i make use of two ways of concealing the truth or hiding a secret. one is put it out in the open in a manner no one will notice it and the other is by hiding it behind another truth, the truth behind a truth.
with the former, just present it in an uninteresting form and mention it in passing that makes it appear to be a simple, insignificant comment (and also try to determine when the person is least attentive), couched in terms as if pulled from out of the blue. whenever i do this, no one really sees the meaning behind what i just stated (most dont remember and for some that remember, they dont really see its significance). and i do this because i really dont want to be burdened with secrets that arent worth holding on to. secrets, both my own and others, have accumulated over the years and i really need to choose which ones to keep.
as for hiding the truth behind another truth, this one can really get tricky. its simply making use of a truth to distract another person and not see the truth hidden behind such truth. i usually do this in written form since its easier to formulate it in such a manner but it can be done orally. the first truth must be convincing enough or satisfying enough that the person would not doubt it as to its completeness or truthfulness. the underlying truth will only manifest itself upon further inquiry (with the right set of questions). the purpose of the first truth therefore is to ensure that no further inquiries are made. also, this can only be done if there are two related truths, one confidential and the other not as confidential or not confidential at all. and if an information is really, really confidential, the second truth may be further hidden in a layer of half-truths. but the problem with half-truths (or half-lies) is that one has to take note of them so as not to produce inconsistencies. thats why its easier to just deal with a bunch of truths carefully crafted together than a handful of lies.
the reason i stated this is because ive been asked to put my trust in a person. i said i really dont trust anyone (not even myself. i know a lot of instances where i managed to pull a trick against myself. its insane but it happens). not that i dont find the person trustworthy since i know this person is one of the few persons i know who is willing to take a bullet for me (even if i havent been the person to do the same for that person). its just that there is such a creature known as negligence and that person can be prone to it. not until i learn that the person can conceal secrets other than by mere omission will i consider disclosing information to a person.
Sunday, October 03, 2010
Saturday, October 02, 2010
speak like a child
im very, very sick right now. i have a terrible cold with painful coughing fits (this coughing fit is different from the one i had during the bar exams, that coughing fit was stress related, like my rashes, and wasnt painful at all). whenever i catch a cold, its not really this bad. i rarely took any cold medicine (for any illness, i only take some form of medication as a last resort. if i can endure the pain or discomfort without taking any medication, i wont take any. and ive been said to have a high tolerance for pain. like my toothache a few months ago. i dont quickly resort to painkillers until i really cant stand it anymore). but for the past 2-3 years, it seems my colds are getting worse and its really bad right now that i cant avoid taking some cold medicine. and the cold medicine isnt helping!
this is why i dont like sharing a plate with someone. i think thats where i got the cold virus. i shared a plate with someone earlier this week. my mind was a bit tired from the last exam last week to be really alert for what appeared to be an insignificant instance of plate sharing. i should never break my established personal rules. i set them up for a reason and in case i forget the reason behind the rule, i should still just follow it.
anyway, i just found out that im still the type who easily gets excited especially when i find or get what i want (or receive a pleasant surprise). my face lights up or i clap with delight (or make that fist motion basketball players do when they sink a three pointer. just did that during the bar exams when i saw a question that involves a provision of law i studied right before i slept the night before. i just got too excited after reading the question that i wasnt able to contain myself. i dont think it bothered my seatmate because she just kept writing). i believe no one has ever seen me get excited over anything. i mean the type of excited where i really cant contain it. no one has seen me to be really happy except my cousin a few years back. since 1997 or 1998, ive always been a very reserved person and always try not to let my guard down when im in public. like my college friend said to me, i always keep my emotions in check. for some reason, ive conditioned myself to exhibit a lot of self-restraint when in public. public means outside the confines of my room.
this is why i dont like sharing a plate with someone. i think thats where i got the cold virus. i shared a plate with someone earlier this week. my mind was a bit tired from the last exam last week to be really alert for what appeared to be an insignificant instance of plate sharing. i should never break my established personal rules. i set them up for a reason and in case i forget the reason behind the rule, i should still just follow it.
anyway, i just found out that im still the type who easily gets excited especially when i find or get what i want (or receive a pleasant surprise). my face lights up or i clap with delight (or make that fist motion basketball players do when they sink a three pointer. just did that during the bar exams when i saw a question that involves a provision of law i studied right before i slept the night before. i just got too excited after reading the question that i wasnt able to contain myself. i dont think it bothered my seatmate because she just kept writing). i believe no one has ever seen me get excited over anything. i mean the type of excited where i really cant contain it. no one has seen me to be really happy except my cousin a few years back. since 1997 or 1998, ive always been a very reserved person and always try not to let my guard down when im in public. like my college friend said to me, i always keep my emotions in check. for some reason, ive conditioned myself to exhibit a lot of self-restraint when in public. public means outside the confines of my room.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
damn this world, where it only appreciates pretty people
"when i look at you, it feels im reading a comic book"
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
the day after yesterday
i think im one of the few examinees who didnt "fully" rest the day after the last bar exam and started doing something similar to looking for work. i havent officially started looking for work but i did spend a portion of the day after thinking and planning on how to look for work.
i guess im a workaholic of sorts. its not that im addicted to work but im addicted to managing to keep myself busy. its not that i dont rest but i see myself as someone who never stops "moving." besides, i did go out with an old friend yesterday so i think that counts as a form of rest.
i think my mind was demanding rest during the last day of the exam. while answering the last subject for the bar exam, my left hand and my mind was so tired that i forgot how to spell "respectfully" for a few minutes. i wrote "restpectfully". i looked at the word for a few seconds and said "that word doesnt look right. it looks longer than the way it should." it took me a few more seconds to figure out that the letter "t" before "res" shouldnt be there. so i wondered, was it just a forgotten spelling or my mind is demanding me to rest already right after the exam.
anyway, i was told that im supposed to feel something the day after the bar exams, when some realization is supposed to sink in. i didnt feel it. i guess im too busy with stuff. or maybe because i rarely live in the present. earlier this day, i compiled all the bar review materials i used, arranged and organized them and stored them neatly in some part of my room (about 5-6 feet of reading materials). i also took out a few books (non-law books) im going to read while waiting to be employed again (sorry eyes if there wont be a break from reading, but at least this time, the youtube breaks would be longer). i was also able to update my resume and make a cover letter, had it printed and reproduced. so today was a very productive day.
"wow, she ran like Usain Bolt!" - Pudding;
"Pudding is melting" - Jelly
"5, 4, 3, 2, 1...Bungee!!!"
i guess im a workaholic of sorts. its not that im addicted to work but im addicted to managing to keep myself busy. its not that i dont rest but i see myself as someone who never stops "moving." besides, i did go out with an old friend yesterday so i think that counts as a form of rest.
i think my mind was demanding rest during the last day of the exam. while answering the last subject for the bar exam, my left hand and my mind was so tired that i forgot how to spell "respectfully" for a few minutes. i wrote "restpectfully". i looked at the word for a few seconds and said "that word doesnt look right. it looks longer than the way it should." it took me a few more seconds to figure out that the letter "t" before "res" shouldnt be there. so i wondered, was it just a forgotten spelling or my mind is demanding me to rest already right after the exam.
anyway, i was told that im supposed to feel something the day after the bar exams, when some realization is supposed to sink in. i didnt feel it. i guess im too busy with stuff. or maybe because i rarely live in the present. earlier this day, i compiled all the bar review materials i used, arranged and organized them and stored them neatly in some part of my room (about 5-6 feet of reading materials). i also took out a few books (non-law books) im going to read while waiting to be employed again (sorry eyes if there wont be a break from reading, but at least this time, the youtube breaks would be longer). i was also able to update my resume and make a cover letter, had it printed and reproduced. so today was a very productive day.
"wow, she ran like Usain Bolt!" - Pudding;
"Pudding is melting" - Jelly
"5, 4, 3, 2, 1...Bungee!!!"
Monday, September 27, 2010
and now we wait
done with the bar exams. its a relief but not quite. there's still the mental torture of waiting for the results. its a period where one can't freely move because much as we want to move on, we can't because our future really depends on whether we pass the exam or not. if we pass, well and good. if not, there's the question of taking it immediately again or postpone it. if postpone to take the exams again for another year, what to do in the interim? its the time lost that makes this burden heavy.
when professors say that one must be prepared in mind, body and spirit for the exams, they werent kidding. during the first few weeks of the review classes, some got sick. i didnt because i already enrolled in a review program last year (although i have coughing fits, thats really because of stress. i went to the doctor to check if im sick, she said there's nothing remarkable about my lungs after seeing the xray. and thats a better assessment compared to when i was still in OLA. my coughing fits were much worse and painful). i got sick then, when i was reviewing in Arellano. so this year, i already have an idea on how to review. i already know my pace and my limits.
during the course of review and as the exam month gets nearer, with stressed minds and weakened physical state for some, the preparation becomes a test of spirit. doubt starts to meddle and muddle things up. come exam month, things just become more difficult. panic, if its hasnt manifested itself, starts to make its appearance. so its stress, doubt and panic. it wont go away for most examinees. thats why one of our professors said the bar exams is 50% confidence. if you have that, youre half-way prepared. the other 50% is the knowledge, whether stock or non-stock (wow, corporation law related humor of some sort), to back that confidence up. well, i had the 50% confidence so all i had to do was back that up. what i failed to consider is that with every bar sunday, that confidence depletes and i dont have a way to replenish it (this is why i think its better not to take the bar exams like a hermit, the way i did, unless one can be sure to stay mentally strong for the four sundays). the mental fatigue becomes an annoying stumbling block. the exam is now a test of mental endurance. youre tired, youre drained but you have to study for most of the week and squeeze your brain every sunday.
and now, i will update my resume and try to make a cover letter. but before that...
when professors say that one must be prepared in mind, body and spirit for the exams, they werent kidding. during the first few weeks of the review classes, some got sick. i didnt because i already enrolled in a review program last year (although i have coughing fits, thats really because of stress. i went to the doctor to check if im sick, she said there's nothing remarkable about my lungs after seeing the xray. and thats a better assessment compared to when i was still in OLA. my coughing fits were much worse and painful). i got sick then, when i was reviewing in Arellano. so this year, i already have an idea on how to review. i already know my pace and my limits.
during the course of review and as the exam month gets nearer, with stressed minds and weakened physical state for some, the preparation becomes a test of spirit. doubt starts to meddle and muddle things up. come exam month, things just become more difficult. panic, if its hasnt manifested itself, starts to make its appearance. so its stress, doubt and panic. it wont go away for most examinees. thats why one of our professors said the bar exams is 50% confidence. if you have that, youre half-way prepared. the other 50% is the knowledge, whether stock or non-stock (wow, corporation law related humor of some sort), to back that confidence up. well, i had the 50% confidence so all i had to do was back that up. what i failed to consider is that with every bar sunday, that confidence depletes and i dont have a way to replenish it (this is why i think its better not to take the bar exams like a hermit, the way i did, unless one can be sure to stay mentally strong for the four sundays). the mental fatigue becomes an annoying stumbling block. the exam is now a test of mental endurance. youre tired, youre drained but you have to study for most of the week and squeeze your brain every sunday.
and now, i will update my resume and try to make a cover letter. but before that...
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
give a guy a videocam...
and this is what he will shoot. he didnt even show what the girls were watching. well, if they were watching guys perform on stage, the guy shooting this vid made the right choice to use the space in his videocam's memory card to capture this instead. im assuming the one who shot this vid is a guy. or a lesbian. in any case, im not complaining.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
can i go smell her first?
the season of exposed skin is over! gone are the sundresses! sundresses! i wanna see a pretty girl. dibs! - uncle barney
sixth season, 1st episode! woohooo!
hot and awesome robin scherbatsky! woohoo!
hot lesbian kiss! woohoo!
sixth season, 1st episode! woohooo!
hot and awesome robin scherbatsky! woohoo!
hot lesbian kiss! woohoo!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
another tiring tuesday
just less than a week and the 2010 bar exams will be all over. lost 10 pounds in the process (process means from when the bar review started). by next week, i will be looking for employment...and doing errands and stuff that piled up since april (like my email).
first episode of How I Met Your Mother today, sixth season. i havent discovered a new anime series im going to follow.
just a few more days. all i have to do is keep myself sane until then.
i know a former blockmate would love to see these:
first episode of How I Met Your Mother today, sixth season. i havent discovered a new anime series im going to follow.
just a few more days. all i have to do is keep myself sane until then.
i know a former blockmate would love to see these:
Friday, September 17, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
the world is simple
this show is...ummm...very informative? im running out of stuff to watch. sometimes i wonder why we try to fill our heads with knowledge and complicate things when the rest of the world lives simply. then i ask myself, is it because of some sense of obligation or duty to mankind or something to that effect? or is it because to some people, a simple world is not enough (just remembered shirley manson). contentment will not be achieved with mere simplicity even if shallowness can be a much more enjoyable state of being.
if my old friend would hear this he would tell me that my problem is rooted on my cursed thirst for omniscience, which people usually mistake for some kind of deepness in thought when its really just greed and God complex. i miss that bastard. maybe we should do a show called "nuisance per se and nuisance per accidens: abate us if you can."
if my old friend would hear this he would tell me that my problem is rooted on my cursed thirst for omniscience, which people usually mistake for some kind of deepness in thought when its really just greed and God complex. i miss that bastard. maybe we should do a show called "nuisance per se and nuisance per accidens: abate us if you can."
