i wish i never grew up

dont we wish this sometimes? that if only it were possible not to become an adult? to be an adult kinda sucks because you have to put up with all the shit this world will throw at you and deal with it as maturely as you can.

the reason for this entry is because i went to caloocan last week, twice. well, more of thrice because of the august thing. went there once tuesday and twice on friday. the reason i went to caloocan twice was because i forgot my school ID with the guard at the building where the trial courts are located. i found out that i left my ID when i reached home (QC. good thing i dont live in Montalban. not yet) and was in my room looking for my pen in my bag. thats when i realized that my ID isnt in my bag pocket and i remembered its with the guard in caloocan. and i need my ID because i didnt detach it from my ID lace and my locker keys are attached to it. usually, i remove my ID from the ID lace but for some reason, i didnt do that in that particular instance. and normally, i dont forget to claim my ID too. so i said to myself, this is going to be a wonderful day. fortunately, thats the worst thing that happened that day. spent more than a 100 bucks just to commute from caloocan to QC to caloocan to QC again...in four hours.

anyway, the trip to caloocan reminded me that once upon a time i was a kid. this is the city where my family first lived when i was born. i think until i was four or maybe younger (since i started going to school at four). point is, while walking the streets of caloocan, even if it looks "depressed", i remembered that this was the place where i spent my early childhood years. it still feels like home even if i really dont remember much about it. i felt that even if the place looks dangerous and kind of depressing, i would still have lived happily here...if i was a kid. to a kid, the surroundings wont matter much. a kid easily appreciates stuff. or at least i did when i was a kid. all i needed back then was my imagination and im all set to enjoy the day. i dont know what happened or why it happened but now, ive become a person thats hard to please. thats why i wish i never grew up, and never learned how harsh reality is or how cruel life can be so i could easily appreciate life and enjoy every minute of it. to not be affected with what i see, with what surrounds me. just looking around, you see how hard life is for everybody. except for kids. or some of them at least.

i see those street kids, selling stuff, or cleaning shoes or begging for loose change. even if they are made to realize how harsh life is at an early age, they still manage to smile, even laugh. they can still enjoy life despite the hardships that they are going through. as one grows older, it seems to me, life just becomes more depressing. life becomes harder to enjoy.

i dont know where im heading with this entry. i think im just procrastinating because im really struggling with the take home exam i need to finish by tuesday. you dont get burdened with stuff like these when youre a kid.