Not sure if I remember correctly but I think Douglas Adams once said that he finds stuff to write from songs. I havent written anything worth reading for months. My recent posts are just stupid rants (which helps me unload stuff from my mind). And the one below is no different from my recent posts.
I feel drunk but I'm sober. I feel dizzy from time to time making me think there's something wrong with me. and when I see beer, I don’t feel like I want to drink it. I might be developing some kind of repulsion toward alcohol.
I'm young and I'm underpaid. Can't complain. it is my first employment after all and the nature of the job isnt really my area of expertise. And the workplace has a nice working environment so I don’t mind. And I think Im still young even if im already 25 but when I give it some more thought, 26 doesn’t sound so young. Then declaring oneself to be 27 feels like you should have more or less some good grasp where you are in society (like a status check) and by 28, you should already have a good idea about what you are doing, where you are going and when things will happen in one's life in relation to one's future. the whys and hows of life in relation to society come around 29 to 30.
I'm tired but I'm working. there's just some work that needs to be done and deadlines to meet. Im thinking of using my compensatory leaves to clean up my room and do some reviewing. Its too early to do some christmas window shopping.
I care but I'm worthless. I think its more of I care but its pointless. If its pointless because it wont change anything then im worthless.
I'm here but I'm really gone. My mind is always somewhere else. That’s why I had a fender bender last month. That’s why I keep forgetting and losing stuff.
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby. That’s the most I can do. Say sorry. after that I move forward. Its rare for me to try to go back and correct my mistake.
i miss alanis morissette.
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