i think i finally restored my normal appetite. this means im starting to eat a lot again. during the bar review, i eat only three times a day (the basic three meals) and in average or less than average quantities. maybe its weird but i really lose my appetite or forget to eat when im busy or when i have important stuff in my head. thats why i lost some weight recently.
now, i eat at least four times a day and i make sure i have at least one heavy meal each day (heavy meal means at least three servings of rice in one meal). but that doesnt mean im going to gain weight soon. it takes some time before i start gaining weight. maybe after three months. that is if im able to maintain my big appetite.
at work, my officemates are amazed with how much i can eat and not gain weight at all. most people would be envious (especially women) but its really frustrating because i easily lose weight and have difficulty gaining it back. it was only after college that i really started gaining weight. but then again, i would rather have this problem than the other way around.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
brain squeezed
managed to get myself some temporary legal research work while looking for a much longer employment. this cold is really getting in the way. i get mentally tired too quickly. i cough a lot. i cant taste my food (which is something new to me). people say that a person cant taste food when the person has a cold. this doesnt apply to me before. i can still taste food well even if i have a cold. its only now that i really cant taste it. or maybe its because of my whack tongue.
anyway, managed to get myself employed a week after the bar exams. its temporary but still its employment. sometimes i think im pushing myself too much (or the world is just too relaxed). maybe this is the reason why i still have a terrible cold and despite taking some meds, there's no sign of improvement.
so the moment i get my paycheck, im going to get me some good food (buffet!!!) and go to a really nice spa. or i could postpone it to some later date. its better to save some money first. depleted my funds to the point that im almost broke. im already using my emergency fund. the five month bar review plus the bar month cost me P40,000-P45,000. and that's already living cheaply (by the time august came, i had days where my planned budget was not more P25 so i will have enough money for september). good thing that i lose my appetite or forget to eat when i have a lot of stuff in my mind.
now that im working again, im going to gain back the weight i lost and start conditioning myself for my new year's resolution...a healthier lifestyle (something that ive been putting off for a couple of years now). i need to check if posted my new year's resolution for this year and see if i accomplished it.
crap. just remembered greenwich pizza's eheads promo. why does good stuff like this happen when im already unemployed and almost broke?! well, at least i still have almost a month to get it. the pretty counter girl from greenwich said its still up to October 31.
i havent eaten a domino's pizza for more or less a decade. and the only branch i know is already closed. well, it means greenwich then.
anyway, managed to get myself employed a week after the bar exams. its temporary but still its employment. sometimes i think im pushing myself too much (or the world is just too relaxed). maybe this is the reason why i still have a terrible cold and despite taking some meds, there's no sign of improvement.
so the moment i get my paycheck, im going to get me some good food (buffet!!!) and go to a really nice spa. or i could postpone it to some later date. its better to save some money first. depleted my funds to the point that im almost broke. im already using my emergency fund. the five month bar review plus the bar month cost me P40,000-P45,000. and that's already living cheaply (by the time august came, i had days where my planned budget was not more P25 so i will have enough money for september). good thing that i lose my appetite or forget to eat when i have a lot of stuff in my mind.
now that im working again, im going to gain back the weight i lost and start conditioning myself for my new year's resolution...a healthier lifestyle (something that ive been putting off for a couple of years now). i need to check if posted my new year's resolution for this year and see if i accomplished it.
crap. just remembered greenwich pizza's eheads promo. why does good stuff like this happen when im already unemployed and almost broke?! well, at least i still have almost a month to get it. the pretty counter girl from greenwich said its still up to October 31.
i havent eaten a domino's pizza for more or less a decade. and the only branch i know is already closed. well, it means greenwich then.
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
humans are scarier
i remember back in law school (wow, i can finally say this) i would walk the dark corridors alone at 10 pm or 11pm at the 3rd floor of malcolm hall. its almost pitch black since classes end at 9pm. i would go there to get some stuff inside my locker. what i dont get it is why i have such memories. there's supposed to be a gate at the 2nd floor that should be closed by that time preventing access to the 3rd floor. but i think there are exceptional days when some classes end up very late so that would explain how i managed to get to the 3rd floor. ive also experienced a couple of times walking alone at the academic oval around 1am. my cousin always asks me how i could do that because he finds it really scary to walk alone at such time inside UP. well, i simply dont see ghosts. and im not afraid of the dark. although there are times when i wake up in the middle of the night and see a white humanoid form sitting at the foot of my bed, i simply think of it as a nightmare since i always feel im half-awake during those moments. so its possible im still in a dream-like state. ive had some unexplainable experiences that are scary (like many years ago when i was about to fall asleep when suddenly some air like force pressed against my back and started hearing a man saying something in chinese. the voice was saying chinese sounding words and the sound of the voice was swirling around my head. it only lasted for a few seconds, more or less five seconds) but i dont let it get to me. thats why i can easily walk dark corridors alone even in such unholy hours.
