mysterious attraction that can be very romantic...or completely platonic! This is a spiritual connection that has a magical quality to it. (January 16-20, March 9-13, August 11-15, October 4-8)
Opposites attract. Push me, pull me. You could complement each other well if you allow yourselves to learn from each other, or you could actively war against each other. (May 22-June 1)
Attraction of the soul; challenging, intense, rich, and binding. (January 6-10, October 16-20)
Powerful, tumultuous attraction--you are aware of the distinct differences between you, but may be drawn to each other because of the simultaneous awareness of a need and a lack. Either the relationship is ongoing and obviously tumultuous and of a "love-hate" nature, or it flows well until it breaks unexpectedly. (January 11-15, February 21-March 3, April 9-13, July 10-14, August 22-September 1, October 11-15, November 23-December 3)
Creative, communicative, inspiring, and spiritually rewarding connections. (February 6-10, April 18-22, June 30-July 4, September 13-18)
What's in the Cards...
The card associated with your birthday is the Five of Hearts. You are emotionally impulsive and somewhat moody. You feel your way through life, and your emotional radar is superb. Your love card is the Three of Spades. You do whatever you can to make your partner happy, although you may struggle with some indecisiveness in the love department, as well as insecurity.
(from: http://www.cafeastrology.com/birthday/bornnovember28.html)
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
weird coincidence
i never heard the story below until this friday morning, july 25, when i attended the Breathe Well Initiative organization launch. its an organization which seeks to "provide information- -through creative and unconventional means--to enable the public to form an informed and rational decision about smoking"(for more details, check out their multiply site: http://breathewell.multiply.com/).
the weird coincidence is, i received an email on the same day from a different person which contains the story i just heard earlier. its substantially the same. its the same story only that there were different minor details, but its still the same. i just found it weird because ive never heard the story my entire life and then i get to hear and read it on the same day from different sources.
the story im talking about is reposted below:
THE STARFISH
Once upon a time there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work. One day he was walking along the shore. As he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself to think of someone who would dance to the day. So he began to walk faster to catch up.
As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn't dancing, but instead he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean.
As he got closer he called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?"
The young man paused, looked up and replied, "Throwing starfish in the ocean." "I guess I should have asked, why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?" "The sun is up, and the tide is going out, and if I don't throw them in they'll die." "But, young man, don't you realize that there are miles and miles of beach, and starfish all along it. You can't possibly make a difference!"
The young man listened politely. Then bent down, picked up another starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves and said, "It made a difference for that one."
There is something very special in each and every one of us. We have all been gifted with the ability to make a difference, and if we can become aware of that gift, we gain through the strength of our visions the power to shape the future.
We must each find our starfish. And if we throw our stars wisely and well, the world will be blessed.
the weird coincidence is, i received an email on the same day from a different person which contains the story i just heard earlier. its substantially the same. its the same story only that there were different minor details, but its still the same. i just found it weird because ive never heard the story my entire life and then i get to hear and read it on the same day from different sources.
the story im talking about is reposted below:
THE STARFISH
Once upon a time there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work. One day he was walking along the shore. As he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself to think of someone who would dance to the day. So he began to walk faster to catch up.
As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn't dancing, but instead he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean.
As he got closer he called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?"
The young man paused, looked up and replied, "Throwing starfish in the ocean." "I guess I should have asked, why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?" "The sun is up, and the tide is going out, and if I don't throw them in they'll die." "But, young man, don't you realize that there are miles and miles of beach, and starfish all along it. You can't possibly make a difference!"
The young man listened politely. Then bent down, picked up another starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves and said, "It made a difference for that one."
There is something very special in each and every one of us. We have all been gifted with the ability to make a difference, and if we can become aware of that gift, we gain through the strength of our visions the power to shape the future.
We must each find our starfish. And if we throw our stars wisely and well, the world will be blessed.
Friday, July 25, 2008
in this lifetime
one fact a person must accept in life is that some things in life are bound to be lost. some bonds will be broken. friendships and precious memories forgotten. its not inevitable but this is an accepted reality. why? because its difficult to have it otherwise. and its difficult because of two factors: time and the mortal nature of man.
this reality of life or maybe life itself needs to adjust to the unbreakable force of time. well, time at the moment is unbreakable since it cannot be reversed except in theory. while our current reality lacks the capability to reverse time, time will dictate the course of things, with it, the life of every living thing, including the planet's life force. and im going out of focus. going back, due to this reality, our lives needs to adjust so as to not be left behind by time. and we need to adjust further because of our limited capacity to exist. in short, we dont have much time and time isnt willing to give us more than what we are capable of acquiring. meaning, aside from being forced to walk beside the dictated course of time, we also need to learn how to maximize its use because time doesnt care if we can keep up with its pace or not.
that is why it has become a reality for us to accept that things will be lost in our lifetime. because as much as we try to hold on to things, time will just keep moving forward, and the more we lag behind, the more difficult it is for us to get back on track. people who hold on to things too much get stuck. from the viewpoint of the rest of the population, they are immobile. they are paralyzed. some would try to help them to get out of that situation, others will keep moving forward. thats why i said its not inevitable. something can be done actually. its a matter of what you choose to do. but again, most people choose to move forward, hence, the creation of the reality we now accept. and when i say reality, i mean the popular choice that has become a social norm. this is the kind of reality im talking about.
