i have a bad feeling about this

usually when i buy groceries, i do it systematically by covering each aisle. i dont have a list. i just look at the shelves and get what i need or want. i also have a budget. but i do the computation mentally. and it works out. i havent exceeded my grocery budget by more than P500 despite the lack of list of stuff to buy and by just grabbing food items from shelves. i just walk and grab stuff then compute. when i think im about to exceed my budget, i check which item needs to go. but like i said, i haven't really exceeded my budget to the point i need to return items.

anyway, i did something different a while ago. instead of the usual thing of walking at every aisle, i just allowed my feet to take me where it wanted to take me. to my suprise, i ended up at the aisle where the item i forgot to buy at the other supermarket was located. how nice. so i tried to do it again, i just kept walking without thinking and for the second time, i found the next item i was looking for. and these arent items i usually buy so i dont know where its located. i probably looked like an idiot because i was just walking around the supermarket without really looking at the stuff. i just absentmindedly walked around then stopped, then found out that the item i need to get is right in front of me.

i guess my Dirk Gently navigation skills are back. its a navigation skill that is gut based. you dont have to think that much. actually, you rely on your instinct. well, strictly speaking, if i remember correctly, the Dirk Gently navigation skill is following someone who appears to be going to the same place you are going. if that person isnt going to the same place you are going, youre simply bound to reach a place where you may not want to be, but where you need to be. in the end, it is not without purpose. you are exactly where you have to be. that is why i adopted the Dirk Gently navigation system

in a somewhat related note, thats what my deja vus are for. when i get that deja vu phenomenon, it assures me that i am where i am supposed to be. its like telling me that i havent deviated from the path i need to be in. lately, i havent had a deja vu. but then again, the universe has been silent for about a month and a half. last November, its signals were so strong that its really difficult for me to ignore it. then when December kicked in, its like i became deaf and blind because i couldnt sense anything from the universe. what the fuck?

anyway, i think im regaining my non-physical senses back. never lost my sense of foresight but its usually augmented by guts. and this past month, my guts had shit for brains.