fall out boy

i was asked recently about what's up with the falling out with this particular person. she asked me why it happened. i was surprised because i wasnt expecting to be asked about it. the question somehow came out of nowhere. although i should have expected the question because its a logical question from the conversation we were having, i guess i wasnt really thinking about it anymore. thats why i was surprised to be asked on it. i just said its my fault or i should have made a clearer reply that its my own doing. it didnt really answer her question but at least i was admitting im the one to blame why it happened. i have my reasons and i dont feel like telling it to her because i really dont feel like explaining my reasons. why bother. its not like its going to change anything. im not saying that im happy with what happened but at least im finding some kind of peace. and sometimes thats good enough.

i then asked her, what made her think theres some falling out? this is what i should have asked after she asked me. i usually answer with a question when asked about stuff like these but since i wasnt expecting it, i admitted quickly without even realizing that she might just be fishing for answers. she answered, she just noticed (what!!!) well, there's no point thinking whether i believe her or not. i already admitted that it happened and its my own doing. besides, i think she's the only one who's wondering about it anyway. other people will never notice or just dont care. and i saw the particular person minutes later and she looked happy. so whats the point of knowing the answer to her question when obviously, it doesnt matter to both of us anymore. she's happy and im finding some form of contentment (im starting to hate the word but thats the word for it. contentment).