boring!

im really, really, really, really, really bored. and im tired of trying to amuse myself. and im tired of doing the same old stuff that never works and always ends up in disappointment. life never lets me have the type of fun i want. hey october, can you bring me something fun and interesting? last time i had fun was...3 to 4 years ago. now im just trying to keep myself occupied so i wont notice the boredom. i dont know how much longer i can try not to notice how boring things have become. even if ive been meeting a lot of people lately, everyone is just average.