its like our life can be divided into a number of overlapping loveable sitcoms (or tragedies or dramas or a mix of all or some, depending on the kind of life you have. but since were talking about bonds/friendships and things people hold dear, a sitcom is the appropriate one to use). some sitcoms may run for as short as one season, maybe even less and some as long as a decade, maybe longer. to the sitcoms that have ended, some people try to have those one-night only reunions where the cast try to have one last show (i would like to make use of the Eraserheads as example but, although its been confirmed, it hasnt really happened yet and its not a sitcom). and for some, this is enough for them so they can move on. its like a closure for them. they're happy that they had a one last run because in reality, the sitcom's last episode isnt scheduled. it just happens.some are aware of it, some are not.
unfortunately, there are those who cant accept this reality of losing bonds/friendships, of having a "last episode". they would insist on having another run, another reunion or any other way just to keep things the way they were. its sad enough that we have to accept this form of loss but its sadder to see those who cannot accept it. because they're trying to hold on to something precious to them, maybe the only thing that matters in their lives or probably means everything to them, yet time will never wait, life will not stop and the reality is not in their favor. they are not wrong to do this, to keep on holding on to what they believe is of paramount importance. but its not matter of whether its right or wrong. its a matter of acknowledging the unyielding strength of time coupled with the harshness of reality and life. one can go against it because it can be done, its not impossible to continue holding on to things. but it means wasting time and wasting one's life simply because the reality we have now isnt about holding on to things, its about keeping up with the pace of time and just keep moving forward because our time in this world is limited. its our tendency to maximize the use of the little time we have. we try to explore as much as we can, experience all that can be possibly be experienced. holding on to things is limiting our exposure to what this lifetime can offer. and simply, thats just not our "reality". it may be pitiful to see people who cannot accept this reality but you cant blame them for trying to go against the reality we have. its their choice, the same way other people made their choice of moving on and making sure they keep up with time.
this reality of life or maybe life itself needs to adjust to the unbreakable force of time. well, time at the moment is unbreakable since it cannot be reversed except in theory. while our current reality lacks the capability to reverse time, time will dictate the course of things, with it, the life of every living thing, including the planet's life force. and im going out of focus. going back, due to this reality, our lives needs to adjust so as to not be left behind by time. and we need to adjust further because of our limited capacity to exist. in short, we dont have much time and time isnt willing to give us more than what we are capable of acquiring. meaning, aside from being forced to walk beside the dictated course of time, we also need to learn how to maximize its use because time doesnt care if we can keep up with its pace or not.
that is why it has become a reality for us to accept that things will be lost in our lifetime. because as much as we try to hold on to things, time will just keep moving forward, and the more we lag behind, the more difficult it is for us to get back on track. people who hold on to things too much get stuck. from the viewpoint of the rest of the population, they are immobile. they are paralyzed. some would try to help them to get out of that situation, others will keep moving forward. thats why i said its not inevitable. something can be done actually. its a matter of what you choose to do. but again, most people choose to move forward, hence, the creation of the reality we now accept. and when i say reality, i mean the popular choice that has become a social norm. this is the kind of reality im talking about.
its like our life can be divided into a number of overlapping loveable sitcoms (or tragedies or dramas or a mix of all or some, depending on the kind of life you have. but since were talking about bonds/friendships and things people hold dear, a sitcom is the appropriate one to use). some sitcoms may run for as short as one season, maybe even less and some as long as a decade, maybe longer. to the sitcoms that have ended, some people try to have those one-night only reunions where the cast try to have one last show (i would like to make use of the Eraserheads as example but, although its been confirmed, it hasnt really happened yet and its not a sitcom). and for some, this is enough for them so they can move on. its like a closure for them. they're happy that they had a one last run because in reality, the sitcom's last episode isnt scheduled. it just happens.some are aware of it, some are not.
unfortunately, there are those who cant accept this reality of losing bonds/friendships, of having a "last episode". they would insist on having another run, another reunion or any other way just to keep things the way they were. its sad enough that we have to accept this form of loss but its sadder to see those who cannot accept it. because they're trying to hold on to something precious to them, maybe the only thing that matters in their lives or probably means everything to them, yet time will never wait, life will not stop and the reality is not in their favor. they are not wrong to do this, to keep on holding on to what they believe is of paramount importance. but its not matter of whether its right or wrong. its a matter of acknowledging the unyielding strength of time coupled with the harshness of reality and life. one can go against it because it can be done, its not impossible to continue holding on to things. but it means wasting time and wasting one's life simply because the reality we have now isnt about holding on to things, its about keeping up with the pace of time and just keep moving forward because our time in this world is limited. its our tendency to maximize the use of the little time we have. we try to explore as much as we can, experience all that can be possibly be experienced. holding on to things is limiting our exposure to what this lifetime can offer. and simply, thats just not our "reality". it may be pitiful to see people who cannot accept this reality but you cant blame them for trying to go against the reality we have. its their choice, the same way other people made their choice of moving on and making sure they keep up with time.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Why... so... serious?
Harvey Dent said in TDK that "the night is darkest just before the dawn" and it made the movie good because they were able to depict this quote very well. the chaos and anarchy really reflected the "darkness" Gotham was under. and the Joker as the promoter of this chaos and anarchy is a magnificent villain. as Alfred said, "Some men aren't looking for anything logical. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn." so, what do you do when you face a man like the joker who is beyond reason but not necessarily insane? and when the dawn comes, does it mean everything will be alright? there's no definite solution/answer for the former except, as Alfred said, "Endure!" and as for the latter, i think Joker answered this when he said "You've changed things... forever. There's no going back."