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
3D hotties but not much 3D boobies
dropped by Fully Booked the other day. i decided to watch Resident Evil: Afterlife in digital 3D and had some time to kill (about 2 hours. i was 5 minutes late for the 1pm screening) before the start of the movie so i roamed inside the mall a bit. i ended up going to Fully Booked (i also ended up in Toy Kingdom but there's nothing really worth sharing there except the toys are expensive!). i said to myself, ive been reading books and staying in the library for months and im still interested in going inside a bookstore?
anyway, i looked at some graphic novels (which made me groan because of the price) then went to history and politics section. then i realized that the selection of books we have are mostly western and eurocentric. then i tried to recall the assigned readings when i was still a political science student. i think there was only one author that was asian (excluding Filipino authors. i think there might be an indian author but im not really sure), japanese to be more specific, and i cant even remember his name. all i know is that he wrote something about the waves of democratization. so i started looking for books that were not written in english or tagalog. found a few (written in spanish). then it made me wonder how much we are missing by not being able to read and understand other asian and western languages. i remember someone told me that the Das Kapital is a good read in its original version (which made we wonder about other books of german philosophers). i think im missing a lot of information by knowing only two languages (not sure if other people have the same sentiment). law professors sometimes say that some laws that we have that originated from spanish laws and that we adopted arent direct and exact translations of the original. some stuff are lost in translation. then i said to myself, after having the realization that language limits the information i can gain, that im just being greedy again, by wanting more information than what i could possibly have now (and i dont even try to master the information within my grasp! well, i do have the "jack of all trades, master of none" tendency). i ended up saying to myself that im going to learn at least six foreign languages and two local languages (i agree that what's spoken in the regions outside NCR arent dialects but languages). i think that would be enough to last a lifetime (i think its more than enough to keep me busy until i die). i continued talking to myself in my head, saying that's crazy talk and that i just want to learn new languages so i can watch the korean, japanese, chinese, german and french channels on cable TV. again, greedy tendency.
i should be focusing on the bar exams right now and not thinking about stuff that i could do after. but then again, during last sunday, minutes before the exam, i was already planning how im going to study for this week (i think i did that to distract myself so i wont get nervous). i just cant stop myself from planning ahead. i never live in the present. right now im planning how im going to take this sunday's exam in case i wake up tomorrow with dengue. at least im prepared...for stuff other than the exam itself!
anyway, i looked at some graphic novels (which made me groan because of the price) then went to history and politics section. then i realized that the selection of books we have are mostly western and eurocentric. then i tried to recall the assigned readings when i was still a political science student. i think there was only one author that was asian (excluding Filipino authors. i think there might be an indian author but im not really sure), japanese to be more specific, and i cant even remember his name. all i know is that he wrote something about the waves of democratization. so i started looking for books that were not written in english or tagalog. found a few (written in spanish). then it made me wonder how much we are missing by not being able to read and understand other asian and western languages. i remember someone told me that the Das Kapital is a good read in its original version (which made we wonder about other books of german philosophers). i think im missing a lot of information by knowing only two languages (not sure if other people have the same sentiment). law professors sometimes say that some laws that we have that originated from spanish laws and that we adopted arent direct and exact translations of the original. some stuff are lost in translation. then i said to myself, after having the realization that language limits the information i can gain, that im just being greedy again, by wanting more information than what i could possibly have now (and i dont even try to master the information within my grasp! well, i do have the "jack of all trades, master of none" tendency). i ended up saying to myself that im going to learn at least six foreign languages and two local languages (i agree that what's spoken in the regions outside NCR arent dialects but languages). i think that would be enough to last a lifetime (i think its more than enough to keep me busy until i die). i continued talking to myself in my head, saying that's crazy talk and that i just want to learn new languages so i can watch the korean, japanese, chinese, german and french channels on cable TV. again, greedy tendency.
i should be focusing on the bar exams right now and not thinking about stuff that i could do after. but then again, during last sunday, minutes before the exam, i was already planning how im going to study for this week (i think i did that to distract myself so i wont get nervous). i just cant stop myself from planning ahead. i never live in the present. right now im planning how im going to take this sunday's exam in case i wake up tomorrow with dengue. at least im prepared...for stuff other than the exam itself!
Monday, September 13, 2010
half awake, reading the online news
im in favor of raising the MRT/LRT fare. i know its "anti-poor" but i think its time for the government to start thinking of other ways of improving mass transport aside from mere subsidy. abandon the "no wang wang" gimmick. it sends a message "lets all suffer traffic jams together." the government should think of ways of decongesting these roads and improving mass transport with alternative, efficient and affordable means. the railway transits are safe, efficient and affordable but its not convenient. some would say, minimum wage earners dont mind it. not because they dont mind the inconvenience doesnt mean it should stay that way. just rode it yesterday and i had three bags with me including a laptop. i had to wait for half an hour (for each railway transit) to get a train where i could fit. i cant afford a taxi, a jeepney is more inconvenient and a bus is not accessible from where i came from. i was too drained because of the bar exam and the lightway transits are the best mass transport i can avail of and its the best the government can offer. i usually dont mind the inconvenience but its been like this for so long and no signs of improvement. i hate it when things that should change never changes.
right now i cant think of any idea to solve this mass transport problem (maybe on my next railway transit commute i will invest some brain power to try to think of solutions). the fare hike is oppressive but i dont think its unreasonable. but the fact that its oppressive is good enough reason not to raise it. but if you dont raise the fares, things wont improve because the government wouldnt do anything else but keep on subsidizing it.
nowadays, going from point A to point B, whether by way of mass transport or private vehicle are both inconvenient. for private vehicles, there's limited parking and gas prices. we have too many vehicles on the road, public and private. we have too many people too. were overpopulated. so the problem is overpopulation? not necessarily. if everybody had a consideration and responsibility gland, our problems wouldnt be this bad. unfortunately, there's no such thing. everyone lives in the present, fails to consider the future and rarely learns from the past.
right now i cant think of any idea to solve this mass transport problem (maybe on my next railway transit commute i will invest some brain power to try to think of solutions). the fare hike is oppressive but i dont think its unreasonable. but the fact that its oppressive is good enough reason not to raise it. but if you dont raise the fares, things wont improve because the government wouldnt do anything else but keep on subsidizing it.
nowadays, going from point A to point B, whether by way of mass transport or private vehicle are both inconvenient. for private vehicles, there's limited parking and gas prices. we have too many vehicles on the road, public and private. we have too many people too. were overpopulated. so the problem is overpopulation? not necessarily. if everybody had a consideration and responsibility gland, our problems wouldnt be this bad. unfortunately, there's no such thing. everyone lives in the present, fails to consider the future and rarely learns from the past.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
what the?
where's the imax version of Resident Evil: Afterlife? i dropped by SM North a while ago to check the movie schedule of Resident Evil: Afterlife and its not showing in their IMAX theater! they're showing Avatar instead. why the crap are they showing Avatar!?! i dont want Resident Evil:Afterlife in Digital 3D, i want to watch it in an IMAX theater!!! the movies scheduled in IMAX MOA are also a bunch of crap.
i was actually looking forward to mid-September because i thought i could go see Resident Evil in IMAX 3D. what am i supposed to look forward to now? Youtube has now become a habit so i cant really say there's something to look forward there. it has become as common as eating rice. well, there's the new season of How I Met Your Mother but i think thats due by the end of September. i will just probably go eat in a nice restaurant tomorrow and get me some good food. then i hit the books.
i was actually looking forward to mid-September because i thought i could go see Resident Evil in IMAX 3D. what am i supposed to look forward to now? Youtube has now become a habit so i cant really say there's something to look forward there. it has become as common as eating rice. well, there's the new season of How I Met Your Mother but i think thats due by the end of September. i will just probably go eat in a nice restaurant tomorrow and get me some good food. then i hit the books.
note to tangible self
dear left hand,
please bear with me. just two more sundays and all of this pain will soon go away. well, not really 2 sundays but two more weeks. im sorry but i cant allow you to go back to non-writing mode just yet. even a few days of non-writing mode, you quickly revert back to your "worst handwriting ever" mode (i cant even understand it sometimes. thats how bad it is). all i ask is two more weeks. i hope you dont sustain some kind of injury like one of kobe bryant's fingers. the doctor said that kobe's finger might have sustained some irreparable injury since he forced it too much. i know youre in pain right now for one full week already. just hang in there a little longer. after these two weeks, you can go back to being idle again with regard to writing. just dont "break" to the point that i will have to use stamps to sign my signature.
as for you right wrist, i hope youre not suffering from carpal tunnel syndrome. i always try to do some stretching exercises from time to time. i dont want surgery to fix you. having a horizontal scar on you doesnt really look nice. although its a good conversation starter.
as for my gums, thank you for suppressing another gum boil. the week before the bar exams started, you caused a bit of a problem by allowing a gum boil to happen that caused my right cheek to swell. its hard to concentrate in pre-week bar lectures with a swollen cheek. thank you for not allowing it to happen this week (although you swelled a bit a few days ago). having pus squirt out of you is really gross. really, really gross. i cant have that while taking the exam. so please, just two more weeks.
my feet, sorry if ive neglected you these past couple of months. please dont fall off (if thats even possible). i know both of you are filled with rashes right now but please understand, im busy and both of you are really far away. im too lazy to bend to keep on checking if the two of you are still doing ok. well, i know youre not ok but once these exams are over, i will have both of you checked. i will find a pretty dermatologist just for the two of you. i looked for a pretty dentist for my teeth, didnt i?
lungs, hang in there. at least youre just giving me coughing fits that arent painful. i will never smoke again. well, right now, im sure of it. but then again, the bronchial lesions and scars that you have werent caused by smoking right?
to my eyes, my very beautiful eyes, you can endure this. i always make sure that the two of you get enough rest. so bear these two more weeks of reading.
lastly, brain, so far so good. you never get tired easily and you always find ways to keep my sanity by allowing me to go insane for brief moments such as this. tomorrow, we hit the books again. i know youre getting used to this kind of exertion and youre liking it. just dont like it too much or im going to get too bored. you know how crazy i get when im too bored.
please bear with me. just two more sundays and all of this pain will soon go away. well, not really 2 sundays but two more weeks. im sorry but i cant allow you to go back to non-writing mode just yet. even a few days of non-writing mode, you quickly revert back to your "worst handwriting ever" mode (i cant even understand it sometimes. thats how bad it is). all i ask is two more weeks. i hope you dont sustain some kind of injury like one of kobe bryant's fingers. the doctor said that kobe's finger might have sustained some irreparable injury since he forced it too much. i know youre in pain right now for one full week already. just hang in there a little longer. after these two weeks, you can go back to being idle again with regard to writing. just dont "break" to the point that i will have to use stamps to sign my signature.
as for you right wrist, i hope youre not suffering from carpal tunnel syndrome. i always try to do some stretching exercises from time to time. i dont want surgery to fix you. having a horizontal scar on you doesnt really look nice. although its a good conversation starter.
as for my gums, thank you for suppressing another gum boil. the week before the bar exams started, you caused a bit of a problem by allowing a gum boil to happen that caused my right cheek to swell. its hard to concentrate in pre-week bar lectures with a swollen cheek. thank you for not allowing it to happen this week (although you swelled a bit a few days ago). having pus squirt out of you is really gross. really, really gross. i cant have that while taking the exam. so please, just two more weeks.
my feet, sorry if ive neglected you these past couple of months. please dont fall off (if thats even possible). i know both of you are filled with rashes right now but please understand, im busy and both of you are really far away. im too lazy to bend to keep on checking if the two of you are still doing ok. well, i know youre not ok but once these exams are over, i will have both of you checked. i will find a pretty dermatologist just for the two of you. i looked for a pretty dentist for my teeth, didnt i?
lungs, hang in there. at least youre just giving me coughing fits that arent painful. i will never smoke again. well, right now, im sure of it. but then again, the bronchial lesions and scars that you have werent caused by smoking right?
to my eyes, my very beautiful eyes, you can endure this. i always make sure that the two of you get enough rest. so bear these two more weeks of reading.
lastly, brain, so far so good. you never get tired easily and you always find ways to keep my sanity by allowing me to go insane for brief moments such as this. tomorrow, we hit the books again. i know youre getting used to this kind of exertion and youre liking it. just dont like it too much or im going to get too bored. you know how crazy i get when im too bored.
Sunday, September 05, 2010
im tired, im sleepy, i have a class tomorrow
three more weeks to go. take it one day at a time. wouldnt it be nice to have a magic lamp?
