i was right that i wont like september

im tired of being right. well, i mean of being able to see things ahead. and not being proven wrong.

a few weeks ago, maybe a month or two, i noticed someone whom i dont know personally but i felt that she is someone i should take note of. why? because i knew it was only a matter of time before i come across this person. well, i was right. whats the significance? not clear. maybe it has no significance at all. it just so happens that i knew weeks ahead that i will encounter this person in the future. and im wondering if she is as aware as i am of such probable encounter.

another example is as early as 2005, i knew that im going to face the problem that im having right now. it was somewhat obvious to me then that this problem will arise but other people didnt see it. so i listened to them instead just to see whether i was wrong. well, they were wrong.

of course, im not right 100% of the time but usually i get to "see" whats about to happen, where things are heading. and that worries me sometimes. because the things im seeing arent really things to look forward to. thats why im not really that excited about each day. it brings me closer to days i hope i wont live long enough to see. i guess im just not done paying for the sins ive committed so i have to live and endure those days im afraid to have.

right now, i really hope im wrong that there's something wrong with my eyesight.