The Joker appears to be the one in full control of chaotic situation and the only thing Batman can do is endure even if when the "dawn" comes, things will never be same as they were before. and maybe thats why the movie is named TDK because of the difficult nature of the role batman had to play despite its very villain-centered/Joker-centered theme. but even if what used to be an "immovable object" known as Batman had the difficult task of choosing to confront an "unstoppable force" in the person of the Joker, whatever the costs, making TDK a great being, i still think the Joker is more brilliant for trying to create an "organized chaos" by trying to manipulate human reason by corrupting their minds and tinkering with their emotions. the only reason why the Joker failed is because when one deals with human emotion, you deal with the irrational. the Joker can only exercise control over the irrational as long as the rational side exerts some influence over it. the moment reason loses its power over human emotions, not even a criminal mastermind like the Joker can predict human actions under this state of mind or being. so, things will be left to chance, which makes Two-Face a bit relevant. because when unpredictability enters the picture, you then try to make use of probabilities to gain some control (or an impression of control). it then boils down whether the odds are against you or not. so now that i think about it, Batman didnt really stop the Joker, its human unpredictability due to power of the human emotion exhibited in the "blow up the other boat" scene.
so, in order to appreciate Batman's character, you have to look at the movie as whole which reflects TDK's state of mind. and its easier to appreciate and enjoy the villains because they are the ones that induce such state of mind.
The Joker appears to be the one in full control of chaotic situation and the only thing Batman can do is endure even if when the "dawn" comes, things will never be same as they were before. and maybe thats why the movie is named TDK because of the difficult nature of the role batman had to play despite its very villain-centered/Joker-centered theme. but even if what used to be an "immovable object" known as Batman had the difficult task of choosing to confront an "unstoppable force" in the person of the Joker, whatever the costs, making TDK a great being, i still think the Joker is more brilliant for trying to create an "organized chaos" by trying to manipulate human reason by corrupting their minds and tinkering with their emotions. the only reason why the Joker failed is because when one deals with human emotion, you deal with the irrational. the Joker can only exercise control over the irrational as long as the rational side exerts some influence over it. the moment reason loses its power over human emotions, not even a criminal mastermind like the Joker can predict human actions under this state of mind or being. so, things will be left to chance, which makes Two-Face a bit relevant. because when unpredictability enters the picture, you then try to make use of probabilities to gain some control (or an impression of control). it then boils down whether the odds are against you or not. so now that i think about it, Batman didnt really stop the Joker, its human unpredictability due to power of the human emotion exhibited in the "blow up the other boat" scene.
so, in order to appreciate Batman's character, you have to look at the movie as whole which reflects TDK's state of mind. and its easier to appreciate and enjoy the villains because they are the ones that induce such state of mind.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Some men just want to watch the world burn
The Dark Knight didn’t quite meet my expectations. I’m reluctant to say it’s great because it is great but not because of the Dark Knight. It’s great because of the Joker. TDK reminds me of Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events where Count Olaf is much more interesting than the protagonists. In TDK, the Joker is the captivating character. That’s also the reason why i would want to watch TDK again. maybe the reason why I’m disappointed with Batman's character is because there's really nothing new about the character except that this time, he has bigger challenges. Isn’t that the way superhero movie sequels should be? so what more could be expected from the Batman? anyway, the movie focused more on the villains which isnt bad actually. But i was already expecting that the villains were interesting because of the months of promotions. i guess i was expecting to see more than what the promotions already introduced. or maybe i just didnt see the "greatness" of the Batman. its clear on the choices he had to make. thats what made him great. but I’m referring more on the style he fights crime. i was expecting to be impressed on how he does it (“the shiznit!” factor). well, what I’m sure of is that the Joker character was brilliant. It was impressively portrayed. too bad Ledger's gone.
as a whole, TDK is really good. but my problem is, my expectations were raised because of the months of promotions and thats why im a bit disappointed (and I really have the tendency to have very high expectations). i knew the Joker was going to be interesting and sure enough, he was. but i was also expecting the Batman to be better. i was probably expecting that TDK's promotions havent shown the best the movie had to offer. the same way with the Transformers movie. thats what made Transformers really good. you get to see something you werent expecting because it was promoted well enough that the movie itself can still exceed the expectations created by the promotions. there lies the difference between the two movies. the Transformers was promoted very carefully, making sure that it arouses the people's interest in the movie yet making sure that they don’t disclose the best parts of the movie. as for TDK, it was promoted so well that it made itself a highly anticipated movie but the promotional materials made use of the best parts of the movie that there isnt much to expect anymore. or maybe its just me. and since i just compared it with the Transformers movie, im really referring to visually stimulating scenes. as for the other parts of the TDK, i really dont have problems with it.
sort of spoilers: the plot was good. its also as realistic as it can possibly be (except the part where the batmobile/tank broke down. that made me wonder. why did it sustain that much damage? Did I miss something?). the batman's fight scenes werent impressive (i still think The Incredible Hulk's fight scenes were the best fight scenes ive seen this year. Edward Norton was a good choice for mild-mannered Bruce Banner (Keisie was right) and i still think Nicholas Cage isnt Ghost Rider material). For me, it lacks “mind-blowing” scenes. Also, there weren’t much gadgets (i dont remember him making use of his ever reliable "utility belt" but then again, it might be a better to ditch the "utility belt" idea). the batman's voice was weird at first but you get used to it as the movie progresses. the ending is good, i really liked the way they did it. putting Two-Face in the movie dont come across as if they were forcing an additional character nor was the character underdeveloped. the story's really good for a two villain movie. i also liked the way they portrayed the Joker as the Batman's biggest challenge. but that's what makes it problematic for me. in order for the Joker to be the Batman's biggest challenge, he has to be as menacing, threatening and demented as he can possibly be (just the way i like my villains). thats what makes the Joker very interesting. too interesting that the Batman looks like a secondary character. the Joker is the star of the movie. TDK is also a break from the usual superhero story where the villain poses a challenge to the hero but youre still very sure the hero is going to win in the end. You just wonder how he or she will do it. In TDK, its not as simple as the ordinary "hero wins, villains lose" kind of ending. the Batman didnt really defeat the Joker now that i think about it. the Batman just stopped him. With the damage done by the Joker, to Gotham City, its citizens, to Harvey Dent and Rachel Dawes and to the Batman, I think Batman didn’t really “win”. That’s why i said i liked the way they ended it. it also didnt look like it was aiming for a third installment of the reinvented Batman franchise (like the way The Incredible Hulk ended where it gave the impression that the ending is open to the possibility of a sequel depending on how well the movie fares).