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
september in a few minutes
in a few minutes, my hate-hate relationship with august will be over. this morning, while i was on my way to attend the preweek lecture, the rain suddenly poured. got wet from the waist down (had to come back home during lunch time to change my pants and soggy socks and shoes). the rain stopped the moment i boarded the jeepney (i waited for about 10 minutes). fortunately, the readings werent damaged even if my bag got a little wet. my umbrella isnt really that useful.
in other news, i just checked the online news and the government officials arent done blamestorming. its annoying but i dont think there's any other way. someone has to be liable for last week's hostage crisis. i think blamestorming is how things are done here in order to start solving things. something goes wrong, lets put a lot of time and effort figuring out who's to blame.
anyway, im tired and i have coughing fits. instead of reading the news, ill just watch this instead (i used to have the habit of reading the online news before going to sleep. i want to know what happened during the day before i go to sleep. also used to have the habit of waking around 5am to play mafia wars).
in other news, i just checked the online news and the government officials arent done blamestorming. its annoying but i dont think there's any other way. someone has to be liable for last week's hostage crisis. i think blamestorming is how things are done here in order to start solving things. something goes wrong, lets put a lot of time and effort figuring out who's to blame.
anyway, im tired and i have coughing fits. instead of reading the news, ill just watch this instead (i used to have the habit of reading the online news before going to sleep. i want to know what happened during the day before i go to sleep. also used to have the habit of waking around 5am to play mafia wars).
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
bills, bills, bills
in less than 24 hours since the hostage crisis ended, two bills are being pushed by the legislative department. one is the re-imposition of the death penalty and the other is a news blackout for hostage taking situations and other probably similar sensitive police operations. i dont agree with both. i dont think the death penalty is a deterrent. my position has always been that death is a favor, not a punishment. savage criminals arent afraid to die. Mendoza, allegedly (since i dont know if he really said it or not, this was what some news item said), was prepared to die. people who commit heinous crimes arent afraid of death (i think some petty criminals arent afraid of death. they resort to a life of crime because they've already been pushed to their limit. some are just plain lazy and just wants a quick buck). i still think life imprisonment is a much worse punishment than death penalty (although i dont think penal instutitions are effective deterrents or truly useful for rehabilitating people, its the best humans can come up with at the moment). as for the news blackout, its too much. i think the better option is for the media and the PNP to set-up a protocol or procedure that must be followed in covering such situations (like not airing a live broadcast of the incident). the media should be more responsible with their actions and be given guidelines and not be unduly restrained. the reason im not in favor of a news blackout is because one always has to assume that anything can be abused.
point is, dont pass laws that arent well thought or didnt undergo in some kind of research or consultation that reflects it will actually accomplish what it seeks to remedy or cure or something to that effect. it just muddles up the philippine legal system and its really annoying to learn laws that arent well made. but if these bills were products of research and consultations (or some other valid ways that aid and substantiate proposed legislation), then i guess there's really nothing much to oppose about it since the presumption is that the data that supports it means it good and worthy to become law.
point is, dont pass laws that arent well thought or didnt undergo in some kind of research or consultation that reflects it will actually accomplish what it seeks to remedy or cure or something to that effect. it just muddles up the philippine legal system and its really annoying to learn laws that arent well made. but if these bills were products of research and consultations (or some other valid ways that aid and substantiate proposed legislation), then i guess there's really nothing much to oppose about it since the presumption is that the data that supports it means it good and worthy to become law.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
its hard not to feel bad about this
i was trying not to comment on the hostage drama yesterday since i think everyone has said their piece about it and my comments wouldnt be different but since i commented on the Ducat hostage taking incident last 2007 and im trying not to go back to sleep (this recurring insomnia is really a pain in the neck), im going to write something about it.
i learned about the hostage-taking incident as early as noon yesterday. when i learned the hostages were Hong Kong nationals, i immediately thought what T. Failon would say hours later in TV Patrol, what's going to be the effect of this incident in Philippine international relations (i think Failon said what's going to be the repercussions in the international arena or something to that effect)? of course it would have a negative effect but up to what extent? it also made me think, has there been any successful hostage-taking incident, where the hostage-taker was able to get his demands or get a good deal? why do people keep resorting to this criminal act when its not really a good way of claiming demands? maybe he just wants to get the people's attention and be heard? well, the act of taking someone hostage has an international relations origin and primarily used for political ends so it has been tool to make a party take notice and listen to one's demands but its been used for political reasons and not just to air private grievances (so in a way, Ducat had the concept right but his choice of hostages werent).
anyway, i was able to watch the coverage from the point Mendoza's brother was arrested up to the point Mendoza was shot and some of the remaining hostages were rescued. while Mendoza's brother was being arrested, the reporter keeps saying that the police have said that they are worried that Mendoza might be able to see the arrest incident and agitate him. the reporter repeatedly mentioned this. then why do they keep airing it? couldnt they just broadcast the arrest incident footage later, when its "safer" to broadcast it? was the media waiting for the government to tell them to stop the live broadcast of the arrest incicent? shouldnt the PNP and the media have a protocol for broadcasting sensitive police operations like this? weve had some notable hostage taking situations in the past, the PNP and the media should have set-up a way to properly broadcast this kind of operations.
Mendoza's brother shouldnt have resisted arrest either. if he's worried that his arrest isnt valid, we have legal procedures to remedy that. if he's worried about whether something "bad" might happen to him, all he had to do was cooperate peacefully, tell the media he is being arrested, inform the media who are his arresting officers and tell the media where the police is taking him. i think thats some sufficient safeguard to make sure his arresting officers dont do anything stupid.
as for the Assault team's manner of taking an offensive stance, i think the footage speaks for itself. im no expert on hostage crisis situations but i think our police is still very much insufficiently trained. as for the negotiators, i dont know how the negotiations went but the fact it took that long, an improvement in negotiating skills should be done (they know the hostage taker was one of their own so they should have thought of ways how to handle the negotiations suited for him, even the offensive operation). but i would have to praise them for their cautiousness. or maybe not. some members of the assault team didnt have bullet proof vests and one had his police cap worn backwards (some of those who entered the bus while Mendoza was still alive werent wearing any protective gear. thats how brave our policemen are. or maybe its the latest technology thats why i didnt see it). but i think its still good news that some hostages were still rescued after Mendoza was shot.
as for Mendoza being shot, my initial reaction then was, why the crap did they shoot Mendoza? i would rather have him prosecuted than be killed. killing him is doing him a favor. now he doesnt have to worry about his non-reinstatement. he will no longer feel pain, suffering, regret, etc. if i was Hong Kong, i would like to see the killer of my nationals prosecuted and incarcerated. but then again, if i was the sniper who shot him (and i do mean, if i was the sniper, im not saying this is what the sniper thought. the sniper could just be probably itching to have the incident over with), i probably would have shot him too. my information was he is heavily armed, i have a clear shot and only seconds (or maybe a split second) to make a decision. he could have some sort of explosives tied all over his body and if allowed to be arrested, he could detonate himself and cause further damage. but then again, i think sniper's are just given the go signal to shoot when they have the chance and doesnt really exercise that much discretion in performing their duties.
its easy to criticize but when youre actually there, things are really different. even the field reporters fail to see what's obvious to an objective observer. its difficult not to be caught in the tension and drama when youre actually in the middle of it. judgment's impaired, time is limited. im not saying this is an excuse because it reflects inadequate training and preparation. also lack of sufficient safeguards (thats how you deal with high tension situations). but taking these into consideration, i think the effort and attempt to do it properly is close to satisfactory. the policemen involved deserve some credit for being able to rescue some of the hostages and taking down the hostage taker but shouldnt be allowed to repeat their shortcomings and should do something to address it.
i learned about the hostage-taking incident as early as noon yesterday. when i learned the hostages were Hong Kong nationals, i immediately thought what T. Failon would say hours later in TV Patrol, what's going to be the effect of this incident in Philippine international relations (i think Failon said what's going to be the repercussions in the international arena or something to that effect)? of course it would have a negative effect but up to what extent? it also made me think, has there been any successful hostage-taking incident, where the hostage-taker was able to get his demands or get a good deal? why do people keep resorting to this criminal act when its not really a good way of claiming demands? maybe he just wants to get the people's attention and be heard? well, the act of taking someone hostage has an international relations origin and primarily used for political ends so it has been tool to make a party take notice and listen to one's demands but its been used for political reasons and not just to air private grievances (so in a way, Ducat had the concept right but his choice of hostages werent).
anyway, i was able to watch the coverage from the point Mendoza's brother was arrested up to the point Mendoza was shot and some of the remaining hostages were rescued. while Mendoza's brother was being arrested, the reporter keeps saying that the police have said that they are worried that Mendoza might be able to see the arrest incident and agitate him. the reporter repeatedly mentioned this. then why do they keep airing it? couldnt they just broadcast the arrest incident footage later, when its "safer" to broadcast it? was the media waiting for the government to tell them to stop the live broadcast of the arrest incicent? shouldnt the PNP and the media have a protocol for broadcasting sensitive police operations like this? weve had some notable hostage taking situations in the past, the PNP and the media should have set-up a way to properly broadcast this kind of operations.
Mendoza's brother shouldnt have resisted arrest either. if he's worried that his arrest isnt valid, we have legal procedures to remedy that. if he's worried about whether something "bad" might happen to him, all he had to do was cooperate peacefully, tell the media he is being arrested, inform the media who are his arresting officers and tell the media where the police is taking him. i think thats some sufficient safeguard to make sure his arresting officers dont do anything stupid.
as for the Assault team's manner of taking an offensive stance, i think the footage speaks for itself. im no expert on hostage crisis situations but i think our police is still very much insufficiently trained. as for the negotiators, i dont know how the negotiations went but the fact it took that long, an improvement in negotiating skills should be done (they know the hostage taker was one of their own so they should have thought of ways how to handle the negotiations suited for him, even the offensive operation). but i would have to praise them for their cautiousness. or maybe not. some members of the assault team didnt have bullet proof vests and one had his police cap worn backwards (some of those who entered the bus while Mendoza was still alive werent wearing any protective gear. thats how brave our policemen are. or maybe its the latest technology thats why i didnt see it). but i think its still good news that some hostages were still rescued after Mendoza was shot.
as for Mendoza being shot, my initial reaction then was, why the crap did they shoot Mendoza? i would rather have him prosecuted than be killed. killing him is doing him a favor. now he doesnt have to worry about his non-reinstatement. he will no longer feel pain, suffering, regret, etc. if i was Hong Kong, i would like to see the killer of my nationals prosecuted and incarcerated. but then again, if i was the sniper who shot him (and i do mean, if i was the sniper, im not saying this is what the sniper thought. the sniper could just be probably itching to have the incident over with), i probably would have shot him too. my information was he is heavily armed, i have a clear shot and only seconds (or maybe a split second) to make a decision. he could have some sort of explosives tied all over his body and if allowed to be arrested, he could detonate himself and cause further damage. but then again, i think sniper's are just given the go signal to shoot when they have the chance and doesnt really exercise that much discretion in performing their duties.
its easy to criticize but when youre actually there, things are really different. even the field reporters fail to see what's obvious to an objective observer. its difficult not to be caught in the tension and drama when youre actually in the middle of it. judgment's impaired, time is limited. im not saying this is an excuse because it reflects inadequate training and preparation. also lack of sufficient safeguards (thats how you deal with high tension situations). but taking these into consideration, i think the effort and attempt to do it properly is close to satisfactory. the policemen involved deserve some credit for being able to rescue some of the hostages and taking down the hostage taker but shouldnt be allowed to repeat their shortcomings and should do something to address it.
Monday, August 23, 2010
eating habits
i like KFC's california maki twister. unfortunately, its not that affordable so i will have to prohibit myself from craving for it for now (i hope when they say limited time, they mean 3 months. i hate it when i go to the counter of a fast food restaurant only to be told that the product i intend to eat is already "phased out." jollibee does this to me most of the time). i think it was the first KFC commercial that enticed me to buy their product. i usually dont like KFC's commercial (when im not in a mood to tolerate the commercial, i tell my siblings to change the channel. thats how much i dont like their commercials. im not saying they're bad, i just really dont like them and that they should hire experts to do their commercials). but then again, now that i think about it, it wasnt the way the commercial was done that enticed me try their product. it was because it said california maki. i like japanese food. so by merely saying what the product was would have sufficed. the only KFC commercial (alleged KFC commercial) i liked is the one done by Jun Ji-Hyun (it was one of my first posts in this blog).
anyway, if there's anything that really brings out my selfishness, its food. my "i dont care about anyone else" self really comes out. im that guy one wouldnt want to bring in a camping trip when the food is scarce. not that i will let others starve while i eat the limited supply of food (although there is a good probability), its just that it really becomes difficult for me to share food when im really hungry or when i really like the food. someone will have to remind me to share and eat sparingly. or another solution is hide the food from me (something my siblings do).
im also a picky and moody eater. i remember my OLA teammates would ask me if im craving for anything before we go out for lunch. i usually like burgers, fries, pizza, chicken and anything fried (so im not that difficult to go out and eat with. problem is when im craving for a particular burger or pizza). im not a fan of soup (this surprises a lot of people and i dont know why) and food with a lot of liquids. this is why my mother finds it difficult to cook food since im really, really picky lately. and she insists that i cant just keep eating fried food. its not that i wont eat what's available, its just that i wouldnt eat a lot of it. i dont know when this habit developed. i used to eat anything thats edible (except food that tastes like liver). i really do eat anything back then, even leftovers. i still eat leftovers but not as much as i used to. i also used to have this habit of not having any leftovers on my plate. as long as there's still something edible on my plate, i will eat it. well, i grew up to be annoyingly picky.
