cellophane sunshine

dont you just hate it when its raining outside and youre about to go out, you get your jacket and your umbrella and after a few minutes of walking outside, the rain stops. its like, whats the point of getting ready to go out in the rain when after all those preparations, the rain wont cooperate. well, not that it happened to me recently, walking in a rainy day attire when its not raining. its just that im feeling something similar to that. you prepare yourself for what looks like a sad and depressing situation and it doesnt happen. the situtation that would bring sadness and depression doesnt materialize. so you get pissed, and become sad and depressed anyway because its like everything was spoiled with the sudden turn of events. or for things not happening according to what was expected. and what makes it problematic is that, like wearing the rainy day attire, once you set out and covered a considerable distance, you wont just head back home to leave your jacket and umbrella. you just keep going even if its a bit of hassle to bring an umbrella and a jacket on a day that looks like the sun will shine because the rainy part of the day is over. it becomes excess baggage. same to what im feeling now. i cant just drop all the anticipations ive made. and unlike in my analogy, the sun really isnt shining. it was just supposed to rain and that didnt happen. its doesnt follow that the sun's shining on me. its another one of those "now what?" situations because of miscalculations or erroneous assessment of situations. maybe i am suffering from some kind of mental retardation.