i also remember back in college that i got addicted to sadako. i would just stare at the desktop wallpaper of sadako (the one where she is crawling out of the TV set with nails torn off her fingers) in the middle of the night and try to imagine her crawling out of the computer. aaah, my lovely sadako. she was my addiction before 50 first dates.
i also remember back in college that i got addicted to sadako. i would just stare at the desktop wallpaper of sadako (the one where she is crawling out of the TV set with nails torn off her fingers) in the middle of the night and try to imagine her crawling out of the computer. aaah, my lovely sadako. she was my addiction before 50 first dates.
Monday, October 04, 2010
dont you know its gonna be all right
when i was still working in an NGO, i attended a lot of workshops with participants coming from different parts of the country. in one workshop about what reforms our country needs, there was this person who keeps on insisting that there is a need for a cultural revolution. im not sure if this was his exact words but its something to this effect: that we need to re-establish our cultural values. i agree that there is a need for such kind of revolution but how do we do it? weve been successfully colonized and our mentality as a nation probably irreversibly altered.
im not sure what Filipino culture is except its a mix of a lot of cultures, both western and asian. there's such a thing as Filipino food, the hospitality trait, the bayanihan spirit, etc but its not really fixed in a coherent whole. we have so many languages. we have separatist movements. we have an imperial manila mentality for those in the NCR. Pacquiao is the embodiment of Filipino pride. nationalism came to the forefront through Francis M and his three stars and a sun (and the collezione Philippine archipelago shirts). the way i see it, we have a concept of the form of our culture but it doesnt have substance. its like we're lost and desperate so we grab on to anything we can be proud of. we have a sense of nationalism but the ties that bind us as a nation arent really strong. our sense of identity is weak and were a nation prone to having an identity crisis.
i think fixing the cultural problem that will give us a much stronger and definite sense of identity and pride will make our political, social and economic problems much easier to solve.
im not sure what Filipino culture is except its a mix of a lot of cultures, both western and asian. there's such a thing as Filipino food, the hospitality trait, the bayanihan spirit, etc but its not really fixed in a coherent whole. we have so many languages. we have separatist movements. we have an imperial manila mentality for those in the NCR. Pacquiao is the embodiment of Filipino pride. nationalism came to the forefront through Francis M and his three stars and a sun (and the collezione Philippine archipelago shirts). the way i see it, we have a concept of the form of our culture but it doesnt have substance. its like we're lost and desperate so we grab on to anything we can be proud of. we have a sense of nationalism but the ties that bind us as a nation arent really strong. our sense of identity is weak and were a nation prone to having an identity crisis.
i think fixing the cultural problem that will give us a much stronger and definite sense of identity and pride will make our political, social and economic problems much easier to solve.
pa...pine...pank...panku...panclarks! pancakes!
even if im still not feeling well, it didnt stop me from looking for work. so i woke up early to submit my resume again to another law office. and because i woke up early, i heard the discussion in a morning show that gave me something to react to. the topic was the literacy requirement for barangay officials. really? its still a debatable topic?
back in high school, i honestly thought that the literacy rate will constantly improve and we will reach 100% literacy within a decade. with technological developments, information is much more accessible and eventually less expensive. or less costly. point is, i thought back then that our country's literacy rate will quickly improve as time goes by because we can't possibly grow illiterate as years pass by. thats against the evolutionary nature of man. i guess im wrong. its not inherent in every individual to aspire to learn, or at least be literate. i mean, if one wants to run for public office, at least allot a portion of one's time and money to know the basics to be literate. good governance cant be solely based on good intentions alone. some basic intellectual competence is needed too. it doesnt have to be a college degree (or even a high school degree). the ability to read and write is sufficient. and running for public office is not a right, its a privilege as opposed to the right to vote. public office is not something that can be demanded as something one is entitled to.