i also have a big appetite but thats not really true all the time. i easily lose my appetite when im busy (this is one example of a not a hard and fast rule since there can be exceptions, primarily based on mood). thats why when i was still working and i have lots of stuff to do, i tend to forget to have lunch (or would rather not have lunch). i remember when i was taking classes that were scheduled 3-4 hours straight and the last professor had the tendency to extend for 1 to 2 more hours, im no longer in the mood to eat dinner. thats why i easily lose weight when im busy or i have lots of stuff to do. this habit just developed recently (and recently means latter half of this decade)
i also dont like my food to be hot. not that i like them cold but i dont like it hot because i easily burn my tongue (and half my tongue is still injured. after the exams, im going to have this checked). i used to have the habit of smelling my food before eating it. people keep saying its rude (because they notice it when i attend parties). so i stopped doing it. i think this is one of the few instances i listened to other people. i have the nasty habit of doing the opposite what people tell me (or whatever i tell myself).
i just wanted to say that i like KFC's california maki twister and i hope it will still be available after september but i ended up writing about eating habits. i never lost my talkativeness. it just transformed into written form.
anyway, if there's anything that really brings out my selfishness, its food. my "i dont care about anyone else" self really comes out. im that guy one wouldnt want to bring in a camping trip when the food is scarce. not that i will let others starve while i eat the limited supply of food (although there is a good probability), its just that it really becomes difficult for me to share food when im really hungry or when i really like the food. someone will have to remind me to share and eat sparingly. or another solution is hide the food from me (something my siblings do).
im also a picky and moody eater. i remember my OLA teammates would ask me if im craving for anything before we go out for lunch. i usually like burgers, fries, pizza, chicken and anything fried (so im not that difficult to go out and eat with. problem is when im craving for a particular burger or pizza). im not a fan of soup (this surprises a lot of people and i dont know why) and food with a lot of liquids. this is why my mother finds it difficult to cook food since im really, really picky lately. and she insists that i cant just keep eating fried food. its not that i wont eat what's available, its just that i wouldnt eat a lot of it. i dont know when this habit developed. i used to eat anything thats edible (except food that tastes like liver). i really do eat anything back then, even leftovers. i still eat leftovers but not as much as i used to. i also used to have this habit of not having any leftovers on my plate. as long as there's still something edible on my plate, i will eat it. well, i grew up to be annoyingly picky.
i also have a big appetite but thats not really true all the time. i easily lose my appetite when im busy (this is one example of a not a hard and fast rule since there can be exceptions, primarily based on mood). thats why when i was still working and i have lots of stuff to do, i tend to forget to have lunch (or would rather not have lunch). i remember when i was taking classes that were scheduled 3-4 hours straight and the last professor had the tendency to extend for 1 to 2 more hours, im no longer in the mood to eat dinner. thats why i easily lose weight when im busy or i have lots of stuff to do. this habit just developed recently (and recently means latter half of this decade)
i also dont like my food to be hot. not that i like them cold but i dont like it hot because i easily burn my tongue (and half my tongue is still injured. after the exams, im going to have this checked). i used to have the habit of smelling my food before eating it. people keep saying its rude (because they notice it when i attend parties). so i stopped doing it. i think this is one of the few instances i listened to other people. i have the nasty habit of doing the opposite what people tell me (or whatever i tell myself).
i just wanted to say that i like KFC's california maki twister and i hope it will still be available after september but i ended up writing about eating habits. i never lost my talkativeness. it just transformed into written form.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
i remember watching this during crim law rev class
its been two years since i watched this during class (and probably four years since i watched a Jun Ji-Hyun movie). if i had a laptop, an internet connection and there was Youtube when i was a college freshman, i wouldnt sleep in class
and if i were taking classes today, these would be the commercial vids i would probably be watching (and distract my seatmate at the same time). at least these vids wont make the people seated behind me wonder what im watching (or find it a bit "scandalous" to watch during class).
and if i were taking classes today, these would be the commercial vids i would probably be watching (and distract my seatmate at the same time). at least these vids wont make the people seated behind me wonder what im watching (or find it a bit "scandalous" to watch during class).
zone out boy
its been a while since ive been a "zone out boy." back then, i zone out so often that friends usually ask me if im ok or if im alright. maybe they just got used to me zoning out and got tired of asking. i always say im ok so why bother asking? but then again, i usually zone out when im in a crowd (that's something i havent been in in a while. i think). its when a lot of people talk at the same time and i cant keep up because i want to catch what everybody's saying (im greedy, i want it all. even meaningless conversations). thats why ive always been "effective" in small group conversations. and speaking with a loud voice is really bothersome, it drains a lot of energy (a friend once described me as an energy saving entity, where all my movements are calculated to use the least amount of energy for any given undertaking, that i dont make unnecessary movements)
i miss zoning out. its usually when i get immersed in an idea or theory. i havent had any idea or theory that captivated me so much that i just cant help but zone out and immerse myself in it to engage in some intellectual and/or philosophical exercise. thats why i think ive grown stupid after i graduated from college.
to digress, i remember my english professors complaining about my "rude" sleeping habits. i was seated in the front row of the class and 70-80% of the whole semester, i was sleeping. i think my english professors started complaining midway through the semester. one of them said i should drink coffee before going to class and wished that Kafka's Metamorphosis happens to me. the other english professor just couldnt take it anymore that she asked me to explain why i sleep in class. after explaining to her why i sleep (i dont remember what i said), she said that my problem was i was suffering from philosophical boredom. her reply to me didnt really help in getting rid of my sleeping habit. years later, i found out why i tend to sleep in class. im not sure what my english professor meant by philosophical boredom but i think the reason i sleep in class is because im really sleepy and bored. it just so happens that i easily give in to sleep. i dont see anything philosophical about it.
i miss zoning out. its usually when i get immersed in an idea or theory. i havent had any idea or theory that captivated me so much that i just cant help but zone out and immerse myself in it to engage in some intellectual and/or philosophical exercise. thats why i think ive grown stupid after i graduated from college.
to digress, i remember my english professors complaining about my "rude" sleeping habits. i was seated in the front row of the class and 70-80% of the whole semester, i was sleeping. i think my english professors started complaining midway through the semester. one of them said i should drink coffee before going to class and wished that Kafka's Metamorphosis happens to me. the other english professor just couldnt take it anymore that she asked me to explain why i sleep in class. after explaining to her why i sleep (i dont remember what i said), she said that my problem was i was suffering from philosophical boredom. her reply to me didnt really help in getting rid of my sleeping habit. years later, i found out why i tend to sleep in class. im not sure what my english professor meant by philosophical boredom but i think the reason i sleep in class is because im really sleepy and bored. it just so happens that i easily give in to sleep. i dont see anything philosophical about it.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Gadongk!
a few years back, probably more than half a decade, i heard from a news program that one man stabbed to death his drinking buddy. why? they had an argument on which one is prettier: Ara Mina or Joyce Jimenez (or probably sexier. i dont really care since i dont like both of them). i dont remember which one the assailant liked, whether he is for Ara Mina or Joyce Jimenez but my reaction then was, "another one bites the dust." guys kill each other because of women. if i remember correctly, thats the reason the idea of a "best man" in weddings was conceived (i dont like the way this sentence is constructed...but im not going to revise it because im too lazy to revise. sometimes i wish laziness can be a valid excuse), to ensure that the groom will not have his bride stolen from him. going back to the drinking buddies, i thought to myself, they must have been die hard fans of the two celebs. just because your drinking buddy disagreed with you or insisted that someone else is prettier, youre going to stab him to death already? thats some intense admiration.
ive been a fan of a lot of things. but ive never been a rabid fan to the point that i would do something similar or be offended (well, maybe i would be offended if the comment was unreasonable). ive been reading comments on Youtube about fans defending whatever their object of admiration is and some are really rabid. they infer stuff based from their vast knowledge of the object of admiration as if they are an authority on the person itself (its taking the hobby of observation too far and yes, i consider observing people as a hobby. half a decade ago, someone described me as "the watcher" and a law school friend said that if the world ended, i would probably be the only one who would calmly sit down and watch it crumble before my eyes). they start to hate whatever runs counter to their addiction. this is common to fans of celebrities and fictional characters. they have the tendency to momentarily lose their grip on reality. not that im complaining since their comments are interesting to read (i believe its a fact that crazy people are funny. well, theyre funny to be watched from a safe distance). my point is, never ever lose yourself on things you love. thats just not the point of intensely liking something. or intensely wanting something. you get hooked on something because you have this intense liking for it but never let the intensity take over you. losing one's grip for brief moments is okay but always make sure that it stays that way. that it never goes to the point of crossing the line toward crazytown (really crazytown? cant think of any word better than this?) and do something like the Ara Mina or Joyce Jimenez fan. its just pathetic to be destroyed by the thing that brings you sheer delight or happiness (reminds me of an earlier blog entry about love).
moving to the bar exams (yes, im going to connect this topic to the bar exams like a 4 year old connecting the dots to see a dinosaur when its supposed to be a car, "yeah sure its supposed to end up as a car but if i connect the dots this way, i could produce an image that is somewhat like a dinosaur. or a dinosaur that just underwent plastic surgery to resemble a car that just crashed"), the experience of taking the exam and being a fan can be somewhat similar. some people lose their grip on reality. they develop an intense desire to pass the exam that some are taken over by their own intensity. there are lots of "horror" stories of barristers who suddenly snap and lose it. probably 1/16 of these stories are real (got to throw in a fraction and i was in the mood to throw in 1/16. sorry 1/3, maybe next time). its just an exam. like being a fan of a celeb or fictional character, one has to constantly remind the fan that the celebrity status is most often acquired because its his or her job (as for the fictional character, the fan shouldnt be reminded of it). and being a job for the celebrity, its really no different from other jobs or an office job (ok, maybe there are tons of differences but still, being an actress or singer is still an occupation, a reality that has to be pounded on the head of some fans. their claims or defensive comments will sound less crazy if they take it into consideration). the bar exam is just an exam. and one is given five chances to take it and hopefully pass it. thats very lenient already since some things in life, you only get one shot and if you screw it up, you lose it forever. and if for some very unfortunate reason you strike out and forever disallowed to take the bar exams, its just an obstacle to your ideal profession (it has to be your ideal profession if youre willing to take the bar exams five times. or some promise of some sort that deserves to be depicted in MMK, like swearing in someone's grave that one will be a lawyer no matter what. if thats the case, there are other countries that would probably allow a foreigner to practice law in their country if you pass their bar exam. if not, then migrate there, change citizenship, study law again, take the exam again. point is, if one really wants to be a lawyer, there are other unconventional yet legitimate and legal ways. its burdensome but thats just life's way of saying "if you just dont get it that lawyering isnt for you because youre supposed to become a rockstar and insist on going against what life has in store for you, then go ahead, youre always free to decide you stubborn mule" said in a foreign accent, depending on the country of choice where one will insist to be a lawyer after failing five times here). there are other jobs out there and a lot of people dont get their dream jobs. life goes on for them. sure it sucks but is that something thats supposed to stop you from living? well, for some the answer is yes or maybe but despite the awesomeness of being a lawyer, there are still a lot of other awesome stuff to be in life. well, there just has to be because if there werent any other awesome professions, then everyone would want to be lawyers (or they're just anti-awesome).
ive been a fan of a lot of things. but ive never been a rabid fan to the point that i would do something similar or be offended (well, maybe i would be offended if the comment was unreasonable). ive been reading comments on Youtube about fans defending whatever their object of admiration is and some are really rabid. they infer stuff based from their vast knowledge of the object of admiration as if they are an authority on the person itself (its taking the hobby of observation too far and yes, i consider observing people as a hobby. half a decade ago, someone described me as "the watcher" and a law school friend said that if the world ended, i would probably be the only one who would calmly sit down and watch it crumble before my eyes). they start to hate whatever runs counter to their addiction. this is common to fans of celebrities and fictional characters. they have the tendency to momentarily lose their grip on reality. not that im complaining since their comments are interesting to read (i believe its a fact that crazy people are funny. well, theyre funny to be watched from a safe distance). my point is, never ever lose yourself on things you love. thats just not the point of intensely liking something. or intensely wanting something. you get hooked on something because you have this intense liking for it but never let the intensity take over you. losing one's grip for brief moments is okay but always make sure that it stays that way. that it never goes to the point of crossing the line toward crazytown (really crazytown? cant think of any word better than this?) and do something like the Ara Mina or Joyce Jimenez fan. its just pathetic to be destroyed by the thing that brings you sheer delight or happiness (reminds me of an earlier blog entry about love).
moving to the bar exams (yes, im going to connect this topic to the bar exams like a 4 year old connecting the dots to see a dinosaur when its supposed to be a car, "yeah sure its supposed to end up as a car but if i connect the dots this way, i could produce an image that is somewhat like a dinosaur. or a dinosaur that just underwent plastic surgery to resemble a car that just crashed"), the experience of taking the exam and being a fan can be somewhat similar. some people lose their grip on reality. they develop an intense desire to pass the exam that some are taken over by their own intensity. there are lots of "horror" stories of barristers who suddenly snap and lose it. probably 1/16 of these stories are real (got to throw in a fraction and i was in the mood to throw in 1/16. sorry 1/3, maybe next time). its just an exam. like being a fan of a celeb or fictional character, one has to constantly remind the fan that the celebrity status is most often acquired because its his or her job (as for the fictional character, the fan shouldnt be reminded of it). and being a job for the celebrity, its really no different from other jobs or an office job (ok, maybe there are tons of differences but still, being an actress or singer is still an occupation, a reality that has to be pounded on the head of some fans. their claims or defensive comments will sound less crazy if they take it into consideration). the bar exam is just an exam. and one is given five chances to take it and hopefully pass it. thats very lenient already since some things in life, you only get one shot and if you screw it up, you lose it forever. and if for some very unfortunate reason you strike out and forever disallowed to take the bar exams, its just an obstacle to your ideal profession (it has to be your ideal profession if youre willing to take the bar exams five times. or some promise of some sort that deserves to be depicted in MMK, like swearing in someone's grave that one will be a lawyer no matter what. if thats the case, there are other countries that would probably allow a foreigner to practice law in their country if you pass their bar exam. if not, then migrate there, change citizenship, study law again, take the exam again. point is, if one really wants to be a lawyer, there are other unconventional yet legitimate and legal ways. its burdensome but thats just life's way of saying "if you just dont get it that lawyering isnt for you because youre supposed to become a rockstar and insist on going against what life has in store for you, then go ahead, youre always free to decide you stubborn mule" said in a foreign accent, depending on the country of choice where one will insist to be a lawyer after failing five times here). there are other jobs out there and a lot of people dont get their dream jobs. life goes on for them. sure it sucks but is that something thats supposed to stop you from living? well, for some the answer is yes or maybe but despite the awesomeness of being a lawyer, there are still a lot of other awesome stuff to be in life. well, there just has to be because if there werent any other awesome professions, then everyone would want to be lawyers (or they're just anti-awesome).
