another unfortunate day. i gues im not really that unfortunate. shit happens after all. maybe august is that month of the year where i become an ordinary or average person subject to average forces of chance or luck. its like im naturally lucky for 11 months (is it because of jupiter?) and august is that only month where i become not so lucky.
like today, i rode a jeep this morning, like i always do but the difference is, the jeep had engine problems which made me late for 10 minutes. not bad but commuting is a science for me so i sometimes reach my destination like clockwork, and most of the time, theres a plus/minus 5 minutes from the time i intend to arrive because i take into consideration ordinarily foreseeable circumstances (like not getting a ride immediately). so if things dont go as expected, it destroys the routine (and sometimes everything else thats set for the day. thats why im not a fan of making plans). although its really possible that the jeep might have engine problems, it happens very rarely to me. and even if it happens, it does not make me late (because i dont recall an instance where i had an excuse that the jeepney i was riding had engine problems). and that happening in august is no big surprise.
then during OLA duty, i unfortunately decided to answer a few phone calls when we were already supposed to have a case conference. not having the presence of mind to do phone duty since im not a phone person to begin with (and also, i have poor hearing, so im not really good with phone conversations), i failed to answer the phone properly, meaning i should say "Hello! UP Office of Legal Aid" and not just a simple "hello!". what made it unfortunate was that the person at the other end of the line was our OLA Director. she noted that i should answer the phone properly. i normally do answer the phone specifiying its the UP Office of Legal Aid. it just so happens that there are instances i forget to answer it properly when im not the one on phone duty. like the instance earlier. so its a bit of a bad impression for our thursday morning team. i just have the tendency to make minor screw ups from time to time and again, its no surprise that i screw things up in august.
then before that i learned that i have a pre-trial set for next week. what the? next week! i have a midterm exam that will be emailed tomorrow due next week which could only mean, its going to be difficult. im going to accompany a client to serve a writ of execution tomorrow (caloocan to novaliches) which will force me to incur an absence since its physically impossible for me to attend the class. and i have another thing to do for a subject, also tomorrow. and i have a lot of stuff to read for a couple of subjects. sure i can prepare the pleadings for pretrial in the next few days but what irritates me is that its my fault that i dont have much time for it. had i made the phone call yesterday, and learned about it yesterday, i would have more time because i wasnt doing anything much yesterday. aside from getting scolded at by the judge and doing the puboff presentation and attending class, i wasnt very busy yesterday. i dont know why i failed to make the phone call to the court yesterday. and i still need to make a couple more phone calls. now im wondering what surpsrise im going to get.
also i just committed to stuff that exposes me to considerably heavy responsibility. my timing couldnt have been better. of all the months, i chose august to take responsibilities where there's a big chance of me screwing things up. im not thinking that im going to screw it up because im trying to actually do it properly. the thing is, i wont be surprised if i screw it up despite the efforts ive made. i would also like to blame august why i ended up taking the responsibilities in the first place because it was offered this month but i had a choice. whether its good or bad still remains to be seen. although, its leaning towards "bad" already. or its just the way i see it.
there are a couple of minor unfortunate stuff that happened today. nothing peculiar like the two incidents above. just small irritating and annoying crap which are avoidable or could have been prevented but i wasnt able to, and if added all together makes today, a bad day. not a really bad day but i guess when august kicks in, im subjected to the ordinary forces of luck that a common person encounters in his or her daily life. either im just used to be being lucky and august just takes away what comes naturally, or im just convincing myself that what im experiencing right now is what most people deal with in their daily life and i only deal with it once in a year within one full month. either way, things arent going well for me.
and i hope my theory is incorrect that my unfortunate month is divided into weeks, two weeks in august and two weeks in october. because there was a time when only half of august was bad. and the worst half came in october. anyway, it doesnt look that way since even if august is halfway over, it appears to me that things are bound to get harder in the next two weeks. not a hunch. its based from stuff that are happening now. if my supervising lawyer's joke has some grain of truth in it, that i have the gift of foresight (which was mentioned in an entirely different context, im just relating it to this entry), then im going to be exposed to extremely stressful shit in the next two weeks.
and my head is aching right now, and for some reason i have a clogged nose even if i dont have a cold. its not the kind of clogged nose you have when one has a cold. i hope its just some temporary thing or some allergic reaction. because if it means im going to be sick, and i cant afford to be sick in the next few weeks, then i dont want to imagine how things could possibly be worse.
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