It’s still much better than Batman Begins and the best of all the Batman movies. Its more than just another comic book superhero movie. I won’t even say it’s an action movie because, again, its more than that. probably the problem i have with it is that it lacks the action part (huh?). i mean, it could go beyond being just another action movie (which it did) but it doesnt mean it need not have mind-blowing fight scenes or bloody fist fights or gruesome whatever. or maybe im asking too much. and probably thats why i didnt find the Batman character impressive. or maybe he is. only that the Joker is much more impressive. I guess I’m just expecting too much and my idea of a “perfect” movie is unreasonable or maybe im looking for more action. thats also my problem with Iron Man. although Incredible Hulk had better fight scenes, i liked the Iron Man more. between TDK and IronMan, i would go for the TDK if i were to judge it in its entirety. so, in the end, TDK is the best movie ive seen this year. im just being unreasonable for expecting more.
as a whole, TDK is really good. but my problem is, my expectations were raised because of the months of promotions and thats why im a bit disappointed (and I really have the tendency to have very high expectations). i knew the Joker was going to be interesting and sure enough, he was. but i was also expecting the Batman to be better. i was probably expecting that TDK's promotions havent shown the best the movie had to offer. the same way with the Transformers movie. thats what made Transformers really good. you get to see something you werent expecting because it was promoted well enough that the movie itself can still exceed the expectations created by the promotions. there lies the difference between the two movies. the Transformers was promoted very carefully, making sure that it arouses the people's interest in the movie yet making sure that they don’t disclose the best parts of the movie. as for TDK, it was promoted so well that it made itself a highly anticipated movie but the promotional materials made use of the best parts of the movie that there isnt much to expect anymore. or maybe its just me. and since i just compared it with the Transformers movie, im really referring to visually stimulating scenes. as for the other parts of the TDK, i really dont have problems with it.
sort of spoilers: the plot was good. its also as realistic as it can possibly be (except the part where the batmobile/tank broke down. that made me wonder. why did it sustain that much damage? Did I miss something?). the batman's fight scenes werent impressive (i still think The Incredible Hulk's fight scenes were the best fight scenes ive seen this year. Edward Norton was a good choice for mild-mannered Bruce Banner (Keisie was right) and i still think Nicholas Cage isnt Ghost Rider material). For me, it lacks “mind-blowing” scenes. Also, there weren’t much gadgets (i dont remember him making use of his ever reliable "utility belt" but then again, it might be a better to ditch the "utility belt" idea). the batman's voice was weird at first but you get used to it as the movie progresses. the ending is good, i really liked the way they did it. putting Two-Face in the movie dont come across as if they were forcing an additional character nor was the character underdeveloped. the story's really good for a two villain movie. i also liked the way they portrayed the Joker as the Batman's biggest challenge. but that's what makes it problematic for me. in order for the Joker to be the Batman's biggest challenge, he has to be as menacing, threatening and demented as he can possibly be (just the way i like my villains). thats what makes the Joker very interesting. too interesting that the Batman looks like a secondary character. the Joker is the star of the movie. TDK is also a break from the usual superhero story where the villain poses a challenge to the hero but youre still very sure the hero is going to win in the end. You just wonder how he or she will do it. In TDK, its not as simple as the ordinary "hero wins, villains lose" kind of ending. the Batman didnt really defeat the Joker now that i think about it. the Batman just stopped him. With the damage done by the Joker, to Gotham City, its citizens, to Harvey Dent and Rachel Dawes and to the Batman, I think Batman didn’t really “win”. That’s why i said i liked the way they ended it. it also didnt look like it was aiming for a third installment of the reinvented Batman franchise (like the way The Incredible Hulk ended where it gave the impression that the ending is open to the possibility of a sequel depending on how well the movie fares).
It’s still much better than Batman Begins and the best of all the Batman movies. Its more than just another comic book superhero movie. I won’t even say it’s an action movie because, again, its more than that. probably the problem i have with it is that it lacks the action part (huh?). i mean, it could go beyond being just another action movie (which it did) but it doesnt mean it need not have mind-blowing fight scenes or bloody fist fights or gruesome whatever. or maybe im asking too much. and probably thats why i didnt find the Batman character impressive. or maybe he is. only that the Joker is much more impressive. I guess I’m just expecting too much and my idea of a “perfect” movie is unreasonable or maybe im looking for more action. thats also my problem with Iron Man. although Incredible Hulk had better fight scenes, i liked the Iron Man more. between TDK and IronMan, i would go for the TDK if i were to judge it in its entirety. so, in the end, TDK is the best movie ive seen this year. im just being unreasonable for expecting more.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
the power of love
to do what cant be done
to sing what cant be sung
to learn to play the game
to make the things that cant be made
to save those who cant be saved
to learn how to be in time
to know what isnt known
to see what isnt shown
to be where youre meant to be
all you need is love to do the abovementioned things, among others. but why? because for some, this is what makes someone truly human. to exceed the limitations of the human intellect. to do what cant be understood but only felt. to make what cannot be taught but can only be experienced. to have love within oneself is to be overwhelmed by a supremely beautiful emotion and be intoxicated by a personal and profound sense of being which the human intellect cant possibly give. love is way beyond human comprehension. this is why it seems that it is the human tendency to acquire love.