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
The Pineapple Matchmaker Duel Incident
[During a sword fight]
Marshall: Woe is me! I'm not married yet! My ovaries are shrinking! Ted! If you wanted to be married by now, you would be, but you're not. And you know why? Because you're irrationally picky, you're easily distracted and you're utterly anhedonic.
Ted: Anhedonic?
Marshall: Anhedonic. It means you can't enjoy anything.
Ted: The hell I can't. I'm enjoying this.
Marshall: I know, this rules!
Lily: Don't Ted-out about it.
Ted: Did you just use my name as a verb?
Barney: Oh, yeah, we do that behind your back. "Ted-out": to overthink. Also see "Ted-up". "Ted-up": to overthink with disastrous results. For example, "Billy Tedded-up when he..."
Ted: All right, I get it!
Barney: Your brain screws you up, Ted, it gets in the way. It happened with Robin, it happened with "Half-Boob", and its gonna keep on happening until you power down that bucket of neuroses inebriation-style.
Marshall: [after Barney pushes a shot to Ted] Interesting...
Ted: What... You want me to do a shot?
Barney: Oh no... I want you to do five shots.
Marshall: More interesting.
Ted: [takes first shot] Let me tell you something about this brain, okay?
[takes second shot]
Ted: Pure alcohol cannot stop this brain.
[takes third shot]
Ted: This brain, dear mortals, is no ordinary brain.
[takes fourth shot]
Ted: This is a superbrain.
[takes fifth shot]
Ted: This brain is unstoppable. This brain...
Older Ted: And that's all I remember.
Marshall: Woe is me! I'm not married yet! My ovaries are shrinking! Ted! If you wanted to be married by now, you would be, but you're not. And you know why? Because you're irrationally picky, you're easily distracted and you're utterly anhedonic.
Ted: Anhedonic?
Marshall: Anhedonic. It means you can't enjoy anything.
Ted: The hell I can't. I'm enjoying this.
Marshall: I know, this rules!
Lily: Don't Ted-out about it.
Ted: Did you just use my name as a verb?
Barney: Oh, yeah, we do that behind your back. "Ted-out": to overthink. Also see "Ted-up". "Ted-up": to overthink with disastrous results. For example, "Billy Tedded-up when he..."
Ted: All right, I get it!
Barney: Your brain screws you up, Ted, it gets in the way. It happened with Robin, it happened with "Half-Boob", and its gonna keep on happening until you power down that bucket of neuroses inebriation-style.
Marshall: [after Barney pushes a shot to Ted] Interesting...
Ted: What... You want me to do a shot?
Barney: Oh no... I want you to do five shots.
Marshall: More interesting.
Ted: [takes first shot] Let me tell you something about this brain, okay?
[takes second shot]
Ted: Pure alcohol cannot stop this brain.
[takes third shot]
Ted: This brain, dear mortals, is no ordinary brain.
[takes fourth shot]
Ted: This is a superbrain.
[takes fifth shot]
Ted: This brain is unstoppable. This brain...
Older Ted: And that's all I remember.
Friday, August 13, 2010
so this explains why my recent blog entries were about women im addicted to
i was looking for a previous blog entry on me being a supposed former infatuation junkie and i couldnt find any. thats odd. i could have sworn i posted a blog entry having that as a topic. i browsed drafts (i dont delete some blog entries that i dont publish. might be useful someday) and i didnt find it. well, i didnt really search thoroughly. the reason im looking for it is because whatever i wrote there might be useful now. and since it apparently doesnt exist, might as well write it now for future reference. so note to future self, here's the supposed former infatuation junkie blog entry. the date today isnt easy to forget.
so im a supposed former infatuation junkie. i think i started becoming an infatuation junkie way back in high school. i started becoming a former infatuation junkie during the latter part of college. i realized that im a supposed former infatuation junkie during law school. or maybe earlier. i dont really know when exactly but what i do know is that i thought i stopped being an infatuation junkie during the latter years of my college life because i dont recall having any infatuation for anyone during that time. or so i think. this is one of my problems. i cant really say for sure sometimes because i have the tendency to hide things from myself. i can keep secrets from myself ala Fight Club (sort of). its not that im not aware, i just purposely forget (got the idea when i read about the Russian who had a very good memory that it became so burdensome he developed a system for him to forget things). like the scene in Inception where Cobb and Ariadne were in the elevator. its simply compartmentalizing your memories and keeping them locked somewhere beyond the reach of consciousness (the same way as compartmentalizing one's personalities which is best illustrated in the Father in FMA:B and probably the reason for my inconsistencies since i nurture personalities that contradict each other. well, i like to see as many viewpoints as possible). this is different from altering your memories. got the idea from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. although in that movie, memories were erased, i thought of another idea from the process. now why would one alter one's memory? well, theyre not irreversibly altered but...its like the one in Harry Potter where one can tamper with one's memory in order to protect one's secrets in case someone tries to see the memory. im not saying i think someone can see my memory but...point is, it has its application in the real world. i just think im starting to sound like a crazy person. well, i prefer to be seen as someone who likes to tweak at the capacity of the human brain and using myself as a test subject.
after digressing, i havent really figured out how to deal with being an infatuation junkie (future self would probably say, "really? wow, this entry is useful. you gots to give me more than this past self or...well, i cant actually threaten you can i?"
i just have an indulgent personality (which was my answer to my college friend in 2004 while on board a taxi passing Ortigas (damn you Ortigas!) when he asked: why are you afraid of being in a relationship? well, if i posted the draft of the blog entry that precedes this blog entry (it precedes it in a chronological manner), my answer to that friend is really a half-truth). i think my being an infatuation junkie developed because i was placed in a school exclusively for boys. i mean, ive started having crushes when i was in grade one and had a new crush every year. seriously, every year, different girl. then high school, i enrolled in an all boys school (which i sort of blame for sucking the life out of me. thats when i changed from being a cheerful, hyperactive kid to a...energy saving, weird and bored hater). one just cant be happy in such a place (i guess it messed me up beyond repair).
thank God for TV, i can still see females of the human specie that i could possibly have a crush on. well, it was the next best thing. i just had this need to like someone i guess and i cant find any in my high school obviously. no one in the neighborhood either. and thats how i became an infatuation junkie. that infatuation lasted for years. when i shared this to a college friend (because we were running out of things to talk about), she first looked at me with disbelief and when she realized i wasnt kidding, she said she will never see me the same way again. years later (which was last year), not sure if she noticed, she and some other college friends would find this infatuation in "my" laptop. and my reply was "i dont know how it got there. probably my sister's." i got a "yeah right" reply from one of them but seriously, i dont know how it got there. must have placed it there unconsciously because i wasnt even aware that its inside the laptop.
now i understand why my infatuation junkie self kicked in. its because im "locked up"! i discouraged myself from going out because pretty women distract me (and they distract me more when they sit near me and are wearing intoxicating perfumes. luckily i havent encountered anyone wearing a raspberry scent. i would probably flip. just thinking about the scent is really driving me nuts. why does she have...anyways). avoiding distractions didnt actually help. now i see the problem. i cant go out because i get distracted (and the reason i get distracted easily because im avoiding "distractions" of the persistent kind. i havent been in hermit mode for quite some time so that probably aggravated things. why the hell did i abandon hermit mode? wait, yeah, i remember, something happened in 2009. damn it. i was conditioning myself back then for the bar already. i just had to disobey myself. Life, whatever your fucking plan is, it better be good because i think my plan is great but you just keep interfering). if i continue to stay indoors, infatuation junkie self kicks in. pretty women are my fucking weakness (if i like women that much, why do i appear to have an aversion toward them? that can be answered by referring to the blog entry that precedes this post chronologically. unfortunately, it contains sensitive information so i didnt post it. without the blog entry, the answer is obvious anyway. it has to do with something like Superman not exposing himself to kryptonite. i never liked Superman. always been a Batman person. well, more of Marvel person so Batman was the only one i like in the DC Universe. again, i digress).
damn it. there's no cure for something i dont want to be cured of. its either i give in to the "distraction" of the persistent kind so i wont be easily distracted when i go out or...there is no or. wait, there is. or i continue indulging until i get fed up (thats not really an option now is it?). the latter suggestion is stupid (and so is the former. sort of). my first infatuation lasted for 2-3 years. but then again, that was when i was "locked-up" in an all boy school. i mean, i had to keep my sanity within the sausage fest walls. a possible solution is to purposely forget my current infatuation but i havent really tried blocking an infatuation before. i just let it run its course and die out on its own. this could last for weeks or months. i'll probably figure someting out.
i think this blog entry just confirmed the fact that im a girl. well, im a lesbian, a girl attracted to girls. well, a lesbian stuck in a guy's body so it kinda works out. actually, this just confirms im very, very weird.
so im a supposed former infatuation junkie. i think i started becoming an infatuation junkie way back in high school. i started becoming a former infatuation junkie during the latter part of college. i realized that im a supposed former infatuation junkie during law school. or maybe earlier. i dont really know when exactly but what i do know is that i thought i stopped being an infatuation junkie during the latter years of my college life because i dont recall having any infatuation for anyone during that time. or so i think. this is one of my problems. i cant really say for sure sometimes because i have the tendency to hide things from myself. i can keep secrets from myself ala Fight Club (sort of). its not that im not aware, i just purposely forget (got the idea when i read about the Russian who had a very good memory that it became so burdensome he developed a system for him to forget things). like the scene in Inception where Cobb and Ariadne were in the elevator. its simply compartmentalizing your memories and keeping them locked somewhere beyond the reach of consciousness (the same way as compartmentalizing one's personalities which is best illustrated in the Father in FMA:B and probably the reason for my inconsistencies since i nurture personalities that contradict each other. well, i like to see as many viewpoints as possible). this is different from altering your memories. got the idea from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. although in that movie, memories were erased, i thought of another idea from the process. now why would one alter one's memory? well, theyre not irreversibly altered but...its like the one in Harry Potter where one can tamper with one's memory in order to protect one's secrets in case someone tries to see the memory. im not saying i think someone can see my memory but...point is, it has its application in the real world. i just think im starting to sound like a crazy person. well, i prefer to be seen as someone who likes to tweak at the capacity of the human brain and using myself as a test subject.
after digressing, i havent really figured out how to deal with being an infatuation junkie (future self would probably say, "really? wow, this entry is useful. you gots to give me more than this past self or...well, i cant actually threaten you can i?"
i just have an indulgent personality (which was my answer to my college friend in 2004 while on board a taxi passing Ortigas (damn you Ortigas!) when he asked: why are you afraid of being in a relationship? well, if i posted the draft of the blog entry that precedes this blog entry (it precedes it in a chronological manner), my answer to that friend is really a half-truth). i think my being an infatuation junkie developed because i was placed in a school exclusively for boys. i mean, ive started having crushes when i was in grade one and had a new crush every year. seriously, every year, different girl. then high school, i enrolled in an all boys school (which i sort of blame for sucking the life out of me. thats when i changed from being a cheerful, hyperactive kid to a...energy saving, weird and bored hater). one just cant be happy in such a place (i guess it messed me up beyond repair).
thank God for TV, i can still see females of the human specie that i could possibly have a crush on. well, it was the next best thing. i just had this need to like someone i guess and i cant find any in my high school obviously. no one in the neighborhood either. and thats how i became an infatuation junkie. that infatuation lasted for years. when i shared this to a college friend (because we were running out of things to talk about), she first looked at me with disbelief and when she realized i wasnt kidding, she said she will never see me the same way again. years later (which was last year), not sure if she noticed, she and some other college friends would find this infatuation in "my" laptop. and my reply was "i dont know how it got there. probably my sister's." i got a "yeah right" reply from one of them but seriously, i dont know how it got there. must have placed it there unconsciously because i wasnt even aware that its inside the laptop.
