just had an interview a few hours ago. it was a nice law firm. it wasnt as intimidating as i initially thought (as usual, my standards are different from actual standards of most people. if i conducted the interview, i would have done it like a "terror" professor, setting a very uncomfortable atmosphere). unfortunately, i didnt bring my A game. actually, i havent brought it for quite some time now (wait, i have an A game? i thought it was against my religion to excel at anything?). when i was riding the bus, heading home after the interview, i was analyzing my interview and how i could have done much better (i should have said this, clarified that, elaborated this, mentioned that, etc).
i left early from my current law office so i could attend the interview for this law firm. i finished the legal research that was assigned to me earlier before leaving. right after i gave the research file to the secretary, i started walking home so i could change to a formal attire for the interview. i reached the law firm 20 minutes before my scheduled time. i have no idea where the law firm is located except its near the Solicitor General's office and i merely estimated the travel time. i thought i was going to be late because i didnt expect that there were only a few passengers at the jeepney terminal around 4:30pm. my interview is scheduled at 5pm. fortunately, the driver didnt wait for his jeep to be filled up. he left the terminal with only five passengers. then the first building i checked for its name was the building of the firm. i just walked a few meters from the solgen's building, checked the name of the building from my PDA and when i randomly stopped in front of a building to check its name, it was already the building i was looking for (my good navigation skill is partially dependent on luck/dirk gently's style of navigation, partially dependent on how well im good at picturing a place from a bird's eye view/wikimapia). so i went in and when i saw the receptionist, i was a bit amused because she was exactly how i pictured her (only half a decade younger. but her face is exactly the same. but the haircut is a bit different). well, that is, if she was the one that called me up regarding the interview (i tried to match a face with the voice while she was telling me about my interview schedule over the phone). if she wasnt the one that called me up, well, she was what i imagined to be sitting at the reception desk of this law firm. so is it a sign im going to get hired here? nah. im just psychic (like the time i was able to imagine how a friend's place would look like).
i was interviewed by three partners of the firm and i didnt bring my A game. i was more focused on not stuttering. i stutter a lot, especially when i have lots of stuff in my mind or have overlapping thoughts. thats why i tell myself im more effective in speaking when im tired. when im tired, my "i dont care, i'll say what i want" self comes to the forefront. im too tired to screen thoughts and words im going to use (im always careful with what i say. thats why a friend tells me that its always a question of semantics when he talks with me. imprecise wordings or vague phrases creates loopholes). unfortunately, its also my most uninhibited self, obviously. so it means i would frown a lot and give an expression that a long conversation is becoming bothersome (or that im getting bored already). but at least i dont stutter and im much more persuasive because my manner of speaking becomes more aggressive and forceful. i dont think thats good in an interview. well anyway, my A game is the midpoint of the two extremes, my stuttering self and the aggressive speaker self. the last time i brought it was half a decade ago. it comes with good theatrics for emphasis. now, i just go to interviews. i sit there and answer questions. i take my time to think and i think im also mindful of not frowning. i really should prepare more. im charging too much to experience that its already an excuse to come unprepared.
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