its thursday already?

its been more than a month since the bar exams ended. and from the time it ended, ive went out with close friends, i got some temporary work where i attended a couple of hearings, did a handful of legal research work, joined a T-shirt making contest (where my design looked good on paper but when i drew it on the T-shirt, it looked like a grade school wall grafitti. my drawing style never evolved since i stopped drawing), trying to learn japanese (with a very slow progress. im just starting katakana after three weeks of hiragana. damn it! i should have taken my japanese class back in college seriously), finished two books (one law related book, another non-law related, about halfway done with a political science book and about to start another non-law related book), watched an "audrey hepburn movie" on a pirated DVD, lost a key (which is a big deal for me since i nicknamed myself as "the keymaster" back in high school because im always entrusted with the key/s to something. this is the first time i lost a key. but there have been instances where i got locked out because i forgot to bring my keys. thats different because i never really lost the keys, i just forgot it), gets a daily dose of SoShi, cutting down on pork and trying to drink sufficient amounts of water (because i can last a day with only half a glass of water and its not good for my health, especially given my height and size. i really need more fluids).

so October has been a productive month, with a good sense of direction. i managed to keep myself busy but not too busy. im starting to be mindful of my health because it seems there's a bigger chance that i will not die young. so if im going to go beyond the age i thought i would drop dead, i would like to be in good physical condition to still be able to eat meat (and other foods unhealthy people arent allowed to eat). and not have wrinkly skin too early (ever since college, i sometimes look at my palm and fingers, stare at it for a few minutes and think to myself how old my skin looks like). whenever i think of this, i remember my college blockmate who said to me that she thinks im a very vain person, that my scruffy look/"i dont care about my appearance" is either a front or actually my sense of style. well, i didnt admit it then but its really the latter. its a sense of style in a sense because i intentionally put an effort not to make an effort in the way i look. its time consuming and a waste energy. so if im going to go for an "i dont care about my appearance" look, might as well look good doing it (look good doing it means making sure i look i dont care). well, "staying in character" is something that comes naturally to me.

october will be over in a few days. i guess i wont be able to buy the Eheads greenwich promo. wasnt able to come up with enough money. well, i do have enough money but i dont have extra money to use it for the greenwich promo. im an eheads fan but there are some other more important things my money should buy. i guess i just dont want it enough. my sense of desire for most stuff is really weak. its either that or im just dont like putting much effort unless its extremely necessary.