now i understand why my infatuation junkie self kicked in. its because im "locked up"! i discouraged myself from going out because pretty women distract me (and they distract me more when they sit near me and are wearing intoxicating perfumes. luckily i havent encountered anyone wearing a raspberry scent. i would probably flip. just thinking about the scent is really driving me nuts. why does she have...anyways). avoiding distractions didnt actually help. now i see the problem. i cant go out because i get distracted (and the reason i get distracted easily because im avoiding "distractions" of the persistent kind. i havent been in hermit mode for quite some time so that probably aggravated things. why the hell did i abandon hermit mode? wait, yeah, i remember, something happened in 2009. damn it. i was conditioning myself back then for the bar already. i just had to disobey myself. Life, whatever your fucking plan is, it better be good because i think my plan is great but you just keep interfering). if i continue to stay indoors, infatuation junkie self kicks in. pretty women are my fucking weakness (if i like women that much, why do i appear to have an aversion toward them? that can be answered by referring to the blog entry that precedes this post chronologically. unfortunately, it contains sensitive information so i didnt post it. without the blog entry, the answer is obvious anyway. it has to do with something like Superman not exposing himself to kryptonite. i never liked Superman. always been a Batman person. well, more of Marvel person so Batman was the only one i like in the DC Universe. again, i digress).
damn it. there's no cure for something i dont want to be cured of. its either i give in to the "distraction" of the persistent kind so i wont be easily distracted when i go out or...there is no or. wait, there is. or i continue indulging until i get fed up (thats not really an option now is it?). the latter suggestion is stupid (and so is the former. sort of). my first infatuation lasted for 2-3 years. but then again, that was when i was "locked-up" in an all boy school. i mean, i had to keep my sanity within the sausage fest walls. a possible solution is to purposely forget my current infatuation but i havent really tried blocking an infatuation before. i just let it run its course and die out on its own. this could last for weeks or months. i'll probably figure someting out.
i think this blog entry just confirmed the fact that im a girl. well, im a lesbian, a girl attracted to girls. well, a lesbian stuck in a guy's body so it kinda works out. actually, this just confirms im very, very weird.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
ineffable felicity
Saw her pretty face a few days ago on the MGM channel accidentally. i was switching channels and it only took a second for me to recognize its her, Ms. Hepburn, the authority on being lovely, in one of her movies i havent seen (The Unforgiven). unfortunately, i dont have the time to watch it and my siblings dont like old movies. so im hoping that i could watch it on its next scheduled air date: August 13, around 6am. i just realized that August 13 is a Friday. an unlucky day in an unlucky month only means...2 negative forces...so it cancels each other out...therefore...the fact that i can watch Audrey Hepburn on that day just proves its a lucky day already.
"I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it."— Audrey Hepburn
"There is more to sex appeal than just measurements. I don't need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. I can convey just as much sex appeal, picking apples off a tree or standing in the rain." — Audrey Hepburn
“As a matter of fact I rather feel like expressing myself now and I could certainly use a release” - Audrey Hepburn as Jo Stockton (Funny Face)
"On the one hand maybe I’ve remained infantile, while on the other I matured quickly, because at a young age I was very aware of suffering and fear." — Audrey Hepburn
a graceful lady with an adorable smile, possessing wisdom coupled with innocence. just doesnt quite capture it. it is hard to express how lovely we think you are.
"I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it."— Audrey Hepburn
"There is more to sex appeal than just measurements. I don't need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. I can convey just as much sex appeal, picking apples off a tree or standing in the rain." — Audrey Hepburn
“As a matter of fact I rather feel like expressing myself now and I could certainly use a release” - Audrey Hepburn as Jo Stockton (Funny Face)
"On the one hand maybe I’ve remained infantile, while on the other I matured quickly, because at a young age I was very aware of suffering and fear." — Audrey Hepburn
a graceful lady with an adorable smile, possessing wisdom coupled with innocence. just doesnt quite capture it. it is hard to express how lovely we think you are.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
HD stands for Hypnotic Dancing
cant believe these vids can make my mind go blank. wait, i can! i think this is the only instance where i dont mind watching something colorful (over and over and over again) even if im a fan of dull colors because the colors are attached to something visually wonderful.
should i be thankful for the spice girls? because if not for them, there probably wont be such a thing as a pop girl group like this. the spice girls are like the great grandmothers of pop girl groups of today. or probably their long lost ancestors. and who said a girl group should have 5 members? there's no such thing as too many girls in a girl group. well, maybe there is but it has to be decided using Justice Potter Stewart's standard found in Jacobellis v. Ohio (1964). when is there too many girls in a girl group? well, we'll know it when we see it but right now, too many girls in a girl group is not yet an issue ripe for determination since the current composition of girl groups pose no controversy at the moment.
when i get sad, i stop being sad and watch girls generation instead. true story. and i thought Youtube HD is only useful for watching the Resident Evil: Afterlife trailer
should i be thankful for the spice girls? because if not for them, there probably wont be such a thing as a pop girl group like this. the spice girls are like the great grandmothers of pop girl groups of today. or probably their long lost ancestors. and who said a girl group should have 5 members? there's no such thing as too many girls in a girl group. well, maybe there is but it has to be decided using Justice Potter Stewart's standard found in Jacobellis v. Ohio (1964). when is there too many girls in a girl group? well, we'll know it when we see it but right now, too many girls in a girl group is not yet an issue ripe for determination since the current composition of girl groups pose no controversy at the moment.
when i get sad, i stop being sad and watch girls generation instead. true story. and i thought Youtube HD is only useful for watching the Resident Evil: Afterlife trailer
Saturday, August 07, 2010
'cause i am whatever you say i am
Ten years of Eminem. or maybe a little more than ten. i started listening to Eminem when i was in high school (1999). i bought his "Slim Shady LP" album (cassette tape! i started really buying CDs when i was in college. i only have less than a handful of CDs when i graduated from high school and they were the type of CDs i wish i wont be caught dead with) after seeing the "My Name Is" music video on MTV.
his latest music video is probably the best music video of all time! primarily because Megan Fox is in it. i could have just posted the music video and said Megan Fox is hot but i decided to say a little something about Eminem because i realized that i have been listening to Eminem for more than a decade and i still enjoy listening to his music and lyrical style (which i think have matured and evolved over the years but remained distinctly eminem).
anyway, this video will serve as one of the things that will keep me sane for the remaining review weeks. just a while ago i thought of becoming a taxman after days of reviewing taxation law. i was serious in considering it
his latest music video is probably the best music video of all time! primarily because Megan Fox is in it. i could have just posted the music video and said Megan Fox is hot but i decided to say a little something about Eminem because i realized that i have been listening to Eminem for more than a decade and i still enjoy listening to his music and lyrical style (which i think have matured and evolved over the years but remained distinctly eminem).
anyway, this video will serve as one of the things that will keep me sane for the remaining review weeks. just a while ago i thought of becoming a taxman after days of reviewing taxation law. i was serious in considering it
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
To believe in something, doubt everything. In the end, you have to grab your own luck. Rhythm is essential.
SESSION XX: MISH-MASH BLUES Transcript
Source: The Bebop Attic
#1 “Food for thought”SPIKE SPIEGEL Nothing lasts forever. All things must come to an end. That is the so-called way of Nature. It's rather sudden, but this is the last episode, so I would like to take this opportunity to remember all the things that have happened and think about them. Food is very important. After all, you are what you eat. Suppose there was a human clone of me, and he had never eaten anything other than hamburgers. That guy and I would genetically be the same but we would be completely different people. "Hamburger Spike" might be more short-tempered than me, or might be the kind of guy that goes to church on Sundays; he might be a violent bounty head, or a man that irons his white shirts before wearing them. At any rate, the "Hamburger Spike" would be a different person from me. In other words, when choosing your food you have to think about it carefully. I'll have the boiled lobster miso. #2 “Fools gold”JET BLACK There's a lot to “bonsai”. It's not as easy as just cutting; each bonsai has its own personality, and you have to let those live. A foolish person will try to cut anything and everything off just the same. They just cut and cut and cut the parts that stick out. Yet those parts that stick out are tis personality and its true originality. People who can't even figure that out don't have the right to hold scissors. I feel sorry for the bonsai. #3 “Que Sera Sera”FAYE VALENTINE I hate men with no thought, but I hate men who force their thoughts on others even more. I hate men with pyorrhea too. You can’t even kiss a man if his breath is bad. I love dangerous men, but I had to think about the ones that are too dangerous. I hate weak men; I love men who know their own weakness. I love optimistic men; I can't imagine trying to predict what happens in advance and then living pessimistically… Life, no matter how it falls, will probably turn out exactly as it was going to turn out. #4 “Heartless World”EDWARD WONG HAU PEPELU TIVRUSKY IV Space is very fast. Ed is traveling to find the truth of space. When I walk barefooted, it feels electric. The network sea is so spacious that there are lots of fish. When I put something on my head I get excited. When I think there is a truth and look for it, I can’t find it. When I don't think there is a truth, I can't find either. I can't get a hold of what I want, but I did get a hold of what I need. #5 “Key of life”SPIKE SPIEGEL Humans live by their heart’s beat; the beat is a systematic repetition. In other words, rhythm. Ideed, whatever you're doing rhythm is the most important. When walking, when eating, when fighting, when making love, when talking… rhythm is essential. #6 “Doggy dog world”EDWARD WONG HAU PEPELU TIVRUSKY IV Hey, Ein. Hey, hey, Ein. Why are you so furry? I know! Because you're sensitive to the cold! Hey Ein, why aren't you laughing? Ah, that is because you're nihilistic. Hey Ein, why are you so happy? Ah, it's because Ed is happy, isn't it? #7 “Walk this way”JET BLACK "The greatest respect that writers can give their readers is to not write anything that they expect." That's what Goethe said. He also said this, "whether it's a manmade or natural piece of work, we have to pay special attention to its original intent." That guy says some good things. Who would've thought that I would quit being a cop and become a bounty hunter? All my friends are surprised, saying, "You totally betrayed my expectations." That's fine. I want to do something that nobody else would think of. Seeing things you’ve never seen, hearing stories you never heard; my comrades enjoy it quite a bit. #8 “A natural woman”FAYE VALENTINE I hate simplicity. I hate over cleanliness. Being at least a little dirty makes your room and the world easier to live in. They say that "white skin hides seven blemishes" but I hate hiding; stains, freckles... what's wrong with that? If everyone has the exact same face, you can’t tell who you were. I don't know myself as it is. That's why I can't erase the clues. They're all guideposts to myself, you see. #9 “Instant karma!”SPIKE SPIEGEL Laughing Bull said to me, "Swimming bird, do you know what your soul is made from?" I said, "No. Probably some cotton dust that's rolling around somewhere." Bull said, "That answer is wrong, yet correct. Your body is connected to the universe, yet it is not; your soul includes the entire universe, yet it does not. That is for me and for everyone. If you hate someone, you hate yourself; if you love someone, you love yourself." I said, "I don't feel anything towards anyone." Bull said, "That is the greatest misfortune on this earth." #10 “Sugar mountain”SPIKE SPIEGEL They say that if you give a baby sweet things only, it will only want that and won't eat the nutritious foods that are vital. Things like sugar candy are the poison, after all. Now, it's not like I'm only talking about food. The world is full of sugar candy. If you only watch stuff like that, your brain will rot and become like yoghurt. #11 “Chain of fools”JET BLACK You know, there's a lot to cooking. It's not as easy as just randomly adding flavor. A foolish person will put in too much flavor making a dish and you won’t even be able to tell whether it's beef or chicken. Those kind of people... shouldn't hold a wok. The original flavor of the ingredients... For example, if it's beef then you have to let the originality of the beef live; otherwise the beef will be sad. #12 “Do it yourself”FAYE VALENTINE Those who don't work have no right to eat. I don't count. Woman are great just by staying alive. "Don't rely on others and do things yourself." I don't know who told me that, but for some time I've been believing in it. It's not that big of a deal though. I wouldn't want to be relied upon and not be able to come through. And even if I did, I would wonder, "was it really for their sake?" etcetera. In the end, you have to grab your own luck. JET BLACK Women will quickly betray you, but men live by giri (duty). FAYE VALENTINE Duty, huh? JET BLACK That's what I'd like to believe. #13 “If 6 was 9”SPIKE SPIEGEL It’s very important to doubt everything that you take on. Information is only information, after all. If you think that what they say on TV is the truth, you're gravely mistaken. Open your own eyes, clear out your ears, and look and listen to the world. And think using your own brain. After you've doubted everything, there is a possibility of something real to believe in. That's right, to believe in something, doubt everything.JET BLACK It's not a question of that being hard to do-- it's impossible! It's like trying to play baseball without holding a bat. Hey, Spike! SPIKE SPIEGEL That's the kind of thing I like. #14 “Amazing Grace”JET BLACK The good part about bounty hunting is that there are no rules. There is no written list of guidelines in existence for capturing a bounty. But if you do what you want they'll start complaining, or get mad and say that it against the rules. They're supposed to live by following this world’s “rules”. But who made these “rules”? It's not like we were born to obey somebody. Whether threatened or bribed, our souls can't be sold. SPIKE SPIEGEL Unfortunately, the freelancing soul is an ancient concept. JET BLACK What? But what about the heart? SPIKE SPIEGEL It's too expensive for money to buy. #15 “My favorite things”EDWARD WONG HAU PEPELU TIVRUSKY IV Ed has not had any sufferings yet. Perhaps I might have but I don't remember at all. If you ask why, it's because I only do things that look fun. And even with boring things, I find something a little fun in them and get excited. But if it's too boring, I go to sleep. And when I'm asleep, it's fun rolling around dreaming. The end~ #16 “Unfinished sympathy”SPIKE SPIEGEL Bruce Lee was said to have said this, "empty your mind and throw away any form or shape. Be like water." If you put water in a cup the water takes the form of the cup; if you put water in a teapot, the water takes the form of a teapot. Water can flow or it can crash violently. That is why, my friend, be like water." As expected, my heart's mentor speaks in a unique way. He also said this, "what I am teaching is not self-defense or how to defeat opponents or anything like that. But rather, I am teaching you how to express yourself through your movements, whether that is anger, determination, or whatever. In other words, this is a method of expression using the human body with combat." You can tell that Bruce Lee wasn't just a movie star or just a martial artist, can’t you? #17 “Public pressure”JET BLACK If there is a God in this world, I'd like to ask for one wish-- divine retribution to all those who take freedom away. #18 “Whole lotta love”FAYE VALENTINE I sometimes think I miss out on a lot with this personality. I sometimes think that, being the way I am, all the good men will run away. Well, this is who I am, so it can't be helped. If I act like someone else saying, "even though I look like this I'm really a homemaker!" or whatever... even if it did get anywhere, in the end, hardship—no—only regrets will come. It's got to be someone that will like me for myself. Well, I think it'll be tough being with me but there is probably a man unlucky enough in the universe though. #19 “Wild style”JET BLACK Over a century ago, there was a sax player called Charlie Parker. He was probably the first man to play without using sheet music. In other words, he was tired up of playing the same thing and started adlibbing and playing in his own style. The music that he started eventually came to be called Bebop. That's right. That's the origin of this ship's name. #20 “Daydream believer”SPIKE SPIEGEL We all sleep while we wake up and and we all wake up while we sleep. Is the past reality? Are memories the truth? Dreams… where are our dreams, really? The dreams we dream while asleep, the dreams we dream while awake... they're both the same. The people that say they don't dream only don't remember. The people with no dreams have only yet to notice them; they're cowards. They want to see them, but they are merely forcing themselves not to. #21 “Hang onto your self”SPIKE SPIEGEL This is just an illusion. Controlled by an unseen hand, the truth is still covered by a thick veil. But it quietly, like the moons of Titan, secretly exist, eventually revealing itself after the sandstorm clears. #22 “Looking back in anger”SPIKE SPIEGEL Stop getting angry over such frivilous things. This isn't a joke, nor is it fiction. Or... have I been seeing a bad dream? #23 “Tangled up in blue”JET BLACK A blues man somewhere was said to have said this after being asked the definition of blues, "Blues is... singing about some kind of trouble that can’t be helped."