the question is, is it meant for everybody? is everyone capable of truly acquiring love in the proper sense. because although love is beyond human comprehension, it is still determinable or identifiable. you still need a little bit of intellect to recognize what love is. and little more of this human intellect to confirm it is love in its truest form and not just a shoddy emotion trying to pass itself as love. i think most people are deceived by this inferior emotion. or do not fully understand or are not truly capable of handling love. love is a powerful creature and despite its beauty, its also capable of destroying those who are not prepared to have it. love is not only about the euphoria it brings because it can also inflict a tremendous and also overwhelming amount of pain. for some, the pain is unimaginable, even unbearable. to seek love is to prepare to wrest control over its beautiful side and its dark side.
to love is to do something that is highly personal and cannot be passed to another person. it is doubtful it can be learned but i think it can be understood to at least obtain some form of control over it. much as people want not to control love so as to not to limit its power, i think control over it is a necessity. something as powerful as love should not be allowed to just take over oneself and let go of everything else. and if im not mistaken, no human has achieved the level of being an epitome of love. it seems to me that its impossible to allow love to take over and not be destroyed by it. maybe because its humanly impossible to contain love in a mortal physical being in a very loose manner, not influenced by human intellect. love in this case resembles the behavior of cancer cells. it will slowly destroy you from within if you dont try to exercise some form of control over it. to let go of the human intellect and refuse to limit the love contained within is like to abandon reason and dwell in realm of the irrational. this is the best way to lose yourself and most likely never come back. to live in a constant state of internal chaos and not realize it. to be lost in a destructive delusion and be ignorant of its harmful effects.
i just stated what seems to me is something obvious. but then again, humans have the tendency to forget or miss the obvious. they gamble anyway and seek love and acquire it without preparing for what it can bring into one's life. they indulge in it, sometimes without any inkling of the consequences. my point is, love is not for the ignorant. even if most people want to have love in their lives, it will destroy those who are weak and unprepared, meaning those who are not worthy to have it. love can only be enjoyed by those who deserve it.
to sing what cant be sung
to learn to play the game
to make the things that cant be made
to save those who cant be saved
to learn how to be in time
to know what isnt known
to see what isnt shown
to be where youre meant to be
all you need is love to do the abovementioned things, among others. but why? because for some, this is what makes someone truly human. to exceed the limitations of the human intellect. to do what cant be understood but only felt. to make what cannot be taught but can only be experienced. to have love within oneself is to be overwhelmed by a supremely beautiful emotion and be intoxicated by a personal and profound sense of being which the human intellect cant possibly give. love is way beyond human comprehension. this is why it seems that it is the human tendency to acquire love.
the question is, is it meant for everybody? is everyone capable of truly acquiring love in the proper sense. because although love is beyond human comprehension, it is still determinable or identifiable. you still need a little bit of intellect to recognize what love is. and little more of this human intellect to confirm it is love in its truest form and not just a shoddy emotion trying to pass itself as love. i think most people are deceived by this inferior emotion. or do not fully understand or are not truly capable of handling love. love is a powerful creature and despite its beauty, its also capable of destroying those who are not prepared to have it. love is not only about the euphoria it brings because it can also inflict a tremendous and also overwhelming amount of pain. for some, the pain is unimaginable, even unbearable. to seek love is to prepare to wrest control over its beautiful side and its dark side.
to love is to do something that is highly personal and cannot be passed to another person. it is doubtful it can be learned but i think it can be understood to at least obtain some form of control over it. much as people want not to control love so as to not to limit its power, i think control over it is a necessity. something as powerful as love should not be allowed to just take over oneself and let go of everything else. and if im not mistaken, no human has achieved the level of being an epitome of love. it seems to me that its impossible to allow love to take over and not be destroyed by it. maybe because its humanly impossible to contain love in a mortal physical being in a very loose manner, not influenced by human intellect. love in this case resembles the behavior of cancer cells. it will slowly destroy you from within if you dont try to exercise some form of control over it. to let go of the human intellect and refuse to limit the love contained within is like to abandon reason and dwell in realm of the irrational. this is the best way to lose yourself and most likely never come back. to live in a constant state of internal chaos and not realize it. to be lost in a destructive delusion and be ignorant of its harmful effects.
i just stated what seems to me is something obvious. but then again, humans have the tendency to forget or miss the obvious. they gamble anyway and seek love and acquire it without preparing for what it can bring into one's life. they indulge in it, sometimes without any inkling of the consequences. my point is, love is not for the ignorant. even if most people want to have love in their lives, it will destroy those who are weak and unprepared, meaning those who are not worthy to have it. love can only be enjoyed by those who deserve it.