some argue that leaders with good educational backgrounds have done nothing good and its better to have a leader with a pure heart and good intentions even if lacking the intellectual skills. thats missing the point. literacy is different from intellect. besides, not because leaders with good educational backgrounds are no good doesnt mean the solution is to favor illiterate or incompetent ones. i agree that there are instances where the heart matters much more than the mind but i dont think it applies in the field of governance. this doesnt mean that a country's leader must always be some kind of intellectual person. although the head of a state wields a lot power, governance does not emanate from one person alone. even in a dictatorship. there are always advisers, competent advisers, that are there that exercise considerable influence on how a country is governed. thats why i think governance is always an intellectual activity. and why literacy should be a minimum requirement for effective governance. i just saw some loopholes in my arguments but im too lazy to plug them. point is, the literacy requirement for public officers shouldnt be a debatable topic at this day and age.
back in high school, i honestly thought that the literacy rate will constantly improve and we will reach 100% literacy within a decade. with technological developments, information is much more accessible and eventually less expensive. or less costly. point is, i thought back then that our country's literacy rate will quickly improve as time goes by because we can't possibly grow illiterate as years pass by. thats against the evolutionary nature of man. i guess im wrong. its not inherent in every individual to aspire to learn, or at least be literate. i mean, if one wants to run for public office, at least allot a portion of one's time and money to know the basics to be literate. good governance cant be solely based on good intentions alone. some basic intellectual competence is needed too. it doesnt have to be a college degree (or even a high school degree). the ability to read and write is sufficient. and running for public office is not a right, its a privilege as opposed to the right to vote. public office is not something that can be demanded as something one is entitled to.
some argue that leaders with good educational backgrounds have done nothing good and its better to have a leader with a pure heart and good intentions even if lacking the intellectual skills. thats missing the point. literacy is different from intellect. besides, not because leaders with good educational backgrounds are no good doesnt mean the solution is to favor illiterate or incompetent ones. i agree that there are instances where the heart matters much more than the mind but i dont think it applies in the field of governance. this doesnt mean that a country's leader must always be some kind of intellectual person. although the head of a state wields a lot power, governance does not emanate from one person alone. even in a dictatorship. there are always advisers, competent advisers, that are there that exercise considerable influence on how a country is governed. thats why i think governance is always an intellectual activity. and why literacy should be a minimum requirement for effective governance. i just saw some loopholes in my arguments but im too lazy to plug them. point is, the literacy requirement for public officers shouldnt be a debatable topic at this day and age.
Sunday, October 03, 2010
things can get really boring sometimes
i make use of two ways of concealing the truth or hiding a secret. one is put it out in the open in a manner no one will notice it and the other is by hiding it behind another truth, the truth behind a truth.
with the former, just present it in an uninteresting form and mention it in passing that makes it appear to be a simple, insignificant comment (and also try to determine when the person is least attentive), couched in terms as if pulled from out of the blue. whenever i do this, no one really sees the meaning behind what i just stated (most dont remember and for some that remember, they dont really see its significance). and i do this because i really dont want to be burdened with secrets that arent worth holding on to. secrets, both my own and others, have accumulated over the years and i really need to choose which ones to keep.
as for hiding the truth behind another truth, this one can really get tricky. its simply making use of a truth to distract another person and not see the truth hidden behind such truth. i usually do this in written form since its easier to formulate it in such a manner but it can be done orally. the first truth must be convincing enough or satisfying enough that the person would not doubt it as to its completeness or truthfulness. the underlying truth will only manifest itself upon further inquiry (with the right set of questions). the purpose of the first truth therefore is to ensure that no further inquiries are made. also, this can only be done if there are two related truths, one confidential and the other not as confidential or not confidential at all. and if an information is really, really confidential, the second truth may be further hidden in a layer of half-truths. but the problem with half-truths (or half-lies) is that one has to take note of them so as not to produce inconsistencies. thats why its easier to just deal with a bunch of truths carefully crafted together than a handful of lies.
the reason i stated this is because ive been asked to put my trust in a person. i said i really dont trust anyone (not even myself. i know a lot of instances where i managed to pull a trick against myself. its insane but it happens). not that i dont find the person trustworthy since i know this person is one of the few persons i know who is willing to take a bullet for me (even if i havent been the person to do the same for that person). its just that there is such a creature known as negligence and that person can be prone to it. not until i learn that the person can conceal secrets other than by mere omission will i consider disclosing information to a person.