wondering if my chin will set an appointment with its razor
im too pissed to review. so what do i do? i try to answer some questions that needs answering. its almost 2am in the morning and im trying to figure out whether i should...shave or not to shave? that is the question. yes. thats my million dollar question for tonight. or for this morning.
i started growing my moustache and beard about more than two weeks ago. in the past, someone thought that i allow my moustache and beard to grow as a form of protest (like protesting against the wretched witch my jesuit professor introduced to me as Fortuna for allowing me to be called for recitation at precisely the wrong moments during the eighth month of the year). that has never been the case. i only let it grow because i dont feel like shaving. about 63.89% of the time (or a little more than half the time to be less precise) that i decide not to shave for a day, i decide not to shave for an entire week (laziness kicks in. shaving can be bothersome). i wont shave it until im compelled to shave it. what compels me to shave it is that i cant bear the scruffy look anymore. right now, i dont mind to be scruffy looking. aside from im indoors most of the time, it also saves me money. how? well, all of the women i admit having gone out with (all means more or less half a handful) always politely asks me not to let my moustache and beard grow. they prefer that i stay clean shaven. if i dare try not to heed it because im too lazy to shave, they start asking philosophical questions like "why?, how come?, what's the point?, when will i see clean shaven tristofer again?" and some other variants of such questions that imply "lose the facial hair dammit or an embargo shall be imposed!" since i dont want to encounter such mind nagging questions, by not shaving, i am in effect preventing myself from going out on a date with anyone. and as the simple mathematical equation that no math professor or math teacher has ever taught me in school, no date = more money, having a moustache and beard can be an incentive. so now lies before me the question of to shave or not to shave? if i dont shave, i will stay scruffy looking, discourage me to go out with someone (and discourage me to meet someone new due to the acquired notion that women dont like bearded guys that looks like potential serial killers, which now raises questions...is that the reason why most serial killers are single? because chicks dont dig their scruffy look? if thats the case...how about female serial killers?) and save money. if i shave...i become clean shaven. ok. it seems there only exists an apparent predicament. but i feel like shaving now. this makes the predicament more real than apparent. but is shaving or not shaving really a predicament? its already 2am. i will probably shave it...if im still in the mood to shave it in the morning. and like the previous shaving sessions, i will shave it in the same manner ted mosby did. by trying different beard and moustache styles as the facial hair is gradually shaven off (i think there was one time, when i still had a digicam, that i tried doing mug shots). too bad i cant do an adolf/toothbrush moustache. my moustache at the center of my lip dont grow that thick. i wonder how many people in the world secretly do a silly hitler moustache with matching nazi salute when they decide to remove their facial hair? probably more than the people who remember charlie chaplin when they see themselves wearing a toothbrush moustache.
i started growing my moustache and beard about more than two weeks ago. in the past, someone thought that i allow my moustache and beard to grow as a form of protest (like protesting against the wretched witch my jesuit professor introduced to me as Fortuna for allowing me to be called for recitation at precisely the wrong moments during the eighth month of the year). that has never been the case. i only let it grow because i dont feel like shaving. about 63.89% of the time (or a little more than half the time to be less precise) that i decide not to shave for a day, i decide not to shave for an entire week (laziness kicks in. shaving can be bothersome). i wont shave it until im compelled to shave it. what compels me to shave it is that i cant bear the scruffy look anymore. right now, i dont mind to be scruffy looking. aside from im indoors most of the time, it also saves me money. how? well, all of the women i admit having gone out with (all means more or less half a handful) always politely asks me not to let my moustache and beard grow. they prefer that i stay clean shaven. if i dare try not to heed it because im too lazy to shave, they start asking philosophical questions like "why?, how come?, what's the point?, when will i see clean shaven tristofer again?" and some other variants of such questions that imply "lose the facial hair dammit or an embargo shall be imposed!" since i dont want to encounter such mind nagging questions, by not shaving, i am in effect preventing myself from going out on a date with anyone. and as the simple mathematical equation that no math professor or math teacher has ever taught me in school, no date = more money, having a moustache and beard can be an incentive. so now lies before me the question of to shave or not to shave? if i dont shave, i will stay scruffy looking, discourage me to go out with someone (and discourage me to meet someone new due to the acquired notion that women dont like bearded guys that looks like potential serial killers, which now raises questions...is that the reason why most serial killers are single? because chicks dont dig their scruffy look? if thats the case...how about female serial killers?) and save money. if i shave...i become clean shaven. ok. it seems there only exists an apparent predicament. but i feel like shaving now. this makes the predicament more real than apparent. but is shaving or not shaving really a predicament? its already 2am. i will probably shave it...if im still in the mood to shave it in the morning. and like the previous shaving sessions, i will shave it in the same manner ted mosby did. by trying different beard and moustache styles as the facial hair is gradually shaven off (i think there was one time, when i still had a digicam, that i tried doing mug shots). too bad i cant do an adolf/toothbrush moustache. my moustache at the center of my lip dont grow that thick. i wonder how many people in the world secretly do a silly hitler moustache with matching nazi salute when they decide to remove their facial hair? probably more than the people who remember charlie chaplin when they see themselves wearing a toothbrush moustache.
Sunday, August 01, 2010
and my hate-hate relationship with August begins...now!
an 85 year old woman is celebrating her birthday and she is celebrating it at my neighbor's house. she (or her offspring) hired a singer to sing oldies but goodies. problem is they're too loud! its like im in the same room as they are. normally, i wouldnt mind but i need to study and i have no other place to study at the moment but inside my room. it is August so no surprise there. well, sort of no surprise. i posted the blog entry and a sample of the nuisance in my posterous account because its easier to upload audio files there.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
paprika quote
after seeing Inception last week, i was just itching to see Paprika again. so i rented it. i wonder if they can make a live action version of this movie without ruining it.
Even the five court ladies danced in sync to the frog's flutes and drums. The whirlwind of recycled paper was a sight to see. It was like computer graphics. That I don't support Technicolor parfaits and snobby petit bourgeois is common knowledge in Oceania! Now is the time to return home to the blue sky! The confetti will dance around the shrine gates. The mailbox and the refrigerator will lead the way! Anyone who cares about expiration dates will not get in the way of the glory train! They need to fully realize the liver of the triangle rulers! Now, this festival was decided by the third grade class with the telephoto camera! Move forward! Come together! I am the ultimate governor! - Dr. Torataro Shima
Even the five court ladies danced in sync to the frog's flutes and drums. The whirlwind of recycled paper was a sight to see. It was like computer graphics. That I don't support Technicolor parfaits and snobby petit bourgeois is common knowledge in Oceania! Now is the time to return home to the blue sky! The confetti will dance around the shrine gates. The mailbox and the refrigerator will lead the way! Anyone who cares about expiration dates will not get in the way of the glory train! They need to fully realize the liver of the triangle rulers! Now, this festival was decided by the third grade class with the telephoto camera! Move forward! Come together! I am the ultimate governor! - Dr. Torataro Shima
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
poster girl
i remember years ago i had "problems" with my dreams. there are instances when i wake up inside my dream and after realizing it, wake up again in a dream then wake up a third time and thats when i really wake up (usually). so i have experienced having a "dream within a dream" but not the cool way portrayed in Inception. it was simply waking up again and again after realizing that the surroundings dont feel "real" enough or notice something not right.
anyway, since there were times when i was finding it difficult to know whether i was still dreaming or not (because there are times when dreams are beyond my control or im too "absorbed" in it that i cant manipulate my dream or the dream has control over me), i made use of a poster of a beautiful girl (not the sleazy type that appeal to prurient interest) as my indicator that im in the real world. its serves a similar function as a totem in Inception (but in Inception, the primary function of the totem is not only for the person to know whether he or she is dreaming but also to know whether its his or her dream or someone else's). for some reason, my subconscious cannot reproduce the poster in my dreams. so when i dream that im in my room, i always take note whether the poster is there or not to know whether im awake or not (so i would know whether i should keep waking up and it happened that i kept waking up until i saw the poster on my wall).
a college blockmate saw the poster when he was in my room and asked "who is she supposed to be?", i said that she's my link to reality. i dont know where that poster is now. its probably somewhere inside my room but i havent really noted where i placed it (which is odd because i always take note of the things inside my room and know exactly where they are so i would know whether someone went inside my room. i even notice if a strand of hair wasn't in my room when i left it. but i dont know the order of the clothes in my cabinet. i dont care about clothing. im digressing which is something i havent done for a while). the poster's no longer on my wall. i took it down because it was already dusty. also, i no longer have problems of waking up again and again in my dreams so i really dont have much use for it anymore. but it would be nice to wake up and see a pretty face every morning.
anyway, since there were times when i was finding it difficult to know whether i was still dreaming or not (because there are times when dreams are beyond my control or im too "absorbed" in it that i cant manipulate my dream or the dream has control over me), i made use of a poster of a beautiful girl (not the sleazy type that appeal to prurient interest) as my indicator that im in the real world. its serves a similar function as a totem in Inception (but in Inception, the primary function of the totem is not only for the person to know whether he or she is dreaming but also to know whether its his or her dream or someone else's). for some reason, my subconscious cannot reproduce the poster in my dreams. so when i dream that im in my room, i always take note whether the poster is there or not to know whether im awake or not (so i would know whether i should keep waking up and it happened that i kept waking up until i saw the poster on my wall).