dont piss off the pervy sage
dont come here questioning my honesty and expect that i wont be pissed. especially when you question my honesty without any basis. dont fucking accuse me with baseless allegations. and an apology is a waste of time. i dont buy it. i dont care how sorry you are. the fact is, you brought a scenario that would require an apology and which was caused by irresponsibility, incompetence and childishness. and in your case, ignorance of the social protocol (ok, maybe it has not acquired this level, but i think it should be regarded as one and as usual, im getting ahead of myself). when you apologize, you swallow your pride. you say sorry without qualifications. i dont fucking care why youre irresponsible, incompetent, childish, and im going to add, negligent. if youre sorry, you dont try to justify your mistake. you just admit you made a mistake. no excuses. i used to do it too, qualifiy my apologies, but i learned on my own that its not a sincere apology. thats why i dont accept apologies, especially for grave mistakes, because the damage has been done. and assessing the situation, it could have been avoided...if you were only strong enough. and weakness is not an excuse. im hard on myself to toughen myself up so dont go appearing before me in your weak and worthless state and then apologizing insincerely afterwards. be man enough to apologize sincerely, or be man enough not to apologize and firmly fight for the mistake you believe to be correct. choosing the latter is foolish but its tougher to do than making an insincere apology and then walking away like a dog with his tail between his legs.
i have my own demons. lots of them. and i deal with them on my own, every fucking day. i put myself through hell intentionally because trying to escape from them is pointless. i intentionally destroy some of my own personal relationships with people close to me because of the constant battles i have with these demons. because thats the only way i can keep them at bay. i know its a big loss, but its something im compelled to do so as not to be defeated by these demons. selfish but thats the only way to prevent self-destruction. its stupid to be selfless and allow yourself to be destroyed and rot from within. because that would only make you useless to everyone.
im also haunted by traumatic memories from time to time. experiences that fucked me up and was forced to accept that i could never change them, no matter how hard and how many times i try. these experiences changed me in a manner that some say only psychiatrists could correct. i dont believe in that crap. but even if it was true, im still going to handle it on my own, without any help. im going to deal with it on my own because its my problem and im going to make sure that im tough enough to solve it on my own. i hate sharing my own problems. thats why i dont go around worrying and crying about it because i deal with it, on my own and in my own way. sure i complain and whine but thats just to decrease its weight. i would be stupid not to decrease the burden, no matter how insubstantial it may seem.
i dont go asking for help. and i dont expect it either. because most likely, no one can save me from my own demons, maybe not even me. if thats true, the most i can do is to make sure they dont get me. but if the demons get the better of me, then its my loss and im prepared to accept that. i will not blame anyone because all throughout, it was only me that was involved. everything is my call, my choice, my discretion. im the one who is in the best position to handle the situation.
it may be a never-ending battle with these demons but i never get tired of saying to mysef i wont lose to them. what have you done to fight your demons? it appears to me, not much. maybe your demons are stronger. most likely they are. but i firmly believe that they are not insurmountable nor losing to them an inevitability. giving in is losing to these demons but that doesnt mean the battle is over. you should always try to bounce back. and once you do, i think the next step should be all about learning from the loss and educating yourself on how to deal with your demons the next time they come knocking.
psychiatrists arent very different from ordinary people when it comes to dealing with demons. it just so happens that they read and studied about it, learned the ways how to deal with it. and then share and apply what they know. and most people could do that too (except the sharing and applying part because that requires formal training). the point is, you cant rely on others to fight your demons. its your own. you are the one who experiences them, no one else. you are the one in the best position to determine how deal with them. if you need help, fine, go ahead. but dont depend on that help to be the one that would fight most of your battles. because thats stupid. dependence weakens you rather than strengthens you. help in itself is good but its an indication too of insufficiency in strength. if you know that you are weak and you cant avoid to engage in battle, its logical for some to ask for help than be destroyed "honorably". but that doesnt stop there. reinforcements will come from others but that doesnt mean you will not do anything to strengthen yourself. in the end, the aim should be to be strong enough to fight your battles on your own, survive them, learn from the experience and the mistakes and further educate and strengthen yourself. thats how you should deal with your demons.
i have my own demons. lots of them. and i deal with them on my own, every fucking day. i put myself through hell intentionally because trying to escape from them is pointless. i intentionally destroy some of my own personal relationships with people close to me because of the constant battles i have with these demons. because thats the only way i can keep them at bay. i know its a big loss, but its something im compelled to do so as not to be defeated by these demons. selfish but thats the only way to prevent self-destruction. its stupid to be selfless and allow yourself to be destroyed and rot from within. because that would only make you useless to everyone.
im also haunted by traumatic memories from time to time. experiences that fucked me up and was forced to accept that i could never change them, no matter how hard and how many times i try. these experiences changed me in a manner that some say only psychiatrists could correct. i dont believe in that crap. but even if it was true, im still going to handle it on my own, without any help. im going to deal with it on my own because its my problem and im going to make sure that im tough enough to solve it on my own. i hate sharing my own problems. thats why i dont go around worrying and crying about it because i deal with it, on my own and in my own way. sure i complain and whine but thats just to decrease its weight. i would be stupid not to decrease the burden, no matter how insubstantial it may seem.
i dont go asking for help. and i dont expect it either. because most likely, no one can save me from my own demons, maybe not even me. if thats true, the most i can do is to make sure they dont get me. but if the demons get the better of me, then its my loss and im prepared to accept that. i will not blame anyone because all throughout, it was only me that was involved. everything is my call, my choice, my discretion. im the one who is in the best position to handle the situation.
it may be a never-ending battle with these demons but i never get tired of saying to mysef i wont lose to them. what have you done to fight your demons? it appears to me, not much. maybe your demons are stronger. most likely they are. but i firmly believe that they are not insurmountable nor losing to them an inevitability. giving in is losing to these demons but that doesnt mean the battle is over. you should always try to bounce back. and once you do, i think the next step should be all about learning from the loss and educating yourself on how to deal with your demons the next time they come knocking.
psychiatrists arent very different from ordinary people when it comes to dealing with demons. it just so happens that they read and studied about it, learned the ways how to deal with it. and then share and apply what they know. and most people could do that too (except the sharing and applying part because that requires formal training). the point is, you cant rely on others to fight your demons. its your own. you are the one who experiences them, no one else. you are the one in the best position to determine how deal with them. if you need help, fine, go ahead. but dont depend on that help to be the one that would fight most of your battles. because thats stupid. dependence weakens you rather than strengthens you. help in itself is good but its an indication too of insufficiency in strength. if you know that you are weak and you cant avoid to engage in battle, its logical for some to ask for help than be destroyed "honorably". but that doesnt stop there. reinforcements will come from others but that doesnt mean you will not do anything to strengthen yourself. in the end, the aim should be to be strong enough to fight your battles on your own, survive them, learn from the experience and the mistakes and further educate and strengthen yourself. thats how you should deal with your demons.