with the former, just present it in an uninteresting form and mention it in passing that makes it appear to be a simple, insignificant comment (and also try to determine when the person is least attentive), couched in terms as if pulled from out of the blue. whenever i do this, no one really sees the meaning behind what i just stated (most dont remember and for some that remember, they dont really see its significance). and i do this because i really dont want to be burdened with secrets that arent worth holding on to. secrets, both my own and others, have accumulated over the years and i really need to choose which ones to keep.
as for hiding the truth behind another truth, this one can really get tricky. its simply making use of a truth to distract another person and not see the truth hidden behind such truth. i usually do this in written form since its easier to formulate it in such a manner but it can be done orally. the first truth must be convincing enough or satisfying enough that the person would not doubt it as to its completeness or truthfulness. the underlying truth will only manifest itself upon further inquiry (with the right set of questions). the purpose of the first truth therefore is to ensure that no further inquiries are made. also, this can only be done if there are two related truths, one confidential and the other not as confidential or not confidential at all. and if an information is really, really confidential, the second truth may be further hidden in a layer of half-truths. but the problem with half-truths (or half-lies) is that one has to take note of them so as not to produce inconsistencies. thats why its easier to just deal with a bunch of truths carefully crafted together than a handful of lies.
the reason i stated this is because ive been asked to put my trust in a person. i said i really dont trust anyone (not even myself. i know a lot of instances where i managed to pull a trick against myself. its insane but it happens). not that i dont find the person trustworthy since i know this person is one of the few persons i know who is willing to take a bullet for me (even if i havent been the person to do the same for that person). its just that there is such a creature known as negligence and that person can be prone to it. not until i learn that the person can conceal secrets other than by mere omission will i consider disclosing information to a person.
Saturday, October 02, 2010
speak like a child
im very, very sick right now. i have a terrible cold with painful coughing fits (this coughing fit is different from the one i had during the bar exams, that coughing fit was stress related, like my rashes, and wasnt painful at all). whenever i catch a cold, its not really this bad. i rarely took any cold medicine (for any illness, i only take some form of medication as a last resort. if i can endure the pain or discomfort without taking any medication, i wont take any. and ive been said to have a high tolerance for pain. like my toothache a few months ago. i dont quickly resort to painkillers until i really cant stand it anymore). but for the past 2-3 years, it seems my colds are getting worse and its really bad right now that i cant avoid taking some cold medicine. and the cold medicine isnt helping!
this is why i dont like sharing a plate with someone. i think thats where i got the cold virus. i shared a plate with someone earlier this week. my mind was a bit tired from the last exam last week to be really alert for what appeared to be an insignificant instance of plate sharing. i should never break my established personal rules. i set them up for a reason and in case i forget the reason behind the rule, i should still just follow it.
anyway, i just found out that im still the type who easily gets excited especially when i find or get what i want (or receive a pleasant surprise). my face lights up or i clap with delight (or make that fist motion basketball players do when they sink a three pointer. just did that during the bar exams when i saw a question that involves a provision of law i studied right before i slept the night before. i just got too excited after reading the question that i wasnt able to contain myself. i dont think it bothered my seatmate because she just kept writing). i believe no one has ever seen me get excited over anything. i mean the type of excited where i really cant contain it. no one has seen me to be really happy except my cousin a few years back. since 1997 or 1998, ive always been a very reserved person and always try not to let my guard down when im in public. like my college friend said to me, i always keep my emotions in check. for some reason, ive conditioned myself to exhibit a lot of self-restraint when in public. public means outside the confines of my room.
this is why i dont like sharing a plate with someone. i think thats where i got the cold virus. i shared a plate with someone earlier this week. my mind was a bit tired from the last exam last week to be really alert for what appeared to be an insignificant instance of plate sharing. i should never break my established personal rules. i set them up for a reason and in case i forget the reason behind the rule, i should still just follow it.