a college blockmate saw the poster when he was in my room and asked "who is she supposed to be?", i said that she's my link to reality. i dont know where that poster is now. its probably somewhere inside my room but i havent really noted where i placed it (which is odd because i always take note of the things inside my room and know exactly where they are so i would know whether someone went inside my room. i even notice if a strand of hair wasn't in my room when i left it. but i dont know the order of the clothes in my cabinet. i dont care about clothing. im digressing which is something i havent done for a while). the poster's no longer on my wall. i took it down because it was already dusty. also, i no longer have problems of waking up again and again in my dreams so i really dont have much use for it anymore. but it would be nice to wake up and see a pretty face every morning.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
insatiable tristopher strikes again
I was finally able to see Inception earlier today. I watched it in IMAX (after seeing comments by people saying its worth paying for more, driving for miles even to go to an IMAX theater). before talking about the movie itself, i would like to make a little comment about seeing IMAX movies. when a movie is advertised to be available in IMAX, it does not follow its in 3D. this is becoming one of my pet peeves. i overheard someone in the theater wondering why there werent any glasses. IMAX is a film format and primarily pertains to the larger screen and greater resolution. IMAX 3D is an entirely different thing. also, not because a movie is available in IMAX 3D it means the movie had been shot using an IMAX 3D camera. if it werent shot using an IMAX 3D camera, the only difference it would have from Digital 3D is the larger screen and the greater resolution (i think. based from a one-time experience). people should also be aware if the movie was converted into 3D only during post-production which i think makes the idea of making 3D movies look bad. 3D conversion gives 3D movies a bad name.
moving to Inception, when the movie ended (the moment the credits were flashed), my first reaction was, "that's it?" like i said in my tweet, the movie is definitely not bad. its good actually but i said its ok because it really didnt blow me away (thats what i always expect from a good sci-fi movie). i wasnt visually amazed, i didnt see any jaw-dropping scenes and it wasnt intellectually stimulating enough (thats why i wonder whether it was worth watching in IMAX when a digital theater would have sufficed. but then again, it is a good movie so seeing it in IMAX wasnt really a waste). i guess after seeing the trailer i somehow knew what to expect and how it will end if it didnt have any twist. it didnt have anything new left to present. i dont think its as mind boggling as most people claim it is. its very straightforward actually. no brilliant twist whatsoever (which probably contributed to my disappointment because i prefer endings i didnt expect. but then again, it probably wasnt about the ending or the "destination" but the means or "the journey" thats meant to be enjoyed in this movie). the cast and the characters they played were great though.
anyway, i enjoyed watching it. its worth watching. i just think its not as great or complicated as some people claim it is. and i cant not consider other people's comments about a movie because its one the things i always consider if a movie is worth making time for or worth paying for. i dont have the luxury of watching any movie any time like three years ago (where i saw complete and utter crap movies like Pathfinder, Dragon Wars: D-War and Dragonball: Evolution simply because i ran out of movies to watch, except Dragon Ball where i vowed to watch it in the big screen even if i was forewarned and convinced how crappy it is).
stuff that came to mind while watching Inception:
this movie reminded me of Paprika.
during the movie, i was thinking that navigating another person's mind is something pyschologists usually do and acquiring confidential information (extraction) and planting ideas (inception) are usually performed by lawyers.
Inception is not impossible, if it merely meant planting an idea and manipulating a person's thought process. one can plant an idea in the subconcious even without going through the sci-fi process of entering another person's dream. the subconcious of another person can be reached even while he or she is in concious mode (umm...like duh!). by merely watching the movie, it already planted ideas in the viewer's mind. (this thought just sucked the fun out of the movie so i focused on watching the movie again)
the idea of time being longer in a dream compared to reality reminded me of a scene in the movie Waking Life.
i also remembered Vanilla Sky simple because it also involves dream manipulation technology.
moving to Inception, when the movie ended (the moment the credits were flashed), my first reaction was, "that's it?" like i said in my tweet, the movie is definitely not bad. its good actually but i said its ok because it really didnt blow me away (thats what i always expect from a good sci-fi movie). i wasnt visually amazed, i didnt see any jaw-dropping scenes and it wasnt intellectually stimulating enough (thats why i wonder whether it was worth watching in IMAX when a digital theater would have sufficed. but then again, it is a good movie so seeing it in IMAX wasnt really a waste). i guess after seeing the trailer i somehow knew what to expect and how it will end if it didnt have any twist. it didnt have anything new left to present. i dont think its as mind boggling as most people claim it is. its very straightforward actually. no brilliant twist whatsoever (which probably contributed to my disappointment because i prefer endings i didnt expect. but then again, it probably wasnt about the ending or the "destination" but the means or "the journey" thats meant to be enjoyed in this movie). the cast and the characters they played were great though.
anyway, i enjoyed watching it. its worth watching. i just think its not as great or complicated as some people claim it is. and i cant not consider other people's comments about a movie because its one the things i always consider if a movie is worth making time for or worth paying for. i dont have the luxury of watching any movie any time like three years ago (where i saw complete and utter crap movies like Pathfinder, Dragon Wars: D-War and Dragonball: Evolution simply because i ran out of movies to watch, except Dragon Ball where i vowed to watch it in the big screen even if i was forewarned and convinced how crappy it is).
stuff that came to mind while watching Inception:
this movie reminded me of Paprika.
during the movie, i was thinking that navigating another person's mind is something pyschologists usually do and acquiring confidential information (extraction) and planting ideas (inception) are usually performed by lawyers.
Inception is not impossible, if it merely meant planting an idea and manipulating a person's thought process. one can plant an idea in the subconcious even without going through the sci-fi process of entering another person's dream. the subconcious of another person can be reached even while he or she is in concious mode (umm...like duh!). by merely watching the movie, it already planted ideas in the viewer's mind. (this thought just sucked the fun out of the movie so i focused on watching the movie again)
the idea of time being longer in a dream compared to reality reminded me of a scene in the movie Waking Life.
i also remembered Vanilla Sky simple because it also involves dream manipulation technology.
Monday, July 19, 2010
massive pain. sort of.
last week i had my impacted wisdom tooth removed. like my other impacted wisdom tooth, it needs to be removed through minor surgery. a friend asked why now when im studying for the bar because it meant it will take days to heal and would require me to really rest, hence, as much as possible, no studying. i said, well, its been almost a month since it started aching and it keeps getting worse each day. one full week after it was removed, i havent fully recovered. my recovery is taking a bit longer compared to my previous minor surgery. my left cheek still has a bit of swelling and half my tongue is still mildly numb. hopefully in the next couple of days, the swelling will be gone and my tongue will almost be back to normal. hopefully. im bound to lose more weight since i cant eat properly. well, i lose my appetite due to the inconvenience caused by the annoying tongue.
with the impacted wisdom tooth removed, i thought i can finally review for the bar without much worries. well, three of my teeth are hurting! two molars and one incisor. what the? one week of almost no studying and i have to jumpstart my brain already. i have to deal with more shit too? oh well. i will just have to figure out a way to deal with this pain without having to go to the dentist.
with the impacted wisdom tooth removed, i thought i can finally review for the bar without much worries. well, three of my teeth are hurting! two molars and one incisor. what the? one week of almost no studying and i have to jumpstart my brain already. i have to deal with more shit too? oh well. i will just have to figure out a way to deal with this pain without having to go to the dentist.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
law school has deprived me of sports entertainment
I said to my brother earlier this morning that LeBron James will be playing for the Miami Heat next season. He didn't react. I added that he will be team mates with Shaquille O'Neal. My brother looked at me and frowned, then said to me that Shaq hasnt been with Miami since 2007 or 2008. And Shaq had been team mates with LeBron under Cleveland. He added that before going to Cleveland, Shaq played for the Phoenix Suns.
it just shows that i havent watched NBA regularly for such a long time (Twolves since 1995 but stopped watching their games when they lost Garnett. Now my teams are Boston Celtics and still the Twolves until they get good players. i like Minnesota).
i remember a few months ago that i felt pleased to watch WWE (i was able to watch the Undertaker v Shawn Michaels match). last time i remember watching WWE and NBA regularly was back in college. i also watched the World Cup back in high school. i watched the match between Spain and Germany a few days ago and only because i cant sleep because of the tooth ache. anyway, at least i know Brock Lesnar is fighting again in UFC and he just defeated Carwin.
on other sports...my cousin used to update me about what's happening in the tennis world. all of them watches tennis. i remember watching one match years ago at my cousin's house. i think it was Sampras and Agassi. there i found out that i really dont have a thing for tennis. although i watched tennis back then from time to time (back then means when Steffi Graf was still playing), it was because i like to watch Martina Hingis. after that, even if my cousin updates me, i really dont pay much attention. i just dont have a thing for tennis. i just dont feel it. i guess im a contact and collision sport type of person.
enough of this. need to review rem and ethics for the mock bar tomorrow. after lunch, going to get a cup of coffee at mcdonalds then back to hitting the books. its moments like this that i wonder why didnt i become more of a sports person? i just remembered a Big Bang Theory episode. might also buy some Mountain Dew (for some reason i became addicted to it. dont know what made me buy one a few weeks ago) which i found out yesterday is the drink of choice of geeks. my tooth hurts. now im just being incoherent and blurting out stuff.
it just shows that i havent watched NBA regularly for such a long time (Twolves since 1995 but stopped watching their games when they lost Garnett. Now my teams are Boston Celtics and still the Twolves until they get good players. i like Minnesota).
i remember a few months ago that i felt pleased to watch WWE (i was able to watch the Undertaker v Shawn Michaels match). last time i remember watching WWE and NBA regularly was back in college. i also watched the World Cup back in high school. i watched the match between Spain and Germany a few days ago and only because i cant sleep because of the tooth ache. anyway, at least i know Brock Lesnar is fighting again in UFC and he just defeated Carwin.
on other sports...my cousin used to update me about what's happening in the tennis world. all of them watches tennis. i remember watching one match years ago at my cousin's house. i think it was Sampras and Agassi. there i found out that i really dont have a thing for tennis. although i watched tennis back then from time to time (back then means when Steffi Graf was still playing), it was because i like to watch Martina Hingis. after that, even if my cousin updates me, i really dont pay much attention. i just dont have a thing for tennis. i just dont feel it. i guess im a contact and collision sport type of person.
enough of this. need to review rem and ethics for the mock bar tomorrow. after lunch, going to get a cup of coffee at mcdonalds then back to hitting the books. its moments like this that i wonder why didnt i become more of a sports person? i just remembered a Big Bang Theory episode. might also buy some Mountain Dew (for some reason i became addicted to it. dont know what made me buy one a few weeks ago) which i found out yesterday is the drink of choice of geeks. my tooth hurts. now im just being incoherent and blurting out stuff.
Thursday, July 08, 2010
better than coffee
what could keep me up until 3am in the morning after a tiring day, not make me feel sleepy even with this very nice cool night air? a tooth ache! tried sleeping, but i cant. ive endured it for almost a month and i think tonight this tooth decided to give me its worst.
wow, this tooth must have its own brain. it suddenly intensified its pain after i started blogging about it. trying to catch my attention now, are you? you nasty little enamel covered calcified thingamajig. dont worry, there's nothing i can possibly to distract me enough not to notice you.
i really need to have this tooth removed.
wow, this tooth must have its own brain. it suddenly intensified its pain after i started blogging about it. trying to catch my attention now, are you? you nasty little enamel covered calcified thingamajig. dont worry, there's nothing i can possibly to distract me enough not to notice you.
i really need to have this tooth removed.
Tuesday, July 06, 2010
Quotes from Journey's End (FMA:B)
[Blindness is] supposed to be the punishment Truth deals to those who dream of the future - Colonel Roy Mustang
[Taking responsibility for what we've done] wont erase our sins, but we want to start with what we can do. - Lieutenant Riza Hawkeye
We cannot allow the death of the culture nor religion with its history. The death of a culture is the death of a people. Use your hands to save them from death. - Major Miles
I suppose new possibilities will excite everyone, no matter their age - Lieutenant General Grumman
A lesson without pain is meaningless. That's because you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return. But once youve withstood pain and overcome it, you will gain a heart that is stronger than everything else. Yes. A Fullmetal heart. - Major Edward Elric
[Taking responsibility for what we've done] wont erase our sins, but we want to start with what we can do. - Lieutenant Riza Hawkeye
We cannot allow the death of the culture nor religion with its history. The death of a culture is the death of a people. Use your hands to save them from death. - Major Miles
I suppose new possibilities will excite everyone, no matter their age - Lieutenant General Grumman
A lesson without pain is meaningless. That's because you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return. But once youve withstood pain and overcome it, you will gain a heart that is stronger than everything else. Yes. A Fullmetal heart. - Major Edward Elric
Monday, July 05, 2010
My study habit is like making the Constitution
due to my weak physical state and distracted mental state, studying can only be done with "very great exertion; nor can it nor ought it to be frequently repeated" (Marbury v. Madison 5 US 137 (1803). i try to cover as much as i can while im physically and mentally able to. if i try to study more and push myself further, i risk aggravating my condition. damn it.
i really need to get well as soon as possible.
i really need to get well as soon as possible.
Saturday, July 03, 2010
is there a cure for hotness?
i feel hot. literally hot. i wonder if this is how Makoto Shishio feels like? im having a hard time studying for the mock bar tomorrow when i feel like im burning up! my temperature is ok and so is the thermometer i used. i dont have a fever but i feel like i have one. the electric fan is less than 3 feet away, not rotating, yet im still sweating. and the weather isnt warm. i can feel the cool air actually but i also feel like im covered with warm air so it seems the cool air isnt really reaching my skin. then how do i feel it? i dont know. it just feels that way. when i try to review, after reading a few lines, it feels like my eyes are burning up. when i touch my skin, im not warm but i feel like im burning up. what the crap is up with that?! i feel like im overheating. and now im hungry. and the only food i have left is jampong. great. just great.
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