Monday, July 14, 2008
dumb and dumber
i think karma caught up with me. i have the nasty habit of feigning ignorance. why? i dont know. maybe its because im too lazy to be knowledgeable. its a bit of a hassle to know stuff because people would go to you and ask for the answer. sure it was great at first but it just became tiring and annoying. another is that, some expect you to teach them what you know. and since im the type who believes that experience is the best teacher, im always reluctant to share knowledge by way of the traditional mode of teaching. for me, experiencing is the best way to learn (thats why i say im self taught). thats why i rarely ask questions too. i want to learn it on my own. if i get it wrong, at least im trying to learn it on my own. the problem with this approach is that it takes time. and there are instances when you need to learn things fast. anyway, im digressing. the reason i said i think karma caught up with me is because i think im becoming stupid every minute. i mean, i feign ignorance so frequently that its become something natural for me to do. i pretend i dont know. i act stupid. when i dont feel like reciting, i pass or pretend im clueless of whats being asked. and so it actually happened, ive become stupid. well, stupid compared to the current people im with. its like im constantly slipping down from some kind of intellectual ladder. my level of comprehension and my ability to absorb new things is becoming so poor that im really starting to believe ive developed some kind of mental retardation. im forgetting stuff i know and my thinking ability seem to me that its really deteriorating.
ok, maybe i feel that way because gradeschool to college was pretty much a breeze and law school is one big struggle for me. and im starting to think ive reached my limit because even if im trying hard, it seems its not enough to really raise myself to the same level as my fellow law students. its like, my effort is not good enough. i have to do more. unfortunately, i dont have the stamina nor the endurance for it. like i sometimes say, im like a constitution which can only be done with great exertion for a limited time and not frequently repeated. i cant exert the increased level of effort for a considerable amount of time. although, i think i could easily do it if i were the same person as i was back in highschool. when i still had the discipline and wasnt intoxicated with arrogance. when i reached college, i felt i dont need the professors. we have books anyway. so i slept half of the time during class. the other half, i was really sleepy. it offended the professors of course, but i didnt care. i knew i could pass the subject. and if i dont, so what. thats why i became lazier and i started to lose my discipline. and im digressing again. point is, i started feigning ignorance because i didnt want to appear some person who knows stuff. which is kind of a mistake since it would prevent me from polishing my ideas through intellectual converstations. i cant just engage in self-analysis. like henry roth said, "fresh eye never hurts". so, since i let the laziness take over, i guess my brain cells slowly deteriorated too. so now, ive become a dumb guy, and becoming dumber since ive lost the stamina to actually recover from the mental deterioration, and ive placed myself in a situation where i really cant afford to be stupid nor dare to be stupid, now what? ill just have to depend on studying through hardwork and see how far it can get me. it works for some people. i hope it works for me. or i hope i can do it too.
ok, maybe i feel that way because gradeschool to college was pretty much a breeze and law school is one big struggle for me. and im starting to think ive reached my limit because even if im trying hard, it seems its not enough to really raise myself to the same level as my fellow law students. its like, my effort is not good enough. i have to do more. unfortunately, i dont have the stamina nor the endurance for it. like i sometimes say, im like a constitution which can only be done with great exertion for a limited time and not frequently repeated. i cant exert the increased level of effort for a considerable amount of time. although, i think i could easily do it if i were the same person as i was back in highschool. when i still had the discipline and wasnt intoxicated with arrogance. when i reached college, i felt i dont need the professors. we have books anyway. so i slept half of the time during class. the other half, i was really sleepy. it offended the professors of course, but i didnt care. i knew i could pass the subject. and if i dont, so what. thats why i became lazier and i started to lose my discipline. and im digressing again. point is, i started feigning ignorance because i didnt want to appear some person who knows stuff. which is kind of a mistake since it would prevent me from polishing my ideas through intellectual converstations. i cant just engage in self-analysis. like henry roth said, "fresh eye never hurts". so, since i let the laziness take over, i guess my brain cells slowly deteriorated too. so now, ive become a dumb guy, and becoming dumber since ive lost the stamina to actually recover from the mental deterioration, and ive placed myself in a situation where i really cant afford to be stupid nor dare to be stupid, now what? ill just have to depend on studying through hardwork and see how far it can get me. it works for some people. i hope it works for me. or i hope i can do it too.
