speak like a child

im very, very sick right now. i have a terrible cold with painful coughing fits (this coughing fit is different from the one i had during the bar exams, that coughing fit was stress related, like my rashes, and wasnt painful at all). whenever i catch a cold, its not really this bad. i rarely took any cold medicine (for any illness, i only take some form of medication as a last resort. if i can endure the pain or discomfort without taking any medication, i wont take any. and ive been said to have a high tolerance for pain. like my toothache a few months ago. i dont quickly resort to painkillers until i really cant stand it anymore). but for the past 2-3 years, it seems my colds are getting worse and its really bad right now that i cant avoid taking some cold medicine. and the cold medicine isnt helping!

this is why i dont like sharing a plate with someone. i think thats where i got the cold virus. i shared a plate with someone earlier this week. my mind was a bit tired from the last exam last week to be really alert for what appeared to be an insignificant instance of plate sharing. i should never break my established personal rules. i set them up for a reason and in case i forget the reason behind the rule, i should still just follow it.

anyway, i just found out that im still the type who easily gets excited especially when i find or get what i want (or receive a pleasant surprise). my face lights up or i clap with delight (or make that fist motion basketball players do when they sink a three pointer. just did that during the bar exams when i saw a question that involves a provision of law i studied right before i slept the night before. i just got too excited after reading the question that i wasnt able to contain myself. i dont think it bothered my seatmate because she just kept writing). i believe no one has ever seen me get excited over anything. i mean the type of excited where i really cant contain it. no one has seen me to be really happy except my cousin a few years back. since 1997 or 1998, ive always been a very reserved person and always try not to let my guard down when im in public. like my college friend said to me, i always keep my emotions in check. for some reason, ive conditioned myself to exhibit a lot of self-restraint when in public. public means outside the confines of my room.