anyway, i just found out that im still the type who easily gets excited especially when i find or get what i want (or receive a pleasant surprise). my face lights up or i clap with delight (or make that fist motion basketball players do when they sink a three pointer. just did that during the bar exams when i saw a question that involves a provision of law i studied right before i slept the night before. i just got too excited after reading the question that i wasnt able to contain myself. i dont think it bothered my seatmate because she just kept writing). i believe no one has ever seen me get excited over anything. i mean the type of excited where i really cant contain it. no one has seen me to be really happy except my cousin a few years back. since 1997 or 1998, ive always been a very reserved person and always try not to let my guard down when im in public. like my college friend said to me, i always keep my emotions in check. for some reason, ive conditioned myself to exhibit a lot of self-restraint when in public. public means outside the confines of my room.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
damn this world, where it only appreciates pretty people
"when i look at you, it feels im reading a comic book"
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
the day after yesterday
i think im one of the few examinees who didnt "fully" rest the day after the last bar exam and started doing something similar to looking for work. i havent officially started looking for work but i did spend a portion of the day after thinking and planning on how to look for work.
i guess im a workaholic of sorts. its not that im addicted to work but im addicted to managing to keep myself busy. its not that i dont rest but i see myself as someone who never stops "moving." besides, i did go out with an old friend yesterday so i think that counts as a form of rest.
i think my mind was demanding rest during the last day of the exam. while answering the last subject for the bar exam, my left hand and my mind was so tired that i forgot how to spell "respectfully" for a few minutes. i wrote "restpectfully". i looked at the word for a few seconds and said "that word doesnt look right. it looks longer than the way it should." it took me a few more seconds to figure out that the letter "t" before "res" shouldnt be there. so i wondered, was it just a forgotten spelling or my mind is demanding me to rest already right after the exam.
anyway, i was told that im supposed to feel something the day after the bar exams, when some realization is supposed to sink in. i didnt feel it. i guess im too busy with stuff. or maybe because i rarely live in the present. earlier this day, i compiled all the bar review materials i used, arranged and organized them and stored them neatly in some part of my room (about 5-6 feet of reading materials). i also took out a few books (non-law books) im going to read while waiting to be employed again (sorry eyes if there wont be a break from reading, but at least this time, the youtube breaks would be longer). i was also able to update my resume and make a cover letter, had it printed and reproduced. so today was a very productive day.
"wow, she ran like Usain Bolt!" - Pudding;
"Pudding is melting" - Jelly
"5, 4, 3, 2, 1...Bungee!!!"
i guess im a workaholic of sorts. its not that im addicted to work but im addicted to managing to keep myself busy. its not that i dont rest but i see myself as someone who never stops "moving." besides, i did go out with an old friend yesterday so i think that counts as a form of rest.
i think my mind was demanding rest during the last day of the exam. while answering the last subject for the bar exam, my left hand and my mind was so tired that i forgot how to spell "respectfully" for a few minutes. i wrote "restpectfully". i looked at the word for a few seconds and said "that word doesnt look right. it looks longer than the way it should." it took me a few more seconds to figure out that the letter "t" before "res" shouldnt be there. so i wondered, was it just a forgotten spelling or my mind is demanding me to rest already right after the exam.
anyway, i was told that im supposed to feel something the day after the bar exams, when some realization is supposed to sink in. i didnt feel it. i guess im too busy with stuff. or maybe because i rarely live in the present. earlier this day, i compiled all the bar review materials i used, arranged and organized them and stored them neatly in some part of my room (about 5-6 feet of reading materials). i also took out a few books (non-law books) im going to read while waiting to be employed again (sorry eyes if there wont be a break from reading, but at least this time, the youtube breaks would be longer). i was also able to update my resume and make a cover letter, had it printed and reproduced. so today was a very productive day.
"wow, she ran like Usain Bolt!" - Pudding;
"Pudding is melting" - Jelly
"5, 4, 3, 2, 1...Bungee!!!"
Monday, September 27, 2010
and now we wait
done with the bar exams. its a relief but not quite. there's still the mental torture of waiting for the results. its a period where one can't freely move because much as we want to move on, we can't because our future really depends on whether we pass the exam or not. if we pass, well and good. if not, there's the question of taking it immediately again or postpone it. if postpone to take the exams again for another year, what to do in the interim? its the time lost that makes this burden heavy.
when professors say that one must be prepared in mind, body and spirit for the exams, they werent kidding. during the first few weeks of the review classes, some got sick. i didnt because i already enrolled in a review program last year (although i have coughing fits, thats really because of stress. i went to the doctor to check if im sick, she said there's nothing remarkable about my lungs after seeing the xray. and thats a better assessment compared to when i was still in OLA. my coughing fits were much worse and painful). i got sick then, when i was reviewing in Arellano. so this year, i already have an idea on how to review. i already know my pace and my limits.