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Sunday, July 13, 2008
cellophane sunshine
dont you just hate it when its raining outside and youre about to go out, you get your jacket and your umbrella and after a few minutes of walking outside, the rain stops. its like, whats the point of getting ready to go out in the rain when after all those preparations, the rain wont cooperate. well, not that it happened to me recently, walking in a rainy day attire when its not raining. its just that im feeling something similar to that. you prepare yourself for what looks like a sad and depressing situation and it doesnt happen. the situtation that would bring sadness and depression doesnt materialize. so you get pissed, and become sad and depressed anyway because its like everything was spoiled with the sudden turn of events. or for things not happening according to what was expected. and what makes it problematic is that, like wearing the rainy day attire, once you set out and covered a considerable distance, you wont just head back home to leave your jacket and umbrella. you just keep going even if its a bit of hassle to bring an umbrella and a jacket on a day that looks like the sun will shine because the rainy part of the day is over. it becomes excess baggage. same to what im feeling now. i cant just drop all the anticipations ive made. and unlike in my analogy, the sun really isnt shining. it was just supposed to rain and that didnt happen. its doesnt follow that the sun's shining on me. its another one of those "now what?" situations because of miscalculations or erroneous assessment of situations. maybe i am suffering from some kind of mental retardation.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
i want my fast food!
i havent eaten any mcdonalds product for quite some time (meaning two weeks). so last night, i tried calling up mcdonald's delivery. unfortunately, i was told that the delivery service for the 2 branches near our residence were not available. the matalino branch had its last order for delivery at 8:40pm (if i remember correctly, and i called around 9:10pm!) and the philcoa branch will not deliver after 9pm.
since i really wanted to eat a double cheeseburger deluxe "go big time" meal, i said to myself, i'll go there myself. the nearest branch is open 24 hours after all. so i walked to the matalino branch only to find out that they were closed for the night, starting 9pm on july 5. talk about wrong timing! and im not going to walk to philcoa. so i just went back home and decided to just call jollibee delivery. for me, it's the next best fast food restaurant when it comes to burgers. so i called up 87000 and i ended up ordering 2 big mac meals. good thing the guy at the other end didnt react much and just said to me that they dont serve the product and told me its equivalent. i meant to order their Champ but i was just so in the mood for a mcdonalds burger that i ended up saying Big Mac instead of Champ.
anyway, why am i blogging about this? well, its just nothing very eventful is happening lately. and if there was, i cant talk about it because its confidential.
June was a very busy month and the first few days of july is less tedious but tiring nonetheless. had my first and second court hearing last month. made some pleadings and motions and tried to meet the deadlines. had a bunch of appointments and did a lot of texting. i have two phones now and sometimes i get tired of reading them that i prioritize some text messages (the urgent ones) and the read the other ones at the end of the day and reply the following day if i suddenly find out that i have no more credits. the interesting part is (or the worst part is), things are bound to become more difficult.
so connecting it to the fast food part, its been a very tiring month and this july will not be much different. when you have so little time and so much to do, a little fast food would mean a lot. but since im a very unfortunate guy, im not surprised that the operator on the other end of the line would tell me that the delivery service is not available in our area at the moment when im really in the mood for a mcdonalds burger, because i wanted to eat something while watching a movie at home. and im the type of guy who hates settling for the next best thing. so i ended up not watching anything and relaxing in the form of sleep. what made sleep not comforting was my clogged nose because i have a cold. and when i have a cold, i have coughing fits. and usually, what makes me feel better is eating food im in the mood to eat. ok, what is a loop? point is, im a very unlucky bastard. when i want my fast food the most, i wont be surprised that i wont get it. well, conveniently get it. i have to make some extra effort. some would say, that would simply make the food a lot tastier. i would say, probably, but the thing is, the things that are supposed to make it easier and more convenient arent working the way they should be working and that sucks because im in the losing end no matter what. Soy un perdedor!
since i really wanted to eat a double cheeseburger deluxe "go big time" meal, i said to myself, i'll go there myself. the nearest branch is open 24 hours after all. so i walked to the matalino branch only to find out that they were closed for the night, starting 9pm on july 5. talk about wrong timing! and im not going to walk to philcoa. so i just went back home and decided to just call jollibee delivery. for me, it's the next best fast food restaurant when it comes to burgers. so i called up 87000 and i ended up ordering 2 big mac meals. good thing the guy at the other end didnt react much and just said to me that they dont serve the product and told me its equivalent. i meant to order their Champ but i was just so in the mood for a mcdonalds burger that i ended up saying Big Mac instead of Champ.
anyway, why am i blogging about this? well, its just nothing very eventful is happening lately. and if there was, i cant talk about it because its confidential.
June was a very busy month and the first few days of july is less tedious but tiring nonetheless. had my first and second court hearing last month. made some pleadings and motions and tried to meet the deadlines. had a bunch of appointments and did a lot of texting. i have two phones now and sometimes i get tired of reading them that i prioritize some text messages (the urgent ones) and the read the other ones at the end of the day and reply the following day if i suddenly find out that i have no more credits. the interesting part is (or the worst part is), things are bound to become more difficult.
so connecting it to the fast food part, its been a very tiring month and this july will not be much different. when you have so little time and so much to do, a little fast food would mean a lot. but since im a very unfortunate guy, im not surprised that the operator on the other end of the line would tell me that the delivery service is not available in our area at the moment when im really in the mood for a mcdonalds burger, because i wanted to eat something while watching a movie at home. and im the type of guy who hates settling for the next best thing. so i ended up not watching anything and relaxing in the form of sleep. what made sleep not comforting was my clogged nose because i have a cold. and when i have a cold, i have coughing fits. and usually, what makes me feel better is eating food im in the mood to eat. ok, what is a loop? point is, im a very unlucky bastard. when i want my fast food the most, i wont be surprised that i wont get it. well, conveniently get it. i have to make some extra effort. some would say, that would simply make the food a lot tastier. i would say, probably, but the thing is, the things that are supposed to make it easier and more convenient arent working the way they should be working and that sucks because im in the losing end no matter what. Soy un perdedor!
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