during the course of review and as the exam month gets nearer, with stressed minds and weakened physical state for some, the preparation becomes a test of spirit. doubt starts to meddle and muddle things up. come exam month, things just become more difficult. panic, if its hasnt manifested itself, starts to make its appearance. so its stress, doubt and panic. it wont go away for most examinees. thats why one of our professors said the bar exams is 50% confidence. if you have that, youre half-way prepared. the other 50% is the knowledge, whether stock or non-stock (wow, corporation law related humor of some sort), to back that confidence up. well, i had the 50% confidence so all i had to do was back that up. what i failed to consider is that with every bar sunday, that confidence depletes and i dont have a way to replenish it (this is why i think its better not to take the bar exams like a hermit, the way i did, unless one can be sure to stay mentally strong for the four sundays). the mental fatigue becomes an annoying stumbling block. the exam is now a test of mental endurance. youre tired, youre drained but you have to study for most of the week and squeeze your brain every sunday.
and now, i will update my resume and try to make a cover letter. but before that...
when professors say that one must be prepared in mind, body and spirit for the exams, they werent kidding. during the first few weeks of the review classes, some got sick. i didnt because i already enrolled in a review program last year (although i have coughing fits, thats really because of stress. i went to the doctor to check if im sick, she said there's nothing remarkable about my lungs after seeing the xray. and thats a better assessment compared to when i was still in OLA. my coughing fits were much worse and painful). i got sick then, when i was reviewing in Arellano. so this year, i already have an idea on how to review. i already know my pace and my limits.
during the course of review and as the exam month gets nearer, with stressed minds and weakened physical state for some, the preparation becomes a test of spirit. doubt starts to meddle and muddle things up. come exam month, things just become more difficult. panic, if its hasnt manifested itself, starts to make its appearance. so its stress, doubt and panic. it wont go away for most examinees. thats why one of our professors said the bar exams is 50% confidence. if you have that, youre half-way prepared. the other 50% is the knowledge, whether stock or non-stock (wow, corporation law related humor of some sort), to back that confidence up. well, i had the 50% confidence so all i had to do was back that up. what i failed to consider is that with every bar sunday, that confidence depletes and i dont have a way to replenish it (this is why i think its better not to take the bar exams like a hermit, the way i did, unless one can be sure to stay mentally strong for the four sundays). the mental fatigue becomes an annoying stumbling block. the exam is now a test of mental endurance. youre tired, youre drained but you have to study for most of the week and squeeze your brain every sunday.
and now, i will update my resume and try to make a cover letter. but before that...
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
give a guy a videocam...
and this is what he will shoot. he didnt even show what the girls were watching. well, if they were watching guys perform on stage, the guy shooting this vid made the right choice to use the space in his videocam's memory card to capture this instead. im assuming the one who shot this vid is a guy. or a lesbian. in any case, im not complaining.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
can i go smell her first?
the season of exposed skin is over! gone are the sundresses! sundresses! i wanna see a pretty girl. dibs! - uncle barney
sixth season, 1st episode! woohooo!
hot and awesome robin scherbatsky! woohoo!
hot lesbian kiss! woohoo!
sixth season, 1st episode! woohooo!
hot and awesome robin scherbatsky! woohoo!
hot lesbian kiss! woohoo!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
another tiring tuesday
just less than a week and the 2010 bar exams will be all over. lost 10 pounds in the process (process means from when the bar review started). by next week, i will be looking for employment...and doing errands and stuff that piled up since april (like my email).
first episode of How I Met Your Mother today, sixth season. i havent discovered a new anime series im going to follow.
just a few more days. all i have to do is keep myself sane until then.
i know a former blockmate would love to see these:
first episode of How I Met Your Mother today, sixth season. i havent discovered a new anime series im going to follow.
just a few more days. all i have to do is keep myself sane until then.
i know a former blockmate would love to see these:
Friday, September 17, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
the world is simple
this show is...ummm...very informative? im running out of stuff to watch. sometimes i wonder why we try to fill our heads with knowledge and complicate things when the rest of the world lives simply. then i ask myself, is it because of some sense of obligation or duty to mankind or something to that effect? or is it because to some people, a simple world is not enough (just remembered shirley manson). contentment will not be achieved with mere simplicity even if shallowness can be a much more enjoyable state of being.
if my old friend would hear this he would tell me that my problem is rooted on my cursed thirst for omniscience, which people usually mistake for some kind of deepness in thought when its really just greed and God complex. i miss that bastard. maybe we should do a show called "nuisance per se and nuisance per accidens: abate us if you can."
if my old friend would hear this he would tell me that my problem is rooted on my cursed thirst for omniscience, which people usually mistake for some kind of deepness in thought when its really just greed and God complex. i miss that bastard. maybe we should do a show called "nuisance per se and nuisance per accidens: abate us if you can."
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
3D hotties but not much 3D boobies
dropped by Fully Booked the other day. i decided to watch Resident Evil: Afterlife in digital 3D and had some time to kill (about 2 hours. i was 5 minutes late for the 1pm screening) before the start of the movie so i roamed inside the mall a bit. i ended up going to Fully Booked (i also ended up in Toy Kingdom but there's nothing really worth sharing there except the toys are expensive!). i said to myself, ive been reading books and staying in the library for months and im still interested in going inside a bookstore?
anyway, i looked at some graphic novels (which made me groan because of the price) then went to history and politics section. then i realized that the selection of books we have are mostly western and eurocentric. then i tried to recall the assigned readings when i was still a political science student. i think there was only one author that was asian (excluding Filipino authors. i think there might be an indian author but im not really sure), japanese to be more specific, and i cant even remember his name. all i know is that he wrote something about the waves of democratization. so i started looking for books that were not written in english or tagalog. found a few (written in spanish). then it made me wonder how much we are missing by not being able to read and understand other asian and western languages. i remember someone told me that the Das Kapital is a good read in its original version (which made we wonder about other books of german philosophers). i think im missing a lot of information by knowing only two languages (not sure if other people have the same sentiment). law professors sometimes say that some laws that we have that originated from spanish laws and that we adopted arent direct and exact translations of the original. some stuff are lost in translation. then i said to myself, after having the realization that language limits the information i can gain, that im just being greedy again, by wanting more information than what i could possibly have now (and i dont even try to master the information within my grasp! well, i do have the "jack of all trades, master of none" tendency). i ended up saying to myself that im going to learn at least six foreign languages and two local languages (i agree that what's spoken in the regions outside NCR arent dialects but languages). i think that would be enough to last a lifetime (i think its more than enough to keep me busy until i die). i continued talking to myself in my head, saying that's crazy talk and that i just want to learn new languages so i can watch the korean, japanese, chinese, german and french channels on cable TV. again, greedy tendency.
i should be focusing on the bar exams right now and not thinking about stuff that i could do after. but then again, during last sunday, minutes before the exam, i was already planning how im going to study for this week (i think i did that to distract myself so i wont get nervous). i just cant stop myself from planning ahead. i never live in the present. right now im planning how im going to take this sunday's exam in case i wake up tomorrow with dengue. at least im prepared...for stuff other than the exam itself!
anyway, i looked at some graphic novels (which made me groan because of the price) then went to history and politics section. then i realized that the selection of books we have are mostly western and eurocentric. then i tried to recall the assigned readings when i was still a political science student. i think there was only one author that was asian (excluding Filipino authors. i think there might be an indian author but im not really sure), japanese to be more specific, and i cant even remember his name. all i know is that he wrote something about the waves of democratization. so i started looking for books that were not written in english or tagalog. found a few (written in spanish). then it made me wonder how much we are missing by not being able to read and understand other asian and western languages. i remember someone told me that the Das Kapital is a good read in its original version (which made we wonder about other books of german philosophers). i think im missing a lot of information by knowing only two languages (not sure if other people have the same sentiment). law professors sometimes say that some laws that we have that originated from spanish laws and that we adopted arent direct and exact translations of the original. some stuff are lost in translation. then i said to myself, after having the realization that language limits the information i can gain, that im just being greedy again, by wanting more information than what i could possibly have now (and i dont even try to master the information within my grasp! well, i do have the "jack of all trades, master of none" tendency). i ended up saying to myself that im going to learn at least six foreign languages and two local languages (i agree that what's spoken in the regions outside NCR arent dialects but languages). i think that would be enough to last a lifetime (i think its more than enough to keep me busy until i die). i continued talking to myself in my head, saying that's crazy talk and that i just want to learn new languages so i can watch the korean, japanese, chinese, german and french channels on cable TV. again, greedy tendency.
i should be focusing on the bar exams right now and not thinking about stuff that i could do after. but then again, during last sunday, minutes before the exam, i was already planning how im going to study for this week (i think i did that to distract myself so i wont get nervous). i just cant stop myself from planning ahead. i never live in the present. right now im planning how im going to take this sunday's exam in case i wake up tomorrow with dengue. at least im prepared...for stuff other than the exam itself!
Monday, September 13, 2010
half awake, reading the online news
im in favor of raising the MRT/LRT fare. i know its "anti-poor" but i think its time for the government to start thinking of other ways of improving mass transport aside from mere subsidy. abandon the "no wang wang" gimmick. it sends a message "lets all suffer traffic jams together." the government should think of ways of decongesting these roads and improving mass transport with alternative, efficient and affordable means. the railway transits are safe, efficient and affordable but its not convenient. some would say, minimum wage earners dont mind it. not because they dont mind the inconvenience doesnt mean it should stay that way. just rode it yesterday and i had three bags with me including a laptop. i had to wait for half an hour (for each railway transit) to get a train where i could fit. i cant afford a taxi, a jeepney is more inconvenient and a bus is not accessible from where i came from. i was too drained because of the bar exam and the lightway transits are the best mass transport i can avail of and its the best the government can offer. i usually dont mind the inconvenience but its been like this for so long and no signs of improvement. i hate it when things that should change never changes.
right now i cant think of any idea to solve this mass transport problem (maybe on my next railway transit commute i will invest some brain power to try to think of solutions). the fare hike is oppressive but i dont think its unreasonable. but the fact that its oppressive is good enough reason not to raise it. but if you dont raise the fares, things wont improve because the government wouldnt do anything else but keep on subsidizing it.
nowadays, going from point A to point B, whether by way of mass transport or private vehicle are both inconvenient. for private vehicles, there's limited parking and gas prices. we have too many vehicles on the road, public and private. we have too many people too. were overpopulated. so the problem is overpopulation? not necessarily. if everybody had a consideration and responsibility gland, our problems wouldnt be this bad. unfortunately, there's no such thing. everyone lives in the present, fails to consider the future and rarely learns from the past.
right now i cant think of any idea to solve this mass transport problem (maybe on my next railway transit commute i will invest some brain power to try to think of solutions). the fare hike is oppressive but i dont think its unreasonable. but the fact that its oppressive is good enough reason not to raise it. but if you dont raise the fares, things wont improve because the government wouldnt do anything else but keep on subsidizing it.
nowadays, going from point A to point B, whether by way of mass transport or private vehicle are both inconvenient. for private vehicles, there's limited parking and gas prices. we have too many vehicles on the road, public and private. we have too many people too. were overpopulated. so the problem is overpopulation? not necessarily. if everybody had a consideration and responsibility gland, our problems wouldnt be this bad. unfortunately, there's no such thing. everyone lives in the present, fails to consider the future and rarely learns from the past.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
what the?
where's the imax version of Resident Evil: Afterlife? i dropped by SM North a while ago to check the movie schedule of Resident Evil: Afterlife and its not showing in their IMAX theater! they're showing Avatar instead. why the crap are they showing Avatar!?! i dont want Resident Evil:Afterlife in Digital 3D, i want to watch it in an IMAX theater!!! the movies scheduled in IMAX MOA are also a bunch of crap.
i was actually looking forward to mid-September because i thought i could go see Resident Evil in IMAX 3D. what am i supposed to look forward to now? Youtube has now become a habit so i cant really say there's something to look forward there. it has become as common as eating rice. well, there's the new season of How I Met Your Mother but i think thats due by the end of September. i will just probably go eat in a nice restaurant tomorrow and get me some good food. then i hit the books.
i was actually looking forward to mid-September because i thought i could go see Resident Evil in IMAX 3D. what am i supposed to look forward to now? Youtube has now become a habit so i cant really say there's something to look forward there. it has become as common as eating rice. well, there's the new season of How I Met Your Mother but i think thats due by the end of September. i will just probably go eat in a nice restaurant tomorrow and get me some good food. then